#langarch

[languarchist]

I wish hema wasn't so expensive and also wasn't so far away from me and also

and also I hope there's hot people trying to beat the ever loving shit out of me there

[languarchist]

it hurts a lot of the time to be older than the people around me and see just how much more successful they are. it feels like I've tried to take every single opportunity given to me, and in the end they either ended up being all for nothing or actively hurt me instead

[languarchist]

am I redeemable

[languarchist]

mijan emel delítag aŋŋiv

[languarchist]

you know what didn't help my anxiety? worrying that I couldn't trust anyone, that everyone around me secretly hated me, that my friends were just using me until they could throw me away, that people were plotting against me at all levels and my life was about to be ruined.

and then it was right??? wtf was that about

[languarchist]

maybe living with parents in a horrible place with a horrible government isnt helping things

[languarchist]

I don't want to be sold happiness, I want to find it in the small things. in my friends' smiles, in a sunset on a cloudless evening, in a glance to a coworker. but everything about the world wants me to burn and toil away something to find it. it tells me that I'll never be happy until I can afford to be

[languarchist]

tádsükaggos̡