#langarch

[languarchist]

I did it

I got into a masters program

it's not the one I wanted but it'll work

things are going my way again

[languarchist]

I wish hema wasn't so expensive and also wasn't so far away from me and also

and also I hope there's hot people trying to beat the ever loving shit out of me there

[languarchist]

am I redeemable

[languarchist]

it hurts a lot of the time to be older than the people around me and see just how much more successful they are. it feels like I've tried to take every single opportunity given to me, and in the end they either ended up being all for nothing or actively hurt me instead

[languarchist]

mijan emel delítag aŋŋiv

[languarchist]

you know what didn't help my anxiety? worrying that I couldn't trust anyone, that everyone around me secretly hated me, that my friends were just using me until they could throw me away, that people were plotting against me at all levels and my life was about to be ruined.

and then it was right??? wtf was that about

[languarchist]

guys I stared into the void today and I think I saw it stare back at me, do you think it liiiiiikes me?

[languarchist]

*cowgirl voice* buddy you just or'd yer last gasm