#kwanisms update

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Hello dear readers.

Wow, I know. She's alive? K is alive??? I am indeed alive.

I know it's been a while but a lot has happened. I know I promised to come back around November last year but due to unforseen circumstances, I took an unannounced extended hiatus.

The easy answer is I lost my drive, inspiration, and focus.

To elaborate on that, many of you that have been here since the beginning are aware of my chonky potato, Mia.

For those who don't know, this wonderful little kitty has been in my life since 2014. I adopted her when she was 3 and a half years old. She was born in May of 2011. I didn't share much about her health but she was a hefty cat, weighing in at 18 pounds. As such, she went on a vet approved diet to lose weight. And it worked. She started shedding the weight at a healthy pace. Until she wasn't. Then, she started getting sick. And finally, she wasn't eating.

We took her to the vet who ran all kinds of tests and the results weren't what we wanted. Her kidney levels were off. We tried everything but it wasn't enough and on December 10th, 2021, my furry best friend passed away in my mother's arms. My heart broke. I didn't want to continue on without my baby. I spiraled into a deep depression and the only thing that kept me going was my family and my best friend, @yoonguurt.

Mia was the joy in my life. She made my life so much brighter and I know some people will read this and think "she was just a cat" but she wasn't just a cat to me. She was my companion, the light of my life, and my soul mate. I loved her more than anything. More than writing, more than kpop, even more than Seungkwan (sorry Kwannie lol). She was everything to me.

I finally want to say that I'm not sorry I took time off this blog for this. I'd say death is a pretty valid reason to stop posting and checking this blog entirely. I'm not going to make any promises and say I'm coming back because I honestly don't know if I'm coming back. I miss writing, I really do, but I just don't have any inspiration or drive to write and I'm not going to force anything.

I do want to thank those of you who have continued to read and enjoy my content while I've been gone. It means a lot to me but this website is dead. I've finally accepted it and moved on. If I do decide to continue my stories, you can find them on AO3 which is linked in my navigation tab. I will also make a post with a direct link to the story. And if you need an invite to create an account on ao3, send me a DM or an ask and I'll send you an invite link.

Thank you for reading this long overdue update and I'll catch y'all on the flipside. ~ K

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Something’s Coming...

I’ve been working diligently for the last few days to crank this out while also working on those Time Stamp requests and those will be post before this starts.

⇩ See more below the cut ⇩

⤑ genre: steampunk au, sky pirates, ateez au, angst, fluff, smut, ⤑ pairing: Seonghwa x OC ⤑ warning:  alcohol consumption, mention of death, major character death, sexual content, strong language, more warnings in each part ⤑ summary:  Living in the sky is not always easy, especially with a religious sect policing everything you do. One florist, Bang Min-ah, has always dreamed about life outside Arcadia. Little does she know, she’s about to find out how very different life is when a group of sky pirates accidentally kidnap her.

We have character profiles coming next so please look forward to that and in the mean time, enjoy this preview.

Sundas, 22:41 Copperdrift

Min-ah set her clean dress on the chest at the end of her bed, straightening up when there was a knock at the door. ‘I wonder who that could be,’ she thought as she moved to answer the door. The latch clicked as she turned the knob and cracked the door and peered into the hall.

Seonghwa stood just beyond the door, leaning against the door frame, his arms crossed over his chest. Min-ah opened the door further. “Seonghwa?” she asked, drawing the man’s attention as he looked up from the floor. “What are you doing here?” Min-ah asked, crossing her arms over her body to cover herself, remembering she was only in a nightgown.

Seonghwa struggled to hide a smile before he spoke.

“I was wondering,” he started, turning his head to look down the hall. He found it hard to find the right words. Min-ah watched as he pulled his bottom lip between his teeth before turning to fix his gaze on her. “I was wondering if, since we’re leaving tomorrow morning,” he said softly.

Min-ah felt her lips twitch, tempted to smile at him. ‘He’s being cute,’ she told herself. “Since you’re leaving tomorrow?” she asked, trying to egg him on. She had an idea of what he was trying to ask but she wanted to hear him say it.

Seonghwa felt his chest tighten. He wasn’t sure when he started feeling this way toward the florist, but it was too late to back out now. He was in deep. He took a deep breath, letting his words flow. “Since we’re leaving in the morning for a few days, I was wondering if we could spend the night together,” he finally said.

