#kingrubyducks cherry sinclair

[bendy-the-dancing-demon]

Look I don't know who this anonymous is but please don't send nasty messages in my ask box I SAID IT IN MY BIO this made me really uncomfortable do you know i don't like anyone doing that especially because of my truma ptsd and anxiety paranoia from surviving rape victim I do not roleplay on tumblr I'm not comfortable with it anymore people ruined that for me it's the same reason I quit art I'm MARRIED AND HAS KIDS I don't want anything explicit especially with my kids often LOOK AT MY PHONE WHEN IM ON THE PHONE

Warning if any of you send asks like this you will be blocked I've been hurt so many times before just trying to nice about my boundaries and get betrayed so no I will not be nice or understanding I'll block anyone with asks that is only harassing me in role-playing

[bendy-the-dancing-demon]

I'm sorry... if I'm not here often anymore...

It's I'm going through alot of pain and I don't know what to do anymore but cry

I have Several problems

Chronic pain I took 2 different type of strong pain medication and it didn't stop the leg pain

I have to go in to sinus surgery in late February

My ear eczema is burning itchy

My neighborhood is filled with police right now

I'm burned out from doctor appointments

I'm so tired but Chronic pain cause me to have sleep dysfunction and insomnia

I'm allergic to everything but food that I have a epi pen

I have severe asthma

IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF LIFE OF PAAAAIIINN

+ depression and anxiety problems

I'm feeling hopeless

[bendy-the-dancing-demon]

im really sad I need someone to talk to me because I'm falling apart again because one of my friend might actually kill themselves I already lost a friend to suicide years ago I don't want that to happen again

@roxy4life2 I need you

@king-jaxons-blog I need you

@cherry-sinclair I need you

I just can't be alone right now

[bendy-the-dancing-demon]

I feel sad my friends are not online for 11 days I just want to know if @cherry-sinclair & @kingryannducks is okay that way it calms me down and I don't panic and worry about them

[bendy-the-dancing-demon]

I really am cautious about befriending popular artists because of the fact all social media has toxic behavior in the art fandoms or any fandom like music

I had been in a discord server where the artist was mad people there like me when I'm just being friendly to people

They lied to me just to make me lose friends and make me anxious Twitter also has toxic art fandoms as I seen many art friends quit from hate or people making fake dramas with lies to hurt artists especially ones people don't like

Tumblr is the same way and Pinterest list goes on it seems no matter what you are passionate about it get ruined by online people and for artists they quit because they don't want to fight fake dramas to destroy them

I'm saying this because someone on Twitter who was a friend of mine quit art because of that and I stopped art too for that reason my current friends on here does art but I worry that one day this will happen to them because there's all of mean people acting mean girls like Regina George, the cyberbullies , the harassment people do cosplayers have ended their lives because of cyber bullying even music artists actors list goes on

[bendy-the-dancing-demon]

Im having such terrible allergies with pollen it hurts my nose and ears my eyes are watery it burns and I'm coughing a little I feel hot

Oh! And to top it all off my chronic pain level is 10 my legs knees neck hips thighs and butt hurt my ribs feel tight my entire spine hurts so much I got no sleep yesterday I'm very uncomfortable distressed and panicked because I'm really neuasous for level 10 pain I keep sneezing

IM TIRED ! IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF CHRONIC PAIN!!

[bendy-the-dancing-demon]

My tumblr glitch dms

But now I'm just here doing nothing

[bendy-the-dancing-demon]

3000 posts!

Wow so cool