while i'm using your askbox to cry about my faves, may i just say that season 1 is the one when atsushi fell in love, and season 2 is the one where dazai fell in love? hear me out, if i remember correctly s2 is when dazai began properly heart-eying atsushi and in s1 atsushi is all, "why did dazai save me then???" and obviously the s3 ending marks their wedding as you once wisely said. the anime is the dazatsu love story we deserve
atsushi fell in love not when he saw dazai with the sunset painted brilliantly behind him but when he asked for forty bowls of chazuke and dazai was like “this kid fucking ROCKS of COURSE”
and ok you are right dazai just really [clenches fist] i feel like he hearteyes atsushi when he sees all that potential. like i’m cheesy and an advocate for that first meeting being a little bit extreme on the hearteyes because he saw atsu like “oh there’s my tiger just imagine the things this baby can DO” and then every time he sees atsushi really coming into his own and just living up to all he can be, when he sees how strong he’s getting and how much he’s improved how can he NOT hearteyes? it’s really only a natural reaction come on
and season THREE i vaguely remember saying that that was their wedding and you know what? that was incredibly smart and sexy of me to say because it WAS
I mean. it wasn’t literally but you can’t tell me that dazai giving that lil piece of him to atsushi, of the sunset, all that tenderness and that - you’re trying to tell me that doesn’t hold a similar emotional value???? you are WRONG
i am so glad asagiri wrote bsd solely with us dazatsu stans in mind before we even existed
hey mandy! i hope you’re doing good 💞 i have a small hc that giyuu likes plants! they’re well, ya know, just sitting there & watering them, seeing them grow and make progress makes him feel a little more relaxed
It's been a rough day, but thank you, Sam
And now that you say it, I can totally see it. I mean, Giyuu is a patient person, I think he'd love seeing the growth slowly happen. He'd probably have a guard if it were a more peaceful time, to be honest
(He probably loves visiting Kagaya to see the plants there. Giyuu secretly longs for a day when he can peacefully sit in his own garden)
i promised you an essay about bsd s1 ed so here it is: i'm still emotional about it because imagine you're watching this anime for the first time & suddenly the protag reaches out with his pinky (y'know, symbolism for soulmates and the like) towards the guy who saved him & said guy pets him in another frame & the protag looks like a content, purring cat. how can you say anything but, wow, that's gay as all fuck!!!!
the SYMBOLISM for SOULMATES! that’s my MFin BOYS
and let’s not forget that the whole thing about their mentor/mentee thing is they are ATTACHED at the HIP!! and like it’s DAZAI who is responsible for helping atsushi navigate through this weird new life he has and you can’t TELL ME it doesn’t get to a point where atsushi just takes dazai as this constant part of it! that this life isn’t complete without dazai because he’s the one that he navigates it with!!! they were built to go through life together!!!!!!!!!
and we can’t forget about how there’s the whole thing about atsushi falling into the water and dazai reaching for him and when they make contact the bg just EXLPODES into light! and it’s sort of implied that dazai reaches in to pull him out of the water!! and it’s just like “wherever you are, I’ll be there too to pull you to safety and help you find the shore” like FUCK MAN that’s PEAK ROMANCE!!
Summary: The plan had been risky from the beginning, something Atsushi didn’t have enough of an issue with to keep Dazai at peace. He feels a panic and resignation he’s only felt once before, only this time he’s stuck behind an earpiece, unable to reach out and grasp what he fears may be slipping away too quickly.
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The plan had been risky from the beginning, something Atsushi didn’t have enough of an issue with to keep Dazai at peace.
When Ranpo had brought the plan up in a meeting, Atsushi’s surprise only lasted a second before he nodded, that same determined look on his face that Dazai had seen countless times before. At the time, he had to fight to keep his displeasure from showing in the form of a deep grimace. Nodding at Atsushi and forcing his lips up in an empty smile as he passed, Dazai stayed in his seat until only he and Ranpo were left in the meeting room.
Mindlessly spinning a sucker in his mouth, Ranpo took his time to say, “Do you have a problem?”
An uneasy feeling spread in Dazai’s gut as he scrounged around for something to say. He did have a problem - he wasn’t comfortable with putting Atsushi in danger like this again. Anymore it seemed as if Atsushi was always bait for their missions, but forcing him to be captured? Logically, Dazai figured it would be okay. He knew Ranpo wouldn’t devise a plan where Atsushi had to die willy-nilly. But the small part of him that took over at the most inconvenient times, the part of him that even allowed him the relief of holding Atsushi close, was begging him to make a scene and come up with an alternative plan.
