I Have Not Been Given A Spirit Of Fear But Of Power, Love, And A Sound Mind
WHO I AM IN CHRIST: I have not been given a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind
“for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.”
This verse has a lot of significance for me. Since I was young, I was a fearful person. I hated scary movies, just seeing posters and trailers would have my imagination going wild at night. I remember I couldn't sleep for two weeks after reading the plot of Human Centipede on Wikipedia. I slept with a nightlight till I was 16 and I couldn't sleep comfortably in the dark till I was 18.
When I decided to completely surrender my life to Christ in January 2019 I began to be plagued by fear again. I would have sleep paralysis occasionally which is quite terrifying and call out to Jesus to save me. I would lay awake, afraid of all the things that go bump in the night. But this time I knew God was with me and I would recite “I have not been given a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind.” over and over till I could fall asleep. It took a while before I actually started to have faith in this verse. But eventually, I began to sleep more soundly. Now I can even use the bathroom at night without turning on the light which is a big personal accomplishment.
I also had to remind myself to trust my Father. Fear stems from distrust in God. I didn’t truly believe that, “no weapon that is fashioned against you shall succeed.” And that if I really loved God I would not have fear because perfect love casts out fear (1 John 4:18).
Fear is such a destructive force in our lives and we must go to our Father daily to help us conquer it. Fear hinders our ability to be effective for the kingdom of God. We can often be gripped by the fear of what others think of us and not give them the word the Holy Spirit is putting on our hearts. Or we could be afraid to step out into uncharted territory that will bring us closer to the promised land God has for us. We must always ask God to grow our faith and trust in Him so that we can conquer our fears.