#lessons?

[rowrowrowthatsme]

i guess i found alternate reality ad*m

[pumpkinharvesting]

THAT was a rollercoaster

rollercoaster THAT was a!

[canadiangoober]

For someone who writes, it really needs some work

[wildest-childish]

Recently I've been stressing out about the decision of where I wanna go after high school and what I want to do. It's gotten to the point where I'm not even sure if I know myself enough to make those decisions. 'Do I really like that enough to spend my life doing it as a career?' Then today while driving fast as possible nearly 15 minutes before the time of sunset (as told by Siri) to my favorite spot to get the perfect picture, nearly 20 minutes away, I realized while the sun was setting, trying desperately to reach my spot before sundown, driving there starring at the sun, wishing it would slow down just a couple minutes, that it was just as enjoyable as my spot and I shouldn't be letting myself down just because I maybe hadn't had the greatest day and this was just 'the icing on top of the cake.' No. The different scenes on the way there, the beautiful sunset, it was still enjoyable. I realized that life is all about perspective and letting things happen just because they happen. I can't let the fact that my plan of watching the sunset at my favorite spot didn't work out how I wanted it to, but I CAN still enjoy the fact that I did watch the sunset and it was amazing. Things are