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[rkxrm]

Very Important Dinner Date ||

@rkxtaeyeon

After the wedding and the not/date aka the plus one to the wedding, he figured it was possible for them to be friends. Just friends. It was easier for them to be close and to be friends and not have this giant roadblock of emotions before them. He could accept that. Just being her friend was enough for him. She was perfect and she deserved so much better than him. She deserved the very best but he was sure that the very best was not him. In any case, namjoon was pretty sure that they could hang out as friends. 

He stared at his phone just on the coffee table in front of him. he knew that he should be packing up, but in all honesty, he was just planning on bringing two suitcases to the dorm and he figured that would enough, since he could always go back and forth (since those were the benefits of living a block away!). her contact information was lit up on his phone and namjoon debated with himself whether or not he should do it. It would just be a casual dinner. Nothing wrong with two friends grabbing dinner together. Nothing at all. He wasn’t losing anything by taking the risk. So he picked up the phone and sent her a text . 

( sms - taeyeon 💕) hey, it’s me. wanna grab dinner after practice one evening?  ( sms - taeyeon 💕)  it will be my treat hehe 

He sent the texts, convinced that she would 100% say no or even yes, but that was such a slim chance that he wouldn’t even know what to do. He set the phone aside and resumed packing, stepping past his cats on the floor, who were simply sleeping as they always did. 

[rkxrm]

All the Snacks ||

@rkyoona

namjoon rather liked flea markets and the flea market pop up at the women’s university was quite interesting. there were quite a few interesting things, but of course, if his mother was here, she’d call everything trash and insist on going to the designer stores. but he rather liked the flea markets himself, and so he wandered back and forth, looking at things on sale at all the booths. there was quite a few options, but as the evening drew closer, namjoon found himself getting super hungry so he decided to peek at the food trucks with a grin. food would be great at this point in time. 

he got food and looked around for a place to sit for a moment to eat. he saw an empty space next to a girl and he approached  her. “do you mind if i join you?” he asked, very polite and maybe semi-nervous. 

[rkxrm]

Baby Rapper ||

@rkjunhyuk

If there was someone who’s skill was fully acknowledged by the older male, it was junhyuk. Five years, back before he was signed by kt entertainment, before the third season of the mgas, namjoon had spent time busking on occasions that he wasn’t modeling or filming. he had always been a closet rapper and his style had always been speed over freestyle. Some could say that back then namjoon was freer to do what he wanted but he wasn’t learned fully. Now, he could gladly admit that he was leagues beyond the person he was five years ago. Hell, it was admirable hearing that he had inspired someone to go into rapping. 

Two years ago, this kid had introduced himself at an event that namjoon was rapping at as well, and he had been impressed back then that at thirteen, junhyuk had a certain style, a talent that reminded namjoon of his own at that age, but even more so. This talent had to be nurtured and in all honesty, namjoon was incredibly flattered that someone had decided to follow in his footsteps and especially when that kid started rapping, at thirteen, a voice like that!  

And nowdays, he’s stayed in contact with the younger, giving him tips and suggestions and even taking him out for food, since a fifteen year old was still growing. So when he has a moment during lunch hour where he can essentially skip out a bit and indulge in a longer lunch on the weekend, he texted junhyuk to bring himself out since hyung wanted to hang out with his precious child. Seeing the other walk in, he waved with a large smile. “Hyukkie!” 

[rkxrm]

Dream Concept  || Very Good  - Block B || Bootleg NSG - Johnny, RM, Gray and Jongdae ||  Line Division 

It was easy to say yes to a least favorite concept. But it was a lot harder to pin down a dream concept with amount of time that they had free since fashion week was on them and s-pop channel recordings. Sure it would have been great to do a complex choreography to stick to their trainers but they didn’t have the time for a complex choreo, so a semi-complex choreo and show off their skills was the way to go. finally settling on a song, after many many days of suggestions. The practices, when they were all together, often meant choreography and dance practice, when they were solo, well, parts had be learned. RM was pretty happy about the whole idea of their concept. There was quite a bit of rap, some high notes which meant everyone got to shine. 

Intially he had been surprised that Jongdae wasn’t in the debut line up since he was pretty sure that jongdae had been one of the shoo-ins for the debut but that was okay since now they had a great vocalist on their team and it was going to be the best. He was very excited for both concepts, since the cute one was something that he had been dreading the whole month. He wasn’t cute at all. He was supposed to be a badass rapper. But the dream song was the best option for him. They had spent most of the time practicing and on the day at Seocho building in one of the biggest auditoriums, the leftovers of the boys for the kt boy group, RM was casually chilling in the chairs, waiting for their turn. 

Finally, it was their turn and RM was pretty excited. Their cute concept was still done well and he was pretty cool with that. But their dream concept was one hundred percent the most exciting. He was eager to show off his rap skills and even his speedy rap style could shine in the song. Their dream concept song began and RM managed to easily follow with the dance moves, stepping in the middle briefly after Gray finished rapping and popping out as planned with his rap, hitting the rough and steady with ease. He was a rapper and he wasn’t about to let anyone say otherwise.  Thankfully, the choreography was pretty easy and his dancing had gotten a thousand times better over the course of the past two months and even then most of his parts at the front were very simple (thank god, not a lot of jerky moves). 

He kept that style of rapping that he had perfect over the years, while at the same time showing off his confidence and skills. It honestly was a great song to highlight everyone and hell, that high note that jongdae hit sent shivers down his spine. In RM’s humble opinion, they had done a good job and coming off the stage of the auditorium was like wearing off an adrenaline high to the max. It had been a great time and he grinned. “Maybe we can go for dinner after all the teams go. I think we deserve it,” he said, whispering to his friends after they had gotten off the stage. 