He swallowed the protests that part of him tried to throw out and stood up from his seat instead. “Of course not,” He answered with a pained smile. “I believe in your plan, and I trust that Atsushi can make it out of the situation once he’s completed the job.”
Ranpo hummed, clearly not believing him but letting the subject drop. He probably didn’t care much, anyway.
Ranpo had the same calm disposition days later, chewing on some candy while Dazai clenched the arms of his chair so hard his knuckles turned white and his fingers cramped. The screen in front of him showed the scenes from some cameras the detectives were keeping track of, but his attention was instead on the sounds coming in from his earpiece. After losing contact with Atsushi for hours, they finally managed to pick up a signal and regain communications, but a gruff voice was coming through instead. There were a few demands here and there, most requests for sentry to be relieved and to get authorities to stop tailing them. As much as Dazai wanted to tell them otherwise, the others had convinced him to agree to their demands. Now that they had gotten the taste of authority, they began threatening and taunting the agency members. Dazai couldn’t be bothered to listen to what they were saying. All he cared about were the delirious groans of pain he could barely hear in the background and a strange sense of dread climbing up to his chest that was all too familiar despite only being around once before.
“We almost didn’t recognize ya,” One of the voices said as the other laughed behind him, drowning out the sounds in the background. Dazai had to bite his lip to stop himself from yelling out and begging them to stop so he would be able to hear Atsushi and get that relief that at least he was okay. “How could we have forgotten that it was the armed detectives we were dealing with?”
Kunikida appeared behind Dazai’s desk, eyes covered completely by a glare from the many screens in the room. “Watch your tongue, Dazai,” he warned, head tilted slightly to avoid making direct eye contact. No doubt he could recognize the deadly look in his eyes, cold enough to freeze out the panic growing inside of him. “We need to keep them calm while we regain the upper hand.”
“What do you want?” Dazai asked through clenched teeth. Every muscle in his body was tensed, painful and strenuous enough to keep him on guard.
“Just a little message, that’s all,” they responded. “Word on the street says nobody crosses you guys and walks away in one piece. We just wanna let them know that ain’t always true.”
“We’ve done everything you’ve asked us to do,” Dazai answered. He couldn’t keep his voice from sounding so rough, his chest swelling with the inflating feeling of desperation. An imaginary clock ticked down in his head as blood-splattered visions flashed in his mind, the pent-up energy ricocheting off every cell in his body. He wanted to do something - he was too close to the one thing that could send him spiraling out of control, and yet again he was helpless.
“And we appreciate that. But working together like we’re old pals doesn’t look as tough, right? You understand.” Before he could finish his sentence, a sharp cry pierced through the earpiece and right into Dazai’s heart. He couldn’t tell what they were doing to Atsushi, but an unbearable sound of agony ripped through the air for a horrifically long time until he was given a moment’s relief.
Even worse, Dazai did understand them. He understood far too well. This moment was something he had been planning on the moment he met Atsushi and that tiny, stupid, hopeful spark reignited itself. That didn’t stop his stomach from tumbling around inside of him and threatening to spill out on the ground, and it didn’t stop his heart from clenching in his chest and curling up to die.
He didn’t mean to break. But he was getting weak, worn so thin from the strain of worrying everything he cared about would be robbed from him that he snapped. His co-workers all turned to look at him, startled as he cried out in a hoarse voice, “You said you would let him go!”
A harsh screech echoed throughout the office as he stood from his chair, Kunikida and Kenji holding his arms to his side almost immediately as if their enemy was right in front of them. Dazai kept struggling, the earpiece falling out of his ear as he tried to escape. He didn’t have a plan - it wasn’t like he could run to Atsushi and save his life - but he needed to do something, anything before somebody precious died again because he was too late.
In the midst of the struggle, Ranpo stood up abruptly, face stoic. Once the noise died down, he looked Dazai in the eyes as if daring him to challenge him (which he might try, considering he thought Ranpo got them into this mess) and said, “I have an idea.”
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When Atsushi woke up, his entire body was aching as though he had lifted an entire building and his head was pounding. He was crunched into an uncomfortable position, someone holding their arms around him with one arm behind his back and the other tucking him close to their chest. He could hear their heartbeat steadily pumping, interrupted every now and then when he was jostled by what he assumed was a bump in the road. He didn’t dare open his eyes for a few moments, letting himself adjust to the painstaking task of maintaining awareness.
