#kxniel

[spoiledsovls]

@kxniel.

hands itching to get jisoo- not in that way but she missed his warmth. his scent. his voice. god damn it she missed everything about him. some sort of paranoia had been creeping along her shoulders whispering sweet nothings that made her anxiety ten times worse. tossing and turning in her bed, feeling like death would come up and embrace her in its arms if he never called back. if he never texted back. or if he just never came back.

the thought of it brought a chill up her spine, wrapping the blanket around herself while tucking herself in. no way was she going to let cold air in under her blanket of warmth. it wasn’t even the main point of what she was focusing on, she was focusing on if she was going to be okay. he was indeed like a drug. intoxicating her with what she wants and what she needs. and by the time he’s gone, she’s scratching her skin like crazy without it flowing in her blood system. she didn’t know how to feel about it, but she’s told him multiple times before. maybe she should stop being a stupid teenager with feelings and maybe, get over it?

get over the fact that he was busy. he was an adult, and she a teenager. both in the same world, but living different lives. he was able to work. she wasn’t. due to her criminal records of several attempts of stealing from music shops to other crimes such as public fights in bars that she wasn’t even supposed to be in. she went to school, and she was locked in until two o’clock on the dot. school was about to start again and who knows when she’d see him again. she had to make some time, for herself. but how could she if he’s been running in her mind all day? along with another boy, and god it distressed her so much.

placing her hands over her ears, she turns around to plop her face into her pillow. yelling for help, yelling for some advice. she’s still growing up, still learning from her mistakes and experiencing things that others are experiencing. and her heart longs for him. to be in his arms yet again because fuck it felt like home more than home felt like home. it was the first pair of arms she had stumbled into after her father had ‘disowned’ her. the first pair of arms that were able to fix her right up when her skin was getting bruises and wounds from her father’s actions. the first- the first- the first--

she’d be the first to text him.

grabbing her phone, she scrolls down to his contact, pressing on his name before clicking the envelope symbol. it was like she was desperate for a response, but she wouldn’t get some anytime soon.

[sms ; shining star] i miss you-- oh so much.. [sms ; shining star] i know you’re busy. probably sleeping right now since you’re so tired. [sms ; shining star] but it’s nice to get texts like this, eh? specially from me? [sms ; shining star] kidding.. kidding.. hurry back home? [sms ; shining star] and please be safe. i hope you are.

[spoiledsovls]

👍👍👍 probably would be sending this to you a million times, but i'm pretty sure i've told you all about how much i love your writing. don't need to explain it at all, but loves you down for it tbh.

Send 👍 if you like my character portrayal; please say why.

i loooove you.

[spoiledsovls]

all texts!!

send “✆” for a morning text.

[sms ; shining star] morning, sleeping beauty? or prince charming. fuck, i can’t do any of this cheesy shit. get up.

send  “✉” for a text that wasn’t sent

[sms ; shining star] i need help-

send “☎” for a rushed text.

[sms ; shining star] i forgot yourcodde

send “⁇” for a drunk text.

[sms ; shining star] y o o oo o there’s this really cute guy at this bar and i think he’s starinf at meeh hahaha woow what do i do!!

send “✿” for a suggestive text.

[sms ; shining star] car, the extra room, your place, or mine?

send “ø” for a late night text.

[sms ; shining star] get all the rest you can.. okay? i just needed to text you to make sure you’re sleepin’. do it for me.

send “✘” for a hateful text.

[sms ; shining star] you’re always the one draggin’ the fuckin’ conversation, i don’t want you to talk to me!

send “#” for a random text.

[sms ; shining star] snapbacks and tattoooss.

send “@” for a scared text.

[sms ; shining star] i haven’t heard from you in a while. you didn’t go again.. right? right? i’m just being paranoid n’ shit?

send “&” for a loving text.

[sms ; shining star] i feel like you say lots of shit to me and i take it in and i hope you know that i cherish every single bit of it. and i know i always start the fuckin’ fights and i’m petty as fuck, but that doesn’t keep me from yanno. uh.. fallin’, and stuff. i’m being really sappy (if you could call it that.) right now but just know i like you as much-- no. i like you more than i did last year but i’m just.. it’s unreal. and i guess i’m kinda scared too. i know you’re havin’ a bad day because of me, but i’ll come over with an americano and maybe two song recommendations this time, okay? i’m sorry. and ... i l.. ah. yeah, okay. i can’t say it, but just know you mean so fuckin’ much to me.

send “%” for a curious text.

[sms ; shining star] so how many girls have you done that to.. eh?

send “ツ” for an excited text.

[sms ; shining star] this new underwear you got me ehehehehehe alright i’m off for pics. :)

send “$” for an accidental text.

[sms ; shining star] yeah ji gets off in a bit, i’m heading to his place to surprise him.. nah. he doesn’t know.

send “♀” for a heartbreaking text.

[sms ; shining star] you were just a mistake.

[spoiledsovls]

@kxniel.

