#koichama rambles

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For 21 years my cousin had this birthday. Just today, I put two and two together and told her, “OMG your birthday is pi day!” She already knew. I might be forgiven for this little oversight as the weirdest thing about my cousins’ birthdays is that a disproportionate number of them fall on the 14th - how thoughtful. For the longest time, I really just had to remember the month to know my cousins’ birthdays.

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I spent the last hour sketching different dragons... I could have sworn I had stuff to do today.

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Self-Worth

Last night I contemplated numbers while looking at my followers. I don't know if 52 followers is a lot for tumblr. I just know that I would need a pen and paper to keep track of that many people. Furthermore, each person who added to that number is a whole person with a whole separate experience and life, maybe completely different, maybe just like me.

That little 1 is supposed to represent the grand total of one person. It just seems that a number isn't enough to fully convey an individual. I know some of you well, some a little too well XP, and some not well enough. Everyone is more than part of a sum of a number.

So what does that number mean? It's something wonderful. That number is the number of times a person made a decision to include you into their lives. That is the number of times a post had reached someone you may not even know who lives across the world.

Whenever you feel as if you have nothing of worth to say, or to share, someone else believes that what you share is important enough to include in their little space every day. That's the number of times a post of yours reached someone. They made the choice to keep listening to you because they liked what you shared. At times you feel ignored. At times you feel as if you have nothing of worth to share. Someone else thinks differently.

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"Mother Instinct" is bogus

I am a great example how it is possible to possess a uterus and not have the right instincts to tend to a baby.

Walking down the toy aisle today, I set out off the motion detector of a loud toy. My immediate reaction was to assume fighting stance (scared the shit out of me), to face my opponent, a giggling baby.... My cousin couldn't stop laughing as she told me that I looked so serious about punching out a baby. I really really think this is a warning sign.

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Really weird musings about tag system?

How do people NOT use a bazillion tags?

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this is my 1000th post.

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Completed my hardest task yet! A perspective drawing. I even challenged myself by choosing an area with a lot of detail, exposed piping, tiles, glass windows overlooking a bluff. I cannot believe I spent the time to finish drawing this overpass.

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THINGS TO CATCH UP ON THIS WINTER BREAK

Volstivic Cycle *Finish* Watch Revolutionary Girl Utena Watch Fate/Night Zero Watch Princess Tutu