Dec 29, 2020
Sometimes I have to remind myself that it's okay to not eat *everything* on my plate.
It's okay to feel full and stop when there's still some scraps left there.
I ate what I needed to, my body is full and content, there's no need to push it to the point of pain so my plate will be clear.
#constant hunger#large appetite#keeping myself from eating too much has always been a huge issue for me#and to make things worse my family has grown used to my or#and so when i started regulating how much i ate they'd make comments about how little i would eat and how i used to eat so much#and they'd ask if i was sick#and then came the distant family members who would praise me for eating less#i loved being appreciated for that so i ate even less and less#i started to lose weight and got compliments on it#but my close family would still get me to eat more bc they were so used to seeing me down three plates in one sitting#my weight has always gone up and down drastically since all of that#i go through periods of eating too much then eating too little then eating too much then too little and back again#i feel like im getting better though#i hope i am
