Ugh my biggest problem is constantly thinking about what things I have done in the past to prove I am straight. Like in middle School I obsessively liked 3 guys. Like when I liked guys I would be soo weird about it.
In middle school a girl asked me out and I said no. And never thought twice about it. I was happy she thought I was pretty but I didn’t want to date her. She was sooo pretty and I was obsessed with her bec I thought I wanted to be her but I probabaly liked her.
So the fact I liked guys in middle school and turned down a girl is enough for me to think that I am not a lesbian and I am making it up. I realized I liked girls when I was 14 and freshman in High school. One of the girls I liked was my best friend from middle school so I assumed since I didn’t like her in middle school I am clearly making this up. At the time I thought 14 was too young to know, but now I think that’s too old of an age to know. Which is dumb bec people can realize when they are 40.
In college I went all 4 years without liking a girl. Yes I thought so many girls were very attractive. But I feel like I don’t have enough evidence to prove I was gay
I feel like I don’t have a right to say I am a lesbian because I haven’t really dated guys.
This prob screams denial and comphet?
