#kinnie callout

[its-jijii]

dazai kinnie callout

hi hello! here’s another kinnie callout but this time for ✨Diezai✨. pls note that this is heavily based off of mafia dazai’s mindset, so if you just kin heeheehoohoo funny crazy dazai, this miiight not be the most relatable to you? idk but enjoy!! (v long text below the cut)

Dazai

Life, above all else, feels deeply unsatisfying and not worth it. You resonate with the phrase "There is nothing worth pursuing at the cost of prolonging a life of suffering". You can't find anything to fill the gaping hole you feel in your chest, in your life— Nothing is worth living for. As much as you try to hold on to the small things, to try and live for others sake, it feels like that's the only reason you're really alive. If it were up to you, you'd be dead already, but other people keep holding on. You resent them because you feel trapped in your suffering, wishing they'd let go of their own selfish desire to keep you alive; to finally open their eyes and see that you're genuinely suffering deeply and would be better off dead. You have very few goals, almost no one you idolize or look up to, and feel deeply disconnected from everyone around you. Goals are hard to maintain, and even harder to make when you don't expect to be alive long enough to see them through. You have no one to look up to, otherwise you might have aspirations and things you'd want to do with your life— but looking up to no one leaves you again with this empty and lost feeling, not knowing what to do or who to rely on. There's the deeply disconnected feeling you have from people, humanity itself. You don't understand why moral standards are the way they are— Therefore you have little qualms about using others for your own gain. You also don't understand why everyone feels so much. Living a life of chronic emptiness, emptiness so severe it hurts, you feel so inhuman. That others can experience all of this, but no, not you. You're robotic and cold, critical of every move others make. You're smart, yes, and amazing at predicting things— But this still leaves you feeling different from others. Better than them, in a way, but mostly just different. You're different in almost every way, you don't understand what they have that you're missing. Your feelings of love and affection are so limited that you hardly feel any bond with others at all. You can't find yourself in others, and they can't find themselves in you; There is this feeling of deep disconnect in every sense. So you have few people in your life, feeling numb and wishing for death, yet unable to die. You mask it around others, pretending to be like them, but deep down you know it's just a mask, and you'll never be like them. You pretend to have emotions, and while some of them are genuine, almost all of them are exaggerated displays of "humanity". You write off your dark references to your past as jokes, smiling and playing around to keep this fake life you're living. It's the only bearable thing left. You likely struggle with very severe depression, potentially personality disorders, autism, and PTSD. (i am again not a medical professional tho)

[i-cant-write-well]

Genshin kin call out

How are Venti and Kaeya kinnies both able to over share and keep half there lives a secret from you at the same time. Also trying as much as you can just to be called "lazy".

Also what's up with Mona, Keqing, and Noelle kinnies constantly feeling like they need to impress you or you'll forgot about them.

And also Sucrose, Zhongli, Bennett, Hu Tao and Fischl kinnies talking so fondly or passionately about the things they love until someone tells them to shut the fuck up

(anyways... If you kin any of them ily- Bennett and Childe kinnie)

[venleaf]

Vanitas no Carte kinnie callouts

As nobody did it yet ig I will do it

So let´s gooo Vanitas no Carte kinnie callouts

Vanitas

- you´re just afraid to loose someone and that´s why you don´t allow yourself to care/get too close to someone

- you might be in denial but you are selfaware

- so religion huh?

- walking contradiction

- you try to be nonchalent yet you still let your raw emotions show

- you wait for others to do the first step

Noé

- you´re so dam loyal and so protective of the ones you care for

- literal sweethearts until you anger them(either you directly attack them or a loved one)

- sweet stuff<3 (honestly same tho)

- you´ll do almost anything for the ones you care

- easily distracted/concentration issues

Jeanne

- you are shy and scheming/confident at the same time sometimes

- you downgraded yourself to that one thing

- easily fascinated/surprised

- as soon as you set your mind to something you will try to do it your best abilities

- you are so sweet

Dominique

- you got the confidence my queen/king/royality

- protective of the ones you care for

- you secondquestion yourself alot

- SO WHAT IF PERSON B COULD HAVE DONE BETTER THAT AIN´T ABOUT THEM YOU ARE DOING GREAT AT YOUR OWN SPEED

- you guys rock

- got the theatre talents

This was a lot harder than I thought if anybody has ideas/etc. pls do tell me and also pls tell me your opinion on and pls tell me if I should continue

[drsolvedcrime]

Oh, you kin Dipper Pines?

