Mar 25
I think about this pretty often:
A lot of people talk about how they wish they could be a kid again, but I never even wanted to be a kid.
Everything that made me sad and bitter happened when I was a kid.
I didn't have any choice in what I saw, heard, or did.
All the trauma I still cry about to this day happened then.
I spent my childhood wishing I could be an adult and have agency, to have a purpose.
I don't want to be a kid again.
I want to feel my emotions and not be afraid of a man yelling at me for crying.
I want to spend time with my friends and not be scared to come home.
I want to live my life how I want, at least a little bit.
So, no, I don't wanna be a kid again.
I just want to grow up and live.
Just to get it over with.
#vent#writing#lees rambles#just smth ive been thinking about#to cons to being an adult?#uhh#getting to pay taxes and deal with strangers?#yeah id rather do that than live in this house with these people#strangers seem like good company compared to them#anyway rant over ☀️#im fine btw i just needed to get this off my chest#soon ill be free
