#lemon update

[cassettehalo]

lennison is so underrated 😢 technically a self insert of me & @pawmccatny 🤍 my cute bae

🍋 dam. we broke up🥺 we still frens tho it all good!

[i-ate-a-lemon]

Lemon update : Solid 8.9 lemon. Very sour, tasty! I swear though, this lemon had like. 20 seeds inside. Big Lemon hates me

[cannibalistic-lemon18]

Its been a while since yall have had any update from this lemon, but one thing i can confidently say is that this job is far from being one!! 🤩💛🥰

Since my post about getting a new job and after the streak of bad luck i have had this past year, finally came out in a wash! Granted some things from that goal list have changed and fluctuated. 😅

Its been 3 months - my 90 day evaluation is up for my dollar raise after being hired on and right around the same time, i was offered an opportunity to be promoted to keyholder and another 30 day evaluation period for an additional raise! So far so good! 😎 ive had two nights of being M.O.D. (manager on deck) and it has went rather smoothly so far. I havent quite figured out how to navigate as a leader or boss, so its definitely a new experience especially in a shop like this one. I havent had a huge challenging moment yet that will test my capabilities to problem solve in a short pressured manner but im confident with each shift i learn from. My co-workers are nothing short of amazing and incredible individuals. They all have their quirks and faults and makes the place feel like one big party all the time. Some days dont feel like work, it just feels like seeing all my new friends and cracking up so much we made time pass quicker. Time does fly when youre having fun and by the end of the night, i dont want it to end. Some of them i consider much more closer friends than others as just acquaintences. Even my husband has grown fond of spending time and hanging out with them, even started a small mma group that meets up at our place to spar. 😊

life is currently full of enrichment, good social energy, financial wellness, and abundant prosperity.

Thats only within our small circle of life. Given everything in todays government however does continue to effect and stress us out. Oklahoma has passed legislation to redirect mental health services to the department of corrections, im fearful and worried texas is not far behind them. My case worker recently left her own position in the program bc of burn out, and in doing so, the program has left me without a case worker for nearly a month now with no update. Its given me a sense of discouragement and fear of continuing treatment despite knowing i need it. The job is great but the demand and sudden change in my schedule are taking a toll on me over time, im trying to avoid the same burn out. 🥴😰

With this new job, i have been able to prove to myself my own work ethnic, my own stability, my own limitations, and doing so within a healthy and safe environment of employment is beyond beneficial than i could ever imagine seeing myself being able to do after years and years of illness. However, im worried ill lose myself within working so much. Ive already lost a sense of scheduling, both in my personal life and work life. I forget to take care of myself, my house, or my pets. (dont get me started on my art neglect 😭) Thankfully my husband is there to help where i fall short, i went from not working and being at home 24/7 for a long time before i managed to hold a job - and keep it; to literally working full time, in a manager position, and occassionally working a double here and there when i get the opportunity to. Its a customer service kind of job and some days the people can be unbearable, and other days the repetition of the same questions over and over get almost nerve grinding. Just like a water drop consistantly on your head. It becomes something far beyond irritating. And my battery, my social meter, and my capacity to handle such large amounts of social interactions dumped on me in one day or one week, its all overwhelming at times. I do hit a limit. Two days off doesnt feel like its enough, i do wish for three but i cant be too picky bc i am beyond thankful for the job ive found. The job im constantly reminded by others that i was picked out of a handful of 20 other applications and 10 other interviews. One opening. Turn over rate being literally 1 year and a few months!!!! 🤯😳

To know that my honesty, uniqueness, and ability to be true to myself is what really benefited me in my journey to discover this job. Where i wasnt accepted, i was here. I found my weirdos. My friends. 💛✨

The headhunters crew will always carry a core memory in my heart. I couldnt ask for a better set of people to spend 8 hrs a day and waste time doing blinkers with 😎💛🥰

If there is no tomorrow, i just want them to always know how much of an honor it is to work with them, to know them, and to appreciate them and everything they do. Im proud to call them friends, and out of all the time periods, eras, and places in the world, out of billions and billions of people, thank the universe for the chance to know them. Some more so than others. All uniquely different and special.

Life is so short and so small, all of this experience will not matter and will fade into the oblivion of time. It is merely a blink of an eye compared to the vast expanses of time in space and its existance, a spec of sand on the beach compared to the ocean. Something that can be gone just as quickly and i cherish it far more than others tend to realize. The same way we blow out candles for our birthday wish, as quickly as it goes, so does our experiences with each other. Gotta soak it up twice as much and hold onto the lingering smells and tastes that leave just a hint of memory still attatched. I cling to sensory memories far too often for this reason. Noticing more and more the moments im living in are actively slipping between my fingers as each second passes. Its stressful, anxiety inducing, and rewarding. Its fullfilling. Its a constant reminder of how we live our lives and if we choose to live them with a sense of self awareness of it.

Never take it for granted, always live for the moments. Lifes greatest lessons always come when you least expect it, when youre overdue for growth, or when you stop trying so hard to fit where you dont belong. Theres always a place meant for you. Theres always a moment where youre meant to thrive.

Im beyond glad i endured the hard times to be able to currently experience the beauty of the good rewarding times 🥰🙌🏻

I pray yall get to find the same blessings in life 😊

✨💛To feel such love and momentary bliss.💛✨

~ 🍋🧠🍽

[balkanradfem]

Baby lemons are at it!! They’re not messing around! They’re out of the soil and getting that (faint) sunlight!!

Also most of my basil cuttings that I put in the soil are still super alive too! I think I see some tiny bit of new growth on them, but for now I’m happy to see them green. Herb cuttings work in soil! All water-based ones died, even with me changing the water constantly. Well, now I know :)

[cassettehalo]

ughh i’m too lazy to crop it, and to clean it up. BUT i might do it like…later it takes me days to finish art if it’s digitally since i colour and clean it up plus im lazy 😭😭😭

ANYWHO here’s my second drawing of billy shears! he’s so cute and kawaii

🍋 GAH!!! i drew him on my last sheet of paper in my notebook 😢 he just looks silly and stupid i didn’t put much effort into it, and i realised i drew his hair incorrectly so i drew him again 👀 STUPID BILLY why he so mad

^ second update i cleaned him up, most definitely will not be colouring him in! also it wouldn’t let me post it here so i cropped it when i was showing it in an amrev server

[cassettehalo]

a small update, i’m a bit much better after the death of her, and i’m trying my best not to be affected by it currently since i have a lot of other things to also worry about but i feel very sad over it still since we were friends & lovers for the longest time

[cassettehalo]

hmm, i’ve been thinking of doing commissions. but i don’t have apple pay or cash app since i don’t use a phone number and i think those use phone numbers, or anything like that! but i do want the money + i feel like nobody would like to commission my art either 😢

and i dunno how the robux thing works, like i get it but like i dunno how to do it either! anyways would anyone tell me if they would commission my art 😢😢😢

🍋 okay i realise i can do nitro (discord) instead of cash app and stuff yknow? i’ll figure out that robux stuff later!

[renlyslittlerose]

 katefuckinbishop sent me a million of those Renly/Loras headcanons and I'm gonna write little mini fics for each headcanon. It'll take me a while but my hand can handle writing a few sentences once a day. hopefully this will keep me from going completely bonkers because i can't write anything for too long without experiencing pain.

 also: surgery is scheduled for March 6th. If things heal as well as expected I could be good as almost new by mid-May. If I need multiple surgeries it might be longer.

 But if anyone wants to send me their own renly/loras headcanons i'll try and write mini fics for that too. or if you wanna send me any other ships i write (or wrote) for that'd be cool too.