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Being in a fandom as an aroace, I find myself a reason, a source, to show and feel emotions I don't normally feel from my own experiences.
Fangirling makes me feel more alive, and I get reminded that I'm not some broken or heartless robot.
My experience with romance is like my love for classical music. I can love different classical music pieces, but I can never play them on a musical instrument. I can never be part of it.
Empty Fillings
(an aroace poem by me)
Yearning for something I can't have
Reaching into the distance with a prayer
A heart that could only be hopeful
And yet remains empty of what it desires
Everyday I'm in between light and dark
Loneliness covered with a perfect facade
Living my life with the absence of something
Allowing tears to flow when it hits
I watch the world from a transparent glass
Filling my desire with secondhand feelings
Hands reaching something I can never touch
Temporarily filling the emptiness inside
To My Moon
An AylinLuna, and 23.5 inspired poem in Aylin's pov
I didn't know eyes could smile
A smile so bright, I might melt
Until your gaze fell upon my sight
You gently knocked on my door
Persistent, but patiently, and soft
Entering my world with your warmth
The walls I've put up so high around me
Were now painted with both our colors in it
Never leaving me alone, while keeping it strong
It took me a while to recognize
The exact name for the feelings I have inside
But now that I know, it is time to express it to you
If Only I could Fall in Love
(an aromantic poem by me)
If only I could fall in love
I'd have been your sweetest lover
Greet you in the morning with a smile
Kiss you good night in the forehead
If only I could fall in love
You'll forever be my only muse
Write you a thousand love letters
Or dedicate to you every poem I write
But I could never seem to fall in love
Not in the past, not now, not any time soon
Every day I continue to strive alone
Keeping this hopeless romantic heart alive
Confused in ARO
what do I do
Am I meant to be lonely?
(another aromantic poem)
Am I meant to be lonely?
To stay forever by myself
And love no one specially?
Am I meant to be alone?
Talk endlessly to myself
And not be loved by anyone at all?
Attraction wasn't for everyone
But a privilege not for me
A quality I was born without.
Will I ever feel complete?
The emptiness consumes me
Strangling me to loneliness.
Am I meant to be lonely?
To lead my life only wishing
That one day I'll have someone.
I'm still the same person who writes a comment then deletes it before even posting it because the sudden spike of confidence runs out as fast as it had come
