Nobody gets to dictate how you recover. Everyone heals differently, and for someone to tell you that just because you're not suffering the way they think you should be, that you're suddenly "faking it" is nonsense at best. You've been so brave and strong throughout this incredibly difficult time, and nobody can tell you how to go about your recovery. Your pain and your healing are all your own. There's no right or wrong way to recover. You are one of the strongest people I know, and we're all so proud of you. Everyone wants to see you thrive, and however that comes, we're rooting for you. If anyone ever says otherwise, send em my way and I'll fight em.🥊🥊
SHEPARD!!! 🥺🥺🥺 Aw dude thank you so much for sending me a reassuring reminder, I super appreciate you. I haven't felt very strong or brave at all during this whole horrible ordeal, but I admire that you think I am... that means a lot to me... and damn you're PROUD of me?? god thank you so much, holy smokes 😭😭💙
"Everyone wants to see you thrive, we're rooting for you" man I didn't now how much I needed to hear that until you said it.... I keep worrying I'm inconveniencing people -- but that's on me, I'm focusing on the wrong things. I should be focusing more on your support you've all given me, I should focus on the fact that you're cheering for me. You guys want me to heal....? I didn't even realize that until you literally just spelled it out for me lolol;;; I shouldn't be worried about the few crumbs of people who might think bad things about me, that might not even happen, I am stressed for absolutely nothing!!! And even if someone were to possibly say something mean to me, I'd just block them without even reading the message, so why should it even matter?
That amount of people is so miniscule compared to the hundreds of you, the flood of supportive messages I have been receiving, all of you telling me you want me to heal. That's really helping me Shepard, thank you so much. I shouldn't focus on worrying about what people could think of me, when I already know what my friends/followers think of me, that the great majority of you are all completely understanding and you don't expect me to stay stuck like this forever.
I will continue to remind myself that you want me to heal, that me reclaiming these triggers is a good thing and it's something you guys would want me to do, that healing isn't linear and I'm bound to have my ups and downs and that 99% of you will recognize that, you aren't going to accuse me of anything just because I have a good or bad day. I must focus on your support!!!! I must focus on you guys, not anyone who might try to bring me down!!!! 💪✨