When his eyes finally did open, he saw a familiar bolo tie and immediately sank into himself, relief flooding his veins. He felt warm, and not from the trickle of blood down his skin or a rush of adrenaline. He felt safe.
Gently pushing on Dazai’s shoulder, Atsushi softly called out before reaching out to push his head. Immediately Dazai furrowed his brows and grabbed Atsushi’s hand, opening one eye lazily before smiling and leaning his cheek into Atsushi’s palm.
For a moment, neither of them said anything. Atsushi trailed his eyes down, watching the rise and fall of Dazai’s chest, until he noticed dark red pools on his shirt.
“Is that your blood?” Atsushi asked quietly, dragging his eyes back to Dazai’s face. His mouth stayed in a small smile, but his eyes flickered with something darker, something protective. A chill shook Atsushi’s spine.
In a light, airy tone, Dazai answered, “No, it isn’t.”
Atsushi surveyed the crowd in the van with him, all slightly beaten from a struggle with his captors. He told himself he wanted to feel bad, but he couldn’t force himself to do it. Instead, he relaxed again, nuzzling into Dazai’s shoulder as he readjusted himself.
Truth be told, he was more satisfied with the answer than Dazai would ever expect him to be.
vomit / don’t ship / okay / cute / adorable / perfect / beyond flawless / hot damn / screaming and crying / i will ship them in hell
Before Atsushi could protest or even realize what was happening, Dazai had his hands on either side of his head, cupping his face roughly as if he was afraid Atsushi would pull away. The way he kept their lips together almost hurt, but after the mission they just got home from, Atsushi found it hard to blame him. When the dust had settled and he first saw Dazai, it took all he had to prevent himself from kissing him as hard as possible, just to remember that he was there. He guessed Dazai felt the same way, but his anxieties took longer to stop swimming around inside him.
When he finally pulled away, the grasp on Atsushi turned soft, much closer to a caress than a grip. Atsushi could tell already his lips were kiss-bruised, a very numb pulsing in them if he really paid attention. “What was that all about?” He asked, breathless.
Dazai looked away, only for a second, before finally allowing himself to soften up. It was a look Atsushi had committed to memory, but would probably die if he could never see again.
“I’m not sure I can properly sum it up,” Dazai admitted, shrugging and placing another, much softer kiss on Atsushi’s nose. “But I guess most people would call it love.”
SKK
vomit / don’t ship / okay / cute / adorable / perfect / beyond flawless / hot damn / screaming and crying / i will ship them in hell
Chuuya was breathless, chest heaving as he slumped over, trying to gather himself enough to stand and find his way back home. The angry red swirling on his skin, wrapping around his limbs was long gone, but Dazai refused to let go of his wrist until he was certain everything was over.
Finally Chuuya pulled away, straightening out from his crouched position with a snarl on his face. “I don’t need your goddamn help,” He hissed, holding onto his arm as if Dazai’s touch burned him. Maybe it didn’t, but maybe it did, the way his did to Dazai, branding him long past his mafia days and becoming a habit he wasn’t sure he wanted to break. “Save your hero act for somebody who gives a shit.”
Dazai only hummed, watching as Chuuya walked away. He was as resilient as ever, and it was as comforting as it was infuriating. Most days, Dazai didn’t know what to make of his thoughts on his old partner, but he knew he’d always be there to stop himself from complete destruction. They fit together in that way.
what is your current otp (the answer better be dazatsu), what is/are your favourite trope(s) & what is your favourite canon ship?
s-sammy wammy........thank u............ilu...
shipping asks (open!)
2. What is your current otp?
Hmmm, my current otp........[looks at my url]...........man, i don’t know....I’m really getting into this whole kunikidazai thing.......
u know i’m joking alkdsjf while I ADORE kunikidazai my heart does belong to dazatsu and probably always will
4. What is/are your favorite trope(s)?
Do vampires count as tropes
I think overall I’m a huge fan of friends to lovers - and even friends to lovers to stranger to lovers, or some similar variation. Not a huge fan of friends to enemies to lovers or the likes, but that’s just me.
I’m also down for found families (which is more platonic ig), sleepy morning kisses/cuddles, wedding fics......mayhaps i just want to give characters a future of stable foreseeable happiness.....
I also like to hurt characters with bedside vigil fics and super intense “i almost lost you” kisses. For dazatsu specifically, I love the “my ability stopped your healing ability FUCK”
[happy sigh] tropes are so good.
