I saw someone talking about the fear of being seen and having that as a trauma response. And like, it just hit really hard for me bc I've felt that so very intensely for so long even though I am safe now and my past abusers can't get to me. It's wild to think that I'm a private person and that I isolate because I'm terrified that somehow it'll incur more abuse somehow if I don't.
With CPTSD I've been trying a lot to figure out who I am outside of that. Who I am when it's not related to trauma or survival, and maybe I need to breach my comfort zone and let myself be seen to do it.
It's scary tho but fuck it we ball











