#kristopher talks

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the last gift my dad got me before he passed was this sewing machine

and i swear to GOD im going to use it to make something cool ...just gotta get over that anxiety bump ;u;

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annoyed when i'm hungry, there's full fridge and freezers, there's snacks galore... but none of it is my safe foods and most of it is stuff i either don't like or think i wouldn't, so i can't eat it

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sometimes it feels like if One More Thing happens whether slightly annoying or majorly bad even good, really, if it was intense enough

i will crash the fuck out for an undetermined amount of time

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going to be brave today and talk to my doctor about getting a wheelchair

i can't really afford to get one if my insurance won't pay for it, but y'know, we'd make it work if we had to lol

hoping really badly she listens to me, she has every time before now, but this feels like another Step towards trying to help myself in a way that most people don't accept as necessary

wish me luck guys ;u;

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there are waffles in the freezer, right

and i'm trying to come up with ways to eat them not plain, cause i love waffles but i dont really like them plain

syrup bad plain waffle bad don't have much else to put on them

so i was like... what if i put chocolate chips on them? and for about an hour of thinking about it, that sounded pretty good!

and then i considered the possible texture

you'll never guess whether or not i'll try it now

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every time i see anything about AAC's, or similar, i'm left pining after being allowed to be nonverbal

then i feel guilty cause i CAN make myself talk i CAN do it

but god sometimes its so so hard to just... talk

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my ENT appointment is tomorrow, it's time to see if she'll listen about my theory that i have Meniere's Disease

from the different things ive read it all fits, but i'm so "young" that they probably won't want to diagnose it yet

we'll see lol

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the ESSA i think i'm gonna end up using most! his name is Toast