...

collapsed, on the floor was hyejung. her fingers shaking as her airway was blocked somehow. did she eat something bad? she wasn’t sure, and she wasn’t even sure who to call. who to text. so she goes to her favorites, clicking on jisoo’s name before texting him. call me now, it’s urgent. and it really was-- although she did’t know his scedule. fingers scratched at her neck harshly before she picks up the call. she takes a deep breath before throwing hersellf into a coughing fit, and then struggling to say the words that slipped out of her lips.. “i don’t.. feel anything. i can’t-- ji. i don’t know what’s happening to me right now-- i feel like i can’t breathe. an fuck damn it, i’m scared.”

[leexareum-blog]

〖 SMS ⇒ little sis 〗guess who's back from nyc? 〖 SMS ⇒ little sis 〗i'm jetlagged but i come bearing gifts. come over soon?

📧 → @kxniel

〖 SMS ⇒ big bro 〗you should be resting now that you’re back〖 SMS ⇒ big bro 〗but who can resist you, i’ll be over in a few minutes〖 SMS ⇒ big bro 〗i wish i could have gone with you to nyc 

[jihnq-blog]

* @kxniel acceptance would be gratifying !

         Non competitive and flowing, that is what their relationship should be. But in the sea of consternation that fed on Jinhong’s nerves existed Daniel, the older and intimidating brother of his girlfriend who could not be entraced with his famous boyish charm that he adoringly possessed. And even meanwhile they were sitting one in front of the other, both with mugs of coffee in their hands, the bearishness that Jinhong was haunted by kept persecuting, terrorizing the aura. With air in his lungs thick, he swallows down the saliva that is barely left in his dry mouth, his inconsistent glance can only indicate of how uncomfortable the situation is for him. “Uhm, so. Um... hyung-nim... how are you?”

[kwnrly-archived]

( @kxniel​ ! )

 「 ▸ ▹™」:: ❝ — It’s so humid out here. i can feel the sweat soaking into my socks. ❞ AH YES, THE JOYS OF CAMPING. endless amounts of sweat, bugs, and aching heels from all the hiking— she’s loving it. no sarcasm attached. despite the complaints that sporadically fall from her lips, she appreciates nature and all that comes with it. her heightened senses absorb every ounce of the beautiful scenery, making it even more luxurious. from the smell of crisp, mid-summer air mixed with dirt & plants; to the melodious songs of nature that caress her ears, and the splatters of vibrant, natural colors that dazzled her sight. it’s nearly impossible for her to properly express her amazement with words but the twinkle in her eyes, the pep in her tone, and the way everything piqued her interest said enough. Honestly, one of her goals in life was to go camping with someone she loved ( she made actual plans to go but those backfired due to unforeseen circumstances. ) and although she doesn’t necessarily love this guy ( how could she, they just met. ) it was still satisfactory for her first camping experience. for a moment she finds herself lost in a trance as she fully indulges in the sounds and feels more than her sight, savoring them. though, this quickly changes from lovely chirps and rustling wind to a loud squeak with vulgar curses following. the toe of her shoe hits a rock, knocking her off balance and sends her tipping forward but before she manages to scrape and disfigure her face on rocks she catches her balance. an angry huff shoots through her nostrils and she kicks the rock out of her way. ❝ — Shit — why are these god damned rocks trying to kill me? I need to pay attention. ❞ although her words are slightly mumbled, she feels bad for cursing. what if he’s one of those pure people that find cursing repulsive?

SPEAKING OF HIM. a friendship is blossoming between the two. one with beauty that resembles the mysterious opening buds of spring and can easily rival the charm of the summer wildlife. though they haven’t became friends yet, she’s sure the friendship will bloom long before it’s time to leave. to riley, making friends is expected since it’s a daily occurrence that happens just as much as she breathes. she holds an outgoing & overly friendly personality that’s unique even among the extroverts. yet, even with the hoards of people she befriends, the novelty hasn’t worn off. she still gets butterflies when she makes a new connection or approaches someone new. she’s thankful for that. it means she hasn’t lost herself. anyway, this particular situation is new to her. they were basically thrown at each other and told to become buddies which was fine with her. this new challenge makes her burn with with determination. she made a promise to herself earlier to make him not just a friend but a close friend by the end of this month. She hikes up the oversized bookbag perched on her back & looks over her shoulder at the male. ❝ — Honestly....I have no idea what a good campground looks like. ❞ her lips press together to form a straight line, eyebrows furrowing in the process. ❝ — I don’t know what one looks like but, i’d like to set up camp next to a stream or something.... Some type of water because it’s prettier there and we might see a lot of animals! That’d be really cool. Unless you don’t like water...or animals. If that’s the case then just tell me where you feel most comfortable setting up camp! Anywhere you see fit will do. ❞ she’s grinning at him, a wide one that’s bright & warm, probably to kill whatever awkwardness might be left.

[kwnras-blog]

                       ( ✽ — I CHOOSE YOU @kxniel  ! )

“ hey now, don’t laugh! ” she starts, arms folded over her chest as she tries to show him how serious she was. yoora knows how ridiculous this probably sounded and that was obvious from the small smile on her face, but the incident bothered her. “ i’m asking because i know you’ll keep it real with me. am i really that short? ”