Unedited, straight from my brain .... here we go:
"I don't remember a lot of my days, everything just feels like it's passing by and I'm just standing still, lately, like I'm standing in the middle of a free way and all the cars are speeding by and my hair is flying all around me, getting in my eyes that never close, and nothing stops.. everything just keeps moving and I can't even catch a breath to be able to breathe into my lungs and out into the world, like how the ocean takes a deep breath but always comes back, flooding softly against the sand or crashing hard against the rocks.. and I'm just here, waiting, and watching, and listening, paralyzed, stuck, can't even take one step forward, can't even think about it, my eyes glaze over, never have they been so heavy before, my gaze dull and exhausting.... yet, I am unable to blink, to close them, to sleep, to dream away the numb, cold, feelingless days and hours and minutes, nothing just stops, even when I cant catch my breath"