#lai rants

[agentsofoakenshiield]

graduation is in 10 days

(less, really, if we aren’t rounding up the hours)

like. I will be attending my COLLEGE GRADUATION in approximately TEN DAYS.

TEN. DAYS.

That’s insane. absolutely bonkers. What the fuck. What the fuckkkkkkkkk dsndjfnejandkdjsjskfksjskdfkdkksd

like. how do I wrap my head around this??????

…actually, anyone have a poem for this???? bc I need SOMETHING to process this through(/with)

I just… I don’t even know what to say. It’s been feeling really odd but something about ten days is really hitting me

(Doesn’t help that I picked up my cap & gown today, and that yesterday was the last day of classes. it’s definitely feeling realer and realer.)

[lailau7904]

the job market SUCKS

rant incoming. also first time writing anything big on tumblr and i have no idea how the formatting works so bear with me.

just for context, i'm a minor situated in germany currently working on getting my "abitur" (basically a specific graduation certificate that gives me the right to study at a university). the school course i'm in is forcused on design classes and in order to succesfully complete it, i need to complete an internship in a design departement. this intership is supposed to take place next year in feburary to march (4 weeks) and is as said, mandatory. ALSO my school offers an international program where we can do this internship in other european countries, one of those being ireland. to me it's incredibly important that i gather international work experience as i want to travel a lot later in life and live in an english speaking country (and at the moment it looks like it might end up being ireland, but for that it's still too far into the future).

so i applied on the work placement in ireland, was the first one that was interessted that actually submitted the application in late july. we were supposed to know whether we were in or not by october, but due to some new circumstances it got delayed by a month and a half. you might be able to guess that i have an indication for mine now, and you might also be able to guess what that indication contains, considering i am writing this post.

while i was waiting on the feedback for ireland however, we were supposed to try to secure a second work placement (just incase ireland didn't work out). so i tried. and i tried. and i tried. at this point i am probably at 10 or more negative replies from the places i have sent application to and my patience is wearing off. like i know that none of the replies are personal issues with me, but it's still damn fucking frustrating to get no after no. ireland was pretty much my last hope.

today we finally got feedback for ireland. i don't have a place (yet), we've been told to keep our hopes up, that there's still a chance we'll get a place. my hopes are not up anymore. after so many negative replies and then the thing that was so very important to me seemingly not working out. i'm just at the end of it. they told us that the companies prefer "the older students that already have experience in marketing and advertisement" and it's like, yeah, of course they fucking do. what else do you expect, but how am i supposed to get that experience if i just get rejected everywhere i aks for work? this is a FREE internship, the company doesn't even loose anything if they choose someone with a little less experience. we're still trained in the programs, the internship is supposed to TEACH US this shit.

the market expects everyone to have experience but then refuses to actually GIVE anyone new that experience, and it's gonna be what kills the market. if my one and a half years of experience working with these programs and grabbing myself good grades for being good with them isn't worth anything, then how am i supposed to get the experience required to do an UNPAID INTERNSHIP?

gonna go back to sending out my fucking applications to anyone who will listen now.

(also i know how random this post is, i just really didn't feel like ranting on twitter but i needed this out into the public to survive what feels like me going mad)

[ceealaina]

Old People are Assholes

I'm super pissed right, so please excuse the rant. My mom has lived in this house for about thirty years, and we've had more or less the same neighbors that entire time. We've always gotten along well (with one exception) and my mom has never been anything less than kind and helpful to them. So we're dog sitting this week, and my mom had one of the dogs out in the yard. We had neighbor who moved away last year, who only ever complained about everything, especially how she couldn't afford to live here anymore, and who know comes every Sunday to visit our other neighbors. She's walking up their driveway, right past my mom, and my mom says hi only to receive a dirty look in return. Now this is rude as fuck, but also pretty par for the course for this lady. She can be really nice, but then super cranky, and I'm not even sure she realizes how rude she's being. But the neighbors she's visiting, we've always gotten along really well with them. They're in their seventies, so about ten years younger than my mom's parents, but their daughter is a nurse, like my mom, and we used to exchange Christmas presents when we were younger, and my mom would have them over for coffee sometimes. So this lady walks up their driveway, and the husband is at the top of the driveway, and in this voice that's meant to be an undertone only he's old and doesn't realize how fucking loud he is, he goes, "What's going on over there? A dog park?" What the fuck, dude? Yes, we are dog sitting for three weeks. You know what impact that has on you? Absolutely fucking none. You're not in our house, you're not taking care of them. Shut the fuck up. It has nothing to do with them. The only thing they've done is barked a handful of times at garbage cans. (They have been howling in their kennels, but you can't hear them outside - I know, I checked for this exact reason). And if you have a problem with that, maybe you should be complaining about our other neighbor, the one with the sheltie that never shuts up. It just makes me so angry. If you have a legitimate complaint, talk to us about it. Act like an adult, instead of whining about it like the gossipy old fuck you are. Because while I couldn't give less of a shit what these people think, my mom's confidence level is already shut, and garbage like this just throws her right over. She's been crying about it (and pretending she's not) since it happened, and that's the last thing she deserves.

[casparcollins]

being empathetic can really blow sometimes because you end up caring a whole lot about people who don’t give a fuck about  you.