#kitsu problems

[runeberry]

my anxiety wither makes me the best tenant, or the worst

[runeberry]

me: I am tired, I keep yawning, and I have taken melatonin so it's time to sleep, yeah?

my brain: you thought

[runeberry]

Current brain chant:

Twomorehours.Twomorehours.Twomorehours.

[runeberry]

You know when your brain won't shut up while you're trying to go to sleep, and you're planning out months and months worth of product ideas and new projects and you don't get up bc goddamnit you're trying to sleep?

Where does that all go? 😩

[runeberry]

I just want to stay home and work on painting tomorrow, and maybe a new merch design.

[runeberry]

i’m so tired today, but want attention so bad, but i’m too tired to properly interact with anyone to receive that attention

[runeberry]

i’m not even sure how to describe the state i’m in right now- something like i’ve disassociated, but have been forcefully balled up into my frontal skull cavity?

moon week hit late last night after a month and a half mia, and cramps started bothering me but i was able to fall asleep until a rando number called at 1am, and then i was in too much pain to pass out until like 3 or later

i slept all morning bc just the idea of standing for a shower sent me reeling, and i’ve been out of bed for food, and bio breaks, but otherwise I’ve accomplished nothing I wanted to today, the cat hasn’t left me alone, my apetite can’t decide if it exists or not, and everything seems like a herculean task right now

first day of moon week is always a doozy, but today really feels like i got knocked loose. i can only hope tomorrow will be better

[runeberry]

I keep hearing abt a jaskel discord server, but can't find a link no matter where I look, and I don't want to bother anyone bc I don't know anyone in the fandom and messages out of the blue are weird but I would like to try to befriend more folks and talk about this little ship I love even if I'm too tired to contribute art or fic 😭