The repeated cycle of "forgiving—accepting—allowing" is so so precious to me.
forgiving yourself for being bitter and alone bc you were just a kid who had to shoulder the world's rejection simply cause of how you looked, accepting your fear of abandonment and overcoming it, and allowing yourself to trust again.
forgiving yourself for not fitting into the societal/gender norms bc your likes should never have to fit in a box made by someone else anyway, accepting yourself as you are, overcoming the anxiety, guilt and fear of rejection, and allowing yourself to express your character freely.
forgiving yourself for being a survivor in an accident where others didn't make it, bc your innocent actions weren't the reason for the cause—you were just a naíve kid in a bad situation, accepting your loneliness and others help while unlearning the belief of "undeserving of it all", and allowing yourself to grieve those you lost along the way and make new bonds.
forgiving yourself for losing control and hurting those picking on you bc you were alone with all the pointing fingers and not a single guiding hand, accepting that your mistakes doesn't decide who you are—that you're not a monster for fighting back, and allowing yourself to put faith on others and trust them.
forgiving yourself for not being able to 'protect' at all times bc you were simply a kid in a household surrounded by authorities you couldn't dare defy until older, accepting your feelings as they come, accepting that you can't always be there for everyone and sometimes all you can do is cheer from the sideline, and allowing yourself to be a kid.
forgiving yourself for being angry at people even after accepting their apology bc you didn't know you had other options, accepting all your negatives and unlearning the process of repressing your feelings, and allowing yourself to unapologetically show exactly how you feel.
forgiving yourself for being unruly and messy bc you're just a kid who was fed empty lies and now can't trust what's real and what's not, accepting that you do feel lonely and unlearning the trust issues formed along the way, and allowing yourself to trust those around you again.
it truly is beautiful. gods i love this show.
