#kos au

[crabbng]

the sunrise scene from the hit KoS au fic city lights chapter 7 💕 by @alienbeans

[nazyalenskyism]

The Love of My Life When ...

Summary: Zoya broke things off to protect them both, or at least that's what she told herself. As the weeks pass and she reflects on her time with Nikolai, things don't appear to be as black and white as they once had.

Nikolai thought that this time would be different, that he had finally found the one. After Zoya left, no matter how hard he tried to move on, he couldn't.

Through memories and lingering interactions will the two will find it in themselves to find their way back to one another?

A/N: A multi-part work based on the song '21' by Gracie Abrams. A modern AU with angst with a happy ending. Part 1 is under the cut and this post will be updated as more parts are posted. I hope you enjoy, and as always comments are really appreciated <3.

Ao3: The Love of My Life When... Tumblr: PART 2 | PART 3 | PART 4 | PART 5 | PART 6  Updated 03/03/2021

I missed your twenty-first birthday

I've been up at home

Almost tried to call you, don't know if I should

Hate to picture you half-drunk happy

Hate to think you went out without me

        “We met on your twenty-first birthday.”

        “Wrong. It was the day after my birthday.”

        Zoya in the video gaped at the phone in his hand, “That’s the same thing! You were born at 10 pm, I met you at 10 am the next morning, that’s within twenty four hours of your birth.” 

        “Funny, I didn’t know birthday’s worked like that,” Nikolai jested, tugging playfully at a coil of her hair as she scowled at him. “You glided into my life like a stormy angel, but you were a miracle that was just a day late. Promise me no more missing my birthday.”

        “You’re such a child,” Zoya huffed, “I didn’t even know you then.”

        “Promise me Zoya, you know how important birthdays are.” She recognized the hesitation in video-Zoya’s eyes, she had been afraid of promises like that, no matter how silly they were. She didn’t want to promise him forever when she knew she wouldn’t be able to deliver it. But then she’d thought, ‘he’s not trying to marry you, just do it, it’s a stupid promise he’ll forget about in the morning. It means nothing.’ And so Zoya rolled her eyes and said, “fine. I promise I won’t miss your birthday,” smiling when Nikolai did.

        ‘There was only one problem with that,’ future Zoya thought, the only problem was that she’d broken her promise, like she’d known she would. Nikolai’s 21st birthday had led her to years of slowly letting down her walls, helping him let down his. They had been good years, she knew that, but she had also known it wouldn't last, it wouldn’t last. And that’s why she ended it. Now three years later, two weeks after she’d called it off her finger hovered over the phone m, debating whether she should call him or not. It was his birthday, it meant so much to him but at the same time he probably hated her, and didn’t want to hear from her. ‘What do you want me to do, Nikolai?’ She switched apps quickly to Instagram, shaking out her head, her pride, her fear, whatever name she gave it today wouldn't let her do it. 

        Instantly she regretted opening her social media. She usually had a girls night with her friends on Fridays, but today that wasn't the case. All her friends were his friends too-- and so the first photo that popped up on her feed was Genya’s, a picture of the birthday boy looking carefree and goofy, a drunken smile plastered onto his face.  ‘He looks happy, ‘ she thought, the blow of seeing his face stinging behind her eyes. His messy hair and loose tie reminded her of the nights they’d spent on the roof of his apartment building, talking for hours, neither of them wanting to be the one who ended the night.  The thoughts, ‘maybe I should’ve sent him a happy birthday text,’ and ‘he’s celebrating without me, that smile isn’t for me, he left me,’  jumbled together in Zoya’s head. He wouldn’t want to hear from her of all people, and why would he want her by his side? They were broken up, because of her, as they should be. Everyone else had accepted it,  she had accepted it. So why did the rest of her body betray her, longing even when her mind denied any more attachment?

        She burrowed into the pillows on her sofa, heart heavy against her chest. It had been weeks, the promise she’d made him in that video was a joke, she doubted he even remembered. She shouldn’t care, he wasn’t in her life anymore, like she’d wanted. Yet the loss of her best friend still lodged inside of her, refusing to let her be at ease. Her first glass wine emptied down to the dregs. And then her second. And then her fifth, until she felt tendrils of sleep tugging her into oblivion.

[iamgarbo]

I submitted these to @crabbng but I guess I'll post them here too! I made a d&d character based outta Crabbng's Kings of Sorts world! If you havent heard of Crabbng or seen their art or read their comics, I highly recommend you do!!! But anyways! This is my Character, shes a Tiefling Bàsbeò with the element of Mist! Her name is Cruinneach! I love her!! Cruin for short!!

[crabbng]

I FORGOT! doodles for chapters 8 and 9 of the highly acclaimed KoS fanfic Mr Sunshine by @alienbeans , including bonmom !

[crabbng]

another chapter of the hit kos au fanfic mr sunshine? by @alienbeans ? yes. it's dnd time.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/43798713/chapters/112591913

[crabbng]

new kos fic by celebrated kos fic author @alienbeans 'mr sunshine' is here! like. five chapters. a lot has happened over winter break.

[crabbng]

chapter 6 of city lights, celebrated kos fic by celebrated kos fanfic author @alienbeans is here!!

plus a sideways bon with the tattoos that were mentioned in ch 5 cause i forgot them last time i was drawing. he's sideways cause he's too tall otherwise.

[crabbng]

city lights, a kos fanfic, written by @alienbeans , has a THIRD CHAPTER! it was released like over a week ago but i finally colored these