Min-ah’s heart skipped a beat, her cheeks growing warm before she remembered he was waiting for an answer. She opened her mouth to answer but no sound came out. She watched as Seonghwa’s expression shifted. He stood up straight and forced a chuckle.

“Sorry,” he murmured, shaking his head. “That was an inappropriate thing to ask,” he added. “I should go back to my room,” he said. Min-ah panicked and reached out, grabbing his wrist. Seonghwa looked down at her hand on his wrist and back up.

“I-I want that,” Min-ah said breathlessly. Seonghwa met her gaze as understanding crossed his features. He turned and allowed Min-ah to lead him into her room. She dropped his wrist and shut the door behind him, locking it. She turned to face him, her cheeks a soft pink before the two look away from each other.

Min-ah walked over to her bed and climbed on, settling in the middle of the mattress. Seonghwa tried to appear casual as he crossed the room to sit on the edge of the bed. Min-ah watched him until he turned to look at her, his eyes meeting hers in a silent question. Min-ah sat up, reaching over to grab his sleeve.

Seonghwa smiled as she tugged on his sleeve to pull him back onto the bed. Min-ah made an impatient noise and grabbed Seonghwa’s arm and tugged harder, pulling him back, causing a laugh to escape him. “Wait,” he said softly, pulling his arm from her grasp and sat back up.

Min-ah watched as he leaned over to undo the ties on his boots before he kicked them off. Seonghwa scooted back until he was settled next to Min-ah. A smile crossed his face as she curled into his side, wrapping an arm around his waist.

Seonghwa rested his cheek against the top of her head, listening to her steady breathing. Silence blanketed them before Seonghwa spoke. “I know you said you were fine earlier,” he whispered, taking her hand in his gently. Min-ah didn’t move, just listened, watching his hand ghost over her own.

“Are you sure you’re okay?” he asked softly. His fingers laced with hers and Min-ah felt her heart leap. She nodded slightly. “Just… shocked I suppose,” she added. Seonghwa tightened his arm around her. “You’ve never seen someone shot before?” he asked. Min-ah chuckled. “No, we don’t usually see that in Arcadia,” she said, shaking her head. Seonghwa smiled to himself.

“I keep forgetting how different your life is from mine,” he said quietly. Min-ah said nothing. She remembered what Seonghwa said about his childhood and his teenage years. She found it difficult to comprehend how someone so kind could come from such a rough upbringing but then she remembered that she wasn’t all that bad either.

I hope you enjoyed that preview and if you want to see where this scene goes, remember to check in on my blog for To the Sky!

[kwanisms]

Just a heads up:

No Collision Course update tomorrow! Updates will resume on Monday the 20th ^-^

[kwanisms]

I figured I'd better go ahead and make this post

I will not be putting Collision Course on hold as it is a (spoiler alert) Hoshi centered fic.

I will however be putting the finale of Tales from Camp on hold as it is Wonwoo's part. I was planning on releasing it on Friday, the 17th, for his birthday but that's not going to happen. I am sorry for those of you that were looking forward to it. But Collision Course will go on as scheduled and I will also try to finish writing and editing the second chapter of To the Sky so I can get that up for y'all.

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Important Update

Hey everyone. Just a quick update.

I don't normally talk about this but I feel like I need to.

I'm going to be a bit inactive for a bit. There's a lot going on in my personal life and that includes financial struggles. Work has been so slow and I also have had to call in numerous times because of my back. (Long story short, I injured my back at my last job and it's now affecting my performance at this job.)

So my checks have been significantly smaller than they were in the past and I'm really stressed about that. It's also February and where I live is notorious for high depression rates, especially seasonal depression.

I rarely talk about my depression but right now, I am not necessarily doing good and the stress from my financial struggles are adding to that.

So to keep from overworking myself, I'm going to take a small hiatus. I know that's such an ugly word on this platform but I feel like I need it at this point to keep my sanity.

I'm not sure exactly when I'll be back and I know I just started a new series but I really just need to take a step back for a bit.

I'll still be interacting and writing in my free time but I won't be posting any stories. I am still working on the timestamp event and I will post those when I'm done.

Thank you to everyone who has been patient with me. I'm just not in a good head space right now.

