#kotunatural

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[hands u a sad endverse cas] [hands u a sad endverse cas] [hands u a sad endv

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if ur still doing sketch requests... how does dean feel about endverse cas and baby? or maybe cas does not let dean hold baby 😳

uhhh so endverse destiel and baby

ok this one has been in the drafts WAY too long but i havent quite gotten the visualization right and i dont want to leave it in drafts for 30 years. (that being said do expect some endv dean + baby bc i have doodles of it but nothing post-worthy yet </3)

i have so many feelings abt endv dean + baby. like, if u have dean + baby REGARDLESS of context its already a lot to unpack. a lot to handle. makes me feel unwell (in a good way. or something). if u add “the baby is a product of him and cas” its like. ok taking psychic damage. add endverse for instant KO. 

for the most part, i think he would be anxious about it. would be so fucking worried abt cas the whole time. hes already SO possessive about cas even tho he doesnt want to show it, but i think if there was a baby in the picture he would 1) have an excuse to be possessive and over-protective in front of everyone else bc its about the baby instead of cas (read: its also VERY much about cas) and 2) he would finally have an excuse to kinda.. keep heavier tabs on cas. genuinely i do think he would go so far as to try to keep cas locked in the cabin if he had to, which would certainly result in them fighting (reasonable response to that, imo).

all i can rlly think about is.. pure melancholy. its hard to describe. or draw, even. every time i think about “how would dean feel about the baby in this context” all i can picture is dean looking so fucking sadly at cas like someone kicked his puppy in front of him. dean getting a constant mental barrage of “i did this to him. we cant do this now. i cant do this period. what if i lose him. what if i lose both of them. what if he realizes im really not good enough. does he even want to do this with me.” and its just OUGGHGHHH its heart-wrenching honestly.

genuinely i do think he would love the baby. i think thats the problem. its just like how he really does love cas, he just. yeah. idk. i hope this makes sense </3

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at this point i just log on and hold up my latest drawing of endverse cas like hey everybody check out this weird little dude i just drew

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You know WHAT. Yeah, more Endverse Cas with baby. If no one else will utilize this wonderful idea (i MAY write something for it. Maybe. To be determined.) Then i will continue to ask.

MORE ENDVERSE CAS WITH HIS BABY..... T_____T ooougughhh i love th

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Oh!! If you're still taking requests, more Endverse cas with a baby?

napping while dean is out doing whatever it is a fearless leader does :']

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Does Dean and Cas get together in your fic?

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got a few questions if there was a fic for the last endverse art and the short answer is YES there is but its currently a 10 page outline and a 2k ch1 draft so um. me gongaga