24. What is your favorite canon ship?
not to be “uwu quirky” or whatever but most of the time when a ship becomes canon it’s not my top choice - or I don’t stick around in a series long enough to see anybody become canon kfdsjslkdf
Does seiricha count? Seigi and Richard (from Jewler Richard asdkjf) are basically married lmao....but I’m not sure? I used to watch SVTFOE (I know that’s not an anime but i did say ALL fandoms lol) and didn’t starco end up canon? If so that’s them boys. That’s my fave canon ship
what’s your favorite canon moment of dazatsu & favorite AU ideas for dazatsu? :0
hey!! sorry it took so long to get to you alsdkjfdk I got really excited when I saw you in my inbox though!! so thank you so much ksdjfdkfj
my favorite canon moment for dazatsu is probably any time Dazai talks about Atsushi when he isn’t there. Like when he was kidnapped by the mafia and says “My new subordinate is far superior to you” or something. And in dead apple when he said he wasn’t bored anymore after talking about Atsushi. I don’t remember the exact wording but i just think it’s sweet how he talks about him! If you’re looking for a specific scene, I’d say...probably the end of the episode where they covered Portrait of a Father. I’ve always liked Dazai comforting Atsushi and trying to be more than just a mentor, helping him through his own rough patches, and I also liked Dazai following him around, watching for when he was needed.
I’m an anime main, so I hope you don’t mind me taking it from the anime and not the manga lol
Now, my favorite AU ideas...
I love mafia dazatsu! Not BEAST dazatsu, but mafia dazatsu. There’s a bunch of different ways you could go about this and I just love wondering if they could have a semi-wholesome relationship when Dazai is still in the mafia!
Idol AU! A while ago I was talking about an AU where Atsushi was an idol and Dazai was his biggest fan and I really like the idea of fanboy Dazai battling rabid fans and saving Atsushi from having to do anything that makes him too uncomfortable and all that jazz
Vampire AU!! I LOVE vampires, and this is one where the roles can be switched! Dazai is normally the default vampire because he’s so detached from feeling human, but I personally adore vampire dazatsu with atsushi trying to prove he isn’t a monster (kind of like he does in canon with his own thoughts?) plus vampires are sexy and im always down to clown with them.
ahhh thank you again for the ask! you’re always free to drop by uwu <3
hi, not to be predictable or anything but atsushi for the character ask game, please? 💝
akdsljflksdf no problem! he deserves love! <3
favorite thing about them: fjlksdjfkdslf evERYTHING? baby boy is so precious and perfect I don’t think I can pick just one........he’s so sweet and he’s so strong and considerate and brave and he has a smile like the sun and i just......he’s a m a z i n g and he needs someone to tell him over and over again until he believes it! I will gladly volunteerleast favorite thing about them: he’s uh...a little clueless at times....like i understand that his entire childhood (you know, that lil ol part of your life that exists solely to teach you not to be so clueless) was a bit.....janky, to put it lightly...and I also know that as a main character he’s not gonna be in the know so that we, as viewers/readers, can have our questions explained to us, but....sometimes I just wanna.....tell him to shut his mouth and think about things for a second, yknow? it’s ok he cute thofavorite line: every single fucking word that comes out of his mouth is a gift- uh i mean I like that whole “Human strength exists to be shared with others in the depths of despair” or whatever....i’m very bad at remembering quotes I’m sorry.
For a line that doesn’t belong on r/im14andthisisdeep, i like every time he looks at Dazai and considers pushing him into the road to solve all of his problems. That’s fun and I love any bit of sass we can get from him
brOTP: the ada trio!! him, dazai and kunikida together are my FAVES AHHOTP: with dazai! also with higuchi and we also need to write a fic about them still but shhhnOTP: with akutagawarandom headcanon: once he makes peace completely with his tiger, he really likes being a cat. he considers running away and living his life as a tiger every time Dazai says something stupid. He told this to Kunikida once and Kunikida called him a fool, but he looked a little jealous that it was an option for Atsushi. Atsushi doesn’t know what to do with the mental image of Kunikida as an outdoorsman.unpopular opinion: w h y do we not tap into his sassy and capable potential? he just wants to provide for the ones he loves while also having witty remarks for them when they’re being stupid. he is polite, not innocent uwu babie and i demand more bratsushi content PLEASE HE’S 18 LET HIM BE A CONFUSED BARELY-ADULTsong i associate with them: it was in me by avril lavigne!favorite picture of them: ohh there’s so many, but this one! hehe what is he doing.....being a goofy boy....but he’s happy and that’s all i want >////<
