#hys.

[prinsesangmatapang]

Sht. Na iiyak talaga ako. Gusto ko na lang iwasan lahat. 😔

[prinsesangmatapang]

And you’re killing me and you don’t even realize it. :/

[prinsesangmatapang]

Hey! Can’t you see?

I’m inlove with you.But you ignore me. Ow sorry because you do not know. 

[spoiledsovls]

@kxniel.

hands itching to get jisoo- not in that way but she missed his warmth. his scent. his voice. god damn it she missed everything about him. some sort of paranoia had been creeping along her shoulders whispering sweet nothings that made her anxiety ten times worse. tossing and turning in her bed, feeling like death would come up and embrace her in its arms if he never called back. if he never texted back. or if he just never came back.

the thought of it brought a chill up her spine, wrapping the blanket around herself while tucking herself in. no way was she going to let cold air in under her blanket of warmth. it wasn’t even the main point of what she was focusing on, she was focusing on if she was going to be okay. he was indeed like a drug. intoxicating her with what she wants and what she needs. and by the time he’s gone, she’s scratching her skin like crazy without it flowing in her blood system. she didn’t know how to feel about it, but she’s told him multiple times before. maybe she should stop being a stupid teenager with feelings and maybe, get over it?

get over the fact that he was busy. he was an adult, and she a teenager. both in the same world, but living different lives. he was able to work. she wasn’t. due to her criminal records of several attempts of stealing from music shops to other crimes such as public fights in bars that she wasn’t even supposed to be in. she went to school, and she was locked in until two o’clock on the dot. school was about to start again and who knows when she’d see him again. she had to make some time, for herself. but how could she if he’s been running in her mind all day? along with another boy, and god it distressed her so much.

placing her hands over her ears, she turns around to plop her face into her pillow. yelling for help, yelling for some advice. she’s still growing up, still learning from her mistakes and experiencing things that others are experiencing. and her heart longs for him. to be in his arms yet again because fuck it felt like home more than home felt like home. it was the first pair of arms she had stumbled into after her father had ‘disowned’ her. the first pair of arms that were able to fix her right up when her skin was getting bruises and wounds from her father’s actions. the first- the first- the first--

she’d be the first to text him.

grabbing her phone, she scrolls down to his contact, pressing on his name before clicking the envelope symbol. it was like she was desperate for a response, but she wouldn’t get some anytime soon.

[sms ; shining star] i miss you-- oh so much.. [sms ; shining star] i know you’re busy. probably sleeping right now since you’re so tired. [sms ; shining star] but it’s nice to get texts like this, eh? specially from me? [sms ; shining star] kidding.. kidding.. hurry back home? [sms ; shining star] and please be safe. i hope you are.

[spoiledsovls]

Talk about the person you've had the most intense romantic feelings for.

“@kxniel​ , i choose you.

to the boy that was the first to shake up my heart– the boy who was the first who broke my heart. for the boy who was able to let me hear colors.. he’s someone i hold dearly to my heart. to say that i don’t love him.. it’s a truth and it’s a lie at the same time. a girl as young as me, i don’t understand what love is. jisoo– sometimes i forget that that’s not his only name. knowing him as daniel when he catches me– drunk. on the streets. reconnecting with the girl he left a year ago. i don’t know, i’m rambling.. there’s too much to say.” hyejung places her hands on her cheeks, looking down. “m’not flustered or anything.. but you mean- he means a lot to me. this idiot named kang jisoo. you know? well, maybe you don’t know.” she scrunches her nose. “i- i don’t know. let’s just stop talking about this. i don’t wanna do this anymore.” shaking her head, she turns her back to the other who was asking. “i can’t believe you asked me that, baek. you know how sensitive the topic is to me.” intense romantic feelings meant falling in love. falling in love meant getting attached and dependent– which hyejung couldn’t approve of since most of her life depended on her being dependent on herself. “god damn it. cut. shut the video off. i don’t agree to this anymore.”

[spoiledsovls]

all texts!!

send “✆” for a morning text.

[sms ; shining star] morning, sleeping beauty? or prince charming. fuck, i can’t do any of this cheesy shit. get up.

send  “✉” for a text that wasn’t sent

[sms ; shining star] i need help-

send “☎” for a rushed text.

[sms ; shining star] i forgot yourcodde

send “⁇” for a drunk text.

[sms ; shining star] y o o oo o there’s this really cute guy at this bar and i think he’s starinf at meeh hahaha woow what do i do!!

send “✿” for a suggestive text.

[sms ; shining star] car, the extra room, your place, or mine?

send “ø” for a late night text.

[sms ; shining star] get all the rest you can.. okay? i just needed to text you to make sure you’re sleepin’. do it for me.

send “✘” for a hateful text.

[sms ; shining star] you’re always the one draggin’ the fuckin’ conversation, i don’t want you to talk to me!

send “#” for a random text.

[sms ; shining star] snapbacks and tattoooss.

send “@” for a scared text.

[sms ; shining star] i haven’t heard from you in a while. you didn’t go again.. right? right? i’m just being paranoid n’ shit?

send “&” for a loving text.

[sms ; shining star] i feel like you say lots of shit to me and i take it in and i hope you know that i cherish every single bit of it. and i know i always start the fuckin’ fights and i’m petty as fuck, but that doesn’t keep me from yanno. uh.. fallin’, and stuff. i’m being really sappy (if you could call it that.) right now but just know i like you as much-- no. i like you more than i did last year but i’m just.. it’s unreal. and i guess i’m kinda scared too. i know you’re havin’ a bad day because of me, but i’ll come over with an americano and maybe two song recommendations this time, okay? i’m sorry. and ... i l.. ah. yeah, okay. i can’t say it, but just know you mean so fuckin’ much to me.

send “%” for a curious text.

[sms ; shining star] so how many girls have you done that to.. eh?

send “ツ” for an excited text.

[sms ; shining star] this new underwear you got me ehehehehehe alright i’m off for pics. :)

send “$” for an accidental text.

[sms ; shining star] yeah ji gets off in a bit, i’m heading to his place to surprise him.. nah. he doesn’t know.

send “♀” for a heartbreaking text.

[sms ; shining star] you were just a mistake.

[spoiledsovls]

➡ @kxniel + light blue.

“ i think you're the most amazing girl i've met. a tiny bit broken, but either way, i kind of can't help but think that away about you. i can't stop thinking about you, to be honest. you're just perfect to me. “ “... i didn’t understand any of that.”