If any of you want to help, and I'm not in anyway asking for help or support, but if anyone wants to help, I have a ko-fi and you can find that here.

Thanks for reading my work so far and I'll be back as soon as I can.

Love, K.

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!!!IMPORTANT!!!

Hi friends, K here. I have a few important announcements to make regarding the future of this blog.

See more under the cut.

I have decided going into the new year that my requests will be permanently closed and I will no longer be writing reactions or imagines.

This is a decision I have spent a lot of time thinking about and I feel like it is best for me and for the stability of my blog to do so. I don't feel inspired to write them and I would rather focus on my series instead. 

Which brings me to my next point:

From this point on, all series (meaning fics with more than three parts) will be OC x member rather than reader inserts. I find it more appealing to create characters with vivid background stories. My oneshots and drabbles will still be reader insert, so don't worry about that. And series like Tales from Camp, which is a collection of oneshots, will be in reader insert format.

I will be taking my reactions and imagines off my masterlists and putting them on a separate one which will be accessible through my main masterlist. I am not going to change my posted series to OC, nor am I going to change the ones that are already planned as reader x member since I don’t feel like reworking them to make the MC an original character.

Which brings me to my third and final point:

I am putting several of my stories on hold, including: Snake Pit (BTS Suga), Limerence (BTS Jeongguk), See You in Stockholm (BTS Jimin), Aienkien (EXO Yixing), Forget Me Not (BTS Jimin - Taehyung triangle), and unfortunately iBoyfriend (Got7 Jinyoung - Mark triangle). 

The reason why? I haven’t had any inspiration for these stories for several months and any inspiration I do have, comes in random bursts and I am only able to write a few paragraphs before my attention wavers. I just don’t feel motivated enough to work on them so they will be going in my Vault Doc on Google Docs until I am ready to work on them again.

I want to apologize to those of you who have been patiently waiting for my to start some of these series but I want to assure you that they aren’t going anywhere. I’m not getting rid of them. I’m just setting them aside to work on things that I am more invested in and more inspired to write.

I want to thank everyone who has supported me so far and also thank everyone for being so patient and kind. Hopefully you will continue to stick with me and support this blog as we go into the new year, and a new decade!

All of my love and best wishes this holiday season, ~k

[kwanisms]

Y’all I’m—

I’m going to cry. Seriously. I am going to cry and it’s all your fault.

I cannot express how much this means to me. When I started this blog a little over a year ago, I never expected it would go anywhere. I never thought I would receive so much love and support. It really means the world to me.

As a thank you for sticking with me, I am excited to announce I am planning on finishing the remaining four oneshots of Tales from Camp and posting them this Saturday and Sunday. Think of it as a gift for the holidays from me~

I would also like to take this time to let you all know that I will be announcing the next series to be posted once Overdue is done. So please stay tuned for that!

Again, and I know I say it a lot but thank you so so much for everything and I hope you all continue to support me as the year comes to a close.

I plan on bringing back wed, give head, kick out of bed for the night while I write so, send me three idols to wed, give head, and kick out of bed!

I hope everyone is having a swell day/night wherever they are and make sure to get lots of sleep and drink plenty of water.

💕~ kwanisms

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reposting

Due to two separate people coming to me to let me know some of my works have been reposted on Wattpad, I want to make this perfectly clear right now:

I do not, under any circumstances, allow the reposting of my written works on tumblr or any other content hosting website. Even with proper credits. 

This extends to translations as well.

Just as gif makers do not allow reuploads on something that took hours of their time to learn to do and then make, it took me MONTHS to write some of my series, even longer for others. It only takes a few minutes to reupload something and that’s unfair to us, the authors. I have spent months of my life on this blog and on my content because I enjoy writing. It’s a hobby for me.

Do not feel that you, as a reader, are entitled to do with it as you please simply because it’s on the internet. I OWN these works and the law explicitly states so.

From here on out, I will be employing an IP tracker and statistics add-ons to my blog as well as anti-right clicking coding to prevent this from happening from this moment onward.

I will continue to monitor Wattpad to keep an eye on not only my own works but those of my mutuals and the blogs I follow to make sure no one else is experiencing this. I honestly never thought my stories would get reposted but with more followers comes more probability. I’m realizing that now.

Again, I do not allow reposting of my content under ANY circumstances.

tl;dr: don’t repost my shit. ~𝐤.