Socially awkward? Maybe even social anxiety? Adhs?

Really smart but insecure?

Part of the LGBTQ-community?

Intp/Infp/Infj?

Small friend group?

Weird interests/hobbies?

Good at mental activities but bad at physical ones?

Messed up sleep schedule?

Curious?

Simping for people you know you have no chance being with them?

Mystery lover?

Any chance you were a fan of creepypasta?

Don't like working in groups?

Virgo/Aquarius/Pisces?

Daydreamer?

Prefers texting over calling?

Feel like nobody really understands you?

Nerd?

Don't try to change yourself for others to like you

[its-jijii]

ranpo kinnie callout

hi hello!! third one here :D this is ranpo’s kinnie callout for all u neurodivergent ppl out there kinning him. two other things also!! one, i am posting these on instagram under the username meintheattachmentissues if you prefer reading on instagram :) and two, i am taking requests for kinnie callouts!! currently planning to do chuuya, atsushi, and poe but feel free to suggest more! okay enjoy nd long text below the cut <3

Ranpo

I've heard a million things about "burn out gifted kid" in regards to Ranpo, but it's honestly more than that. Yes, you likely were a gifted kid in elementary school, earning praise from parents and teachers alike— And now, you've burnt out of your original spark and energy. But it feels... Threatening almost. Living with parents, relatives, or friends, it's getting scary how little you can motivate yourself. Can you keep a job? Can you finish a project? You don't really know. And you don't know how much longer you're permitted to stay where you live, as it feels like they could get fed up at any moment and kick you out. And you really don't want to be left alone again— So you cling to these people, swearing you'll start driving soon, you'll get a real job soon. But inside, you wonder how much they love you. Would they love you enough to support you if you couldn't work? If you really can't pull yourself together, will they abandon you too? You deeply hope not, but you can't help but harbor this fear. Waiting games— Will I work first, or will they threaten to kick me out first? It's stressful to simply exist when you care about someone so much, but you know you're a burden to them in some way or another. God, you wish you weren't that, but this depression keeps worsening and you're barely out of bed or making yourself food. You don't dare ask for more help, since you already feel indebted to them for housing you as is; So you struggle and struggle and struggle within the walls of another's home, not knowing how to ask for help, not even daring to. You stay quiet as you gradually worsen into your own indifference and lack of motivation— What else can you do, really? You probably have autism, depression, possibly anxiety, ADHD, and possibly BPD.

[its-jijii]

akutagawa kinnie callout

hi hellooo! heres a callout for my highest kin (😳) so its a lot of projection tbh. but! not just random projection, its a lot of projection on already accepted traits he has, im just giving them a reason (bpd lol). okay anyway!! enjoy reading, and long text below the cut

Akutagawa

Your feelings are complicated, far too complicated you feel. Switching between numbness and anger, you feel that you rarely experience positive emotions in the first place. These drastic mood swings make you feel like you’re on a rollercoaster, switching between extremes on a moments notice. Small things trigger you easily, but especially things that remind you of them. They’re everything to you, your entire world and reason for living, but at the same time you resent them. Hate them, even. You try to convince yourself that you don’t, but when you’re angry, boy, you’re fucking pissed— especially at them. Because they give you, but not enough, it’s never enough. They know what you need and they refuse to provide you with it. They know how much it hurts but it feels like they’ll never stop taunting you with promises of their presence and company, only to go to voicemail and have your plans canceled on you. You refuse to beg for bare minimum, but God, sometimes you sure consider it. But that’s below you. You have standards, but oddly enough, they don’t seem to apply to other people. You can’t bring yourself to expect more than what they currently provide you, mostly because you feel that you don’t deserve it. You don’t feel like you deserve anything at all, because you feel like such a horrible person— It’s this feeling rooted deep inside you, that if they’re as angelic as they are, then you can’t possibly be considered a good person if you’re nothing like them. Still, you find that the worst parts of them seem to be reflected in you; another sign that you’re damaged and unworthy of love. Everything you hate in them becomes a part of you, and as much as you’re sick of it, you don’t know how to stop being like them. You don’t know who you are without them, and you feel a lot of your personality is based off of them. Liking what they like, disliking what they dislike, all so that they might love you. Might pay attention to you. But you’ve stopped expecting responses from them by now. You’re tired of expecting and expecting and having your expectations failed time after time. It hurts, as much as you hate to admit it— You feel that admitting pain is a sign of weakness, after all. But you have to be tough to take the treatment they give you, and you can’t let them know how you feel either. You feel you can’t let anyone know about the vicious moods you go through— you would rather just struggle alone—, and how you can’t bring yourself to admit that you hate them to their face. Because above all else, you’re terrified of being alone. Being without them is terrifying, yes, you don’t know who you are without their presence, without their personality to reflect— But being alone, without anyone at all, feels scary. On one hand you feel you would not mind it; no disappointment, no mistreatment, no overly critical views of yourself. At the same time, though, you feel that being alone could be the end of you. You hate to admit that you need people, that you need anyone at all (that’s weak of you), but without them you feel incredibly… Lost. At peace, yes, but horrifyingly empty. It feels like there is no today as there is no tomorrow, you’re so disconnected from life without human connection that you go on autopilot every day. As much as you feel you don’t deserve these connections, god you crave them. But letting anyone know would be crossing your own standards. What are these standards, you may ask? Why of course, the rules you’ve made in your own mind based on others treatment of you. That, should you cross these rules, you’ll surely be unloved. Holding yourself to such a high standard to be loved, but no standard at all that others love you, you know it seems unfair. Yet still, you feel that every mistake you’ve ever made has added up to this treatment of yours. Your deep shame and guilt over the most minor mistakes you’ve made in your life— unable to live them down, you simply accept how that special person treats you. Anything to make them stay. Anything to make them pay attention to you. You’d do anything, anything at all if they would just spend some time with you, just appreciate you. Terrified of abandonment, yet in denial over this fact, you just live coping with your never ending disappointment in others. You wish they were enough for you, but it feels impossible to achieve. If you relate to this analysis of Akutagawa, I sincerely apologize for how these people have been treating you. You deserve better, I promise. You almost 100% probably have BPD, PTSD, depression, and a dissociative disorder.

[its-jijii]

atsushi kinnie callout

these still fall under the realm of analysis so im posting them here :’D but uhh anyway this is atsushis!! now i personally don’t kin him, so this was... Interesting to write i hope its accurate either way. enjoy! long text under the cut

Atsushi

You blame yourself. For everything, it seems— stuff out of your control, traumas that happened to you, for the state of your life currently— even if it’s unrealistic. On some level you’re aware that no, you could not control or dictate how others treated you, especially when you were just a child, but you still feel guilty. That you must have been a bad child, you must have done something wrong to deserve it. Even when you knew you had done nothing wrong and didn’t deserve what happened to you, you still ended up manipulated (or manipulating yourself) into believing that what happened had to have been for a reason. You just don’t know how else to justify it, and without a reason, you feel.. Lost almost. That if your trauma didn’t occur to teach you something, or occurred for no reason at all, that it must be invalid. You must have made it up. You doubt yourself to the extreme because— why can’t you remember what happened? Bits and pieces, but overall you just knew “it was bad” and nothing beyond that. When you’re triggered, though, you remember it all so well that it’s extremely overwhelming. You just want someone to hold you and tell you it’s alright, but more often than not, you are simply ignored or told off. Others do not know how to connect to you outside of your functional persona; the kind face you put on because you believe selflessness is the answer (And secretly, you simply wish to be nothing like how people treated you). But when you have these episodes, God, you feel so selfish. And no one knows how to treat you when you’re like that, because most people haven’t experienced severe childhood trauma. They don’t know what you need but you can’t bring yourself to tell them because you can’t bear asking things of others. You feel you don’t deserve it, and that you don’t even know what you need either— If you knew how to comfort yourself, maybe you wouldn’t get like this. But ultimately you don’t understand yourself, your reactions, and why you are the way you are. You feel you must be exaggerating, you must be making it up for attention, because you always feel like such a fraud. You hate yourself, deeply, and self loathing to you is as natural as breathing. You hate yourself for not standing up to your abuser(s). You hate yourself for everything you can’t be, the way you hold yourself back. Because if your anxiety weren’t so all-consuming, maybe you could better yourself and your life. But you’re plagued by what ifs and disaster scenarios, leaving you frozen in place in fear. And secretly? You kind of fear getting better. Because you don’t know who you are if not suffering, if not people pleasing to the extreme. You don’t know who you are at all, and it haunts you deeply. You want to be someone, anyone at all, yet fear constantly that you’ve become just like your abuser(s). You fear that you’re the toxic one, you’re the reason your relationships fail, you’re the reason you stay stagnant in life. It hurts more than anything that you cannot refute these claims to yourself. That they ring true is a begrudgingly accepted fate you cannot run from. And you don’t know how to deal with that. If you relate to this, you most likely have PTSD/CPTSD, a dissociative disorder, an anxiety disorder (potentially panic disorder), and a personality disorder.

[its-jijii]

poe kinnie callout

hihiii this is poe’s! i again don’t rlly kin him but some other poe kinnies have said its relatable SO. i think its okay to post HAHA. reminder that i will be mostly switching over to my insta after tomorrow’s post! (i will still mainly be posting here but the rest of kinnie callout requests will be on insta ) long text below the cut!!

Poe

You’re rather alone, but you don’t always mind this. Anxious of everything around you, you’d rather stay isolated and alone. It’s safer that way, you feel. Being around other people especially is quite terrifying. You feel like much of a social outcast, having little to no friends growing up. You ended up not learning much of how socializing works, and often feel inadequate at talking— switching between talking too much & oversharing and going completely silent, afraid to speak up. You pretty much only talk to people you know or relate to, so you end up with very few connections in your life. You relish the time you have alone, however, so you convince yourself that you’re happy that way. But often, you find yourself wishing that you had someone to rely on, just someone that could help you when you’re struggling. And usually, you wish it was just that one person. That one person you fixate on heavily, who you love yet also sometimes hate. You admire them so deeply but for that very same reason, you want to compete. You hold your grudges deeply, but can’t help but feel confused about your own relationships. Do you love them extremely and admire them more than anything else, or do you envy what you see in them— everything you aspire to, but cannot be? You want to be better than them, to prove your own worth to yourself, so that maybe you’d stop feeling so reliant on them for advice and support. You want to stop feeling so sad whenever you’re without them, and to be able to pursue your own passions finally, rather than follow them like a lost puppy. You try your hardest to not let them know that they’re your biggest inspiration and motivator (God, you’d feel so embarrassed and awkward about it), but it is often difficult. Holding in your excitement when talking to them, trying your hardest to be useful to them; You don’t know how exactly to separate yourself from your biggest idol, so you try to cope, but everything you draw or write or create ends up being for them, inspired by them, or about them. You want to be independent so badly it hurts sometimes. So you often go with them places, but then feel shunned when they talk to others or ignore you somehow. Then back to the feeling of “I’ll show them that I can do this alone”. Yet anxiety often holds you back to the extreme, so you end up staying in your little corner of isolation, worrying away at all the possibilities and the details of your relationship with them. You likely struggle with BPD/DPD/cluster A pd, social anxiety (or generalized), autism, and possibly paranoia/psychosis. (i am not a doctor pls see a professional if u suspect any of these)