[rkxrm]

Painful Month ||

he had been unsure of where he was supposed to be. the lines given to him maybe undermined his spot as the main rapper. he was unsure of what he was doing here. he was unsure of what he could do. the choreography was painful but he had spent all of his spare time trying to perfect his skills. he had always been a rapper and model more so, rather than a dancer. so of course his dance skills wouldn't be on the same par as everyone else. he practiced almost non stop, only taking breaks to go grab food and sleep and shower.

and yet, he still had no idea what was going on. he had no idea whether he'd made the right decision. he had no idea whether he actually belonged in the group.

he was already mere steps behind than the others with the fact that most of the group were part of the ktrookies team and he was the only one who was still stuck in the basement. he knew what everyone else said about him. that he was lazy, frivolous and that he didn't deserve a chance but that negativity often just made him work even harder.

he wasn't about to falter. the choreography may have been difficult with some moves and flips but he could prove that he could handle the firetruck choreography. he felt that he had rested enough and got up, getting back into the moves that he was having the most difficulties with. he had to make sure that he was perfect.

nothing less than that would work. he had to be better than he was now. he didn't want to drag his group down because as he saw it, he was one of the weaker links in the chain and if he faltered, the whole chain would break.

[rkxrm]

Moving In ||

Moving into the dorms would be a necessary thing since it was to be expected that groupmates room together. But why did namjoon hesitate so much? He didn't have to give up his apartment (it was rightfully his). The soft padding of feet on the floor next to him reminded him. His precious babies would be left all alone! He scooped up Chichi into his arms and nuzzled into the soft white fur, debating on what he would end up doing. He couldn't leave his cats behind, but also couldn't bring them into the dorm since he was pretty sure there was going to be birds.

An idea struck itself into his mind and he called his assisstant Soyi. He didn't want to add even more to her list but he was sure that this would be a decent trade off. "I may need your help on a matter of grave importance," he said.

"Listening."

"Look, I need your help. Would you be able to come every day or so to feed my kittens? Just filling up the bowls and water would be fine! I could make  you an extra keycard so that you can get into the building.."

He heard her take a deep breath. "Fine." she stated and hung up. Having her approval he was pretty satisfied with ten way things going. So he would pack up of his stuff, discreetly move in and then  come back, give soyi the key card and the schedule and then everything would be good.

When he arrived at the dorm with the two suitcases, he took a look around in approval. Granted it wasn't as big as his apartment but it was decent. As to be expected from one of the top companies. He made his way to his assigned room and eagerly set his stuff down. Rooming with Jongdae would be fun and while he hadn't ever lived with roommates, he was sure that he could handle this.

Unsure of what Jongdae was planning on, he simply set his suitcases out the way and made his way out again, since he still had to run an errand. A key card was already ready for his assisstant. "I'll be back in a bit," he exclaimed, heading out again. He went back to his apartment (almost a literal block away from the company) and handed Soyi the extra keycard. "Honestly, you're a lifesaver." he stated, grinning.

The brunette laughed and took the keycard. "Well, working for you is easier. After all, i've been by your side for a few years," she stated, grinning. Namjoon nodded. "Oh yeah, like family."

He waved to her and headed back to the dorm. Time to unpack and move forward in life. Maybe this was exactly what he needed right now.

A change of pace.

Maybe living in a dorm would be beneficial.

[rkxrm]

Firetruck ||

The new song was rather interesting since it was something that namjoon wasn't used to, yet  in terms of style. 

he had always been the eminem or the tiger jk in his rapping style with quite a bit of speed to his natural talent, but when they were handed the line division for firetruck, namjoon noticed that he had quite a few rap parts and most of them right up his alley. he was pretty confident about the rapping, since he could handle that. However, he was unsure of working with taemin or sungho, but he was positive that the minor issues would not get in the way.

he was main rapper material and he would prove that he was meant to be in the group even if that meant working even harder on practices. namjoon was not the best dancer in the group, but he was sure that even he could hold his own in the group, while he was a bit disappointed at not being leader (as though his years of leadership are nothing), he was going to be a support and not a hindrance. after all they were here. finally at the debut line.

learning the rap lines that were temporarily given to him was easy since he was a rapper through and through and he wanted to prove that he could be the main rapper of the group with ease. it was his spot and he wasn't about to let anyone else have it.

the dance practices were a bit more intense though since they were training with the sole purpose of debut. namjoon fell behind a bit in some ways, but he was going to catch up. the fire of being nearly rejected last month was enough to propel him to even greater heights and he wasn't planning on giving up so easily.

after all, this was a welcome distraction on his mind since he had quite a shock earlier in the month. he needed to throw himself into practice completely and maybe this would pay off as well since his love life wasn't paying off solidly so maybe debut would. 

[rkxrm]

Danger ||

@rkjohnny

namjoon could have a whole list of reasons as to why he wasn’t in an ideal and happy mood. after all it was hard to be happy this month, since they were treated as leftovers. as though, they were the trash and the ones chosen for debut were perfect. he didn’t argue with some of the choices but he felt biter and envy for those chosen to debut. during the eval practices, following the fashion week activities, he tried to focus on himself so that he may be good enough and not drag the group down with his failures because even if they were the leftovers, they could still debut as the leftovers. if he let his group down and they fell because insufficient leadership and division, that would be on him. because he couldn’t lead them well enough. 

he had sent a look at johnny who was also putting in the training hours, after fashion week. “isn’t it horrible that we’re essentially designated as terrible and therefore not chosen for the debut line up?” he asked, posing a hypothetical question. “what do you think, johnny?” he asked, curious as to what his fellow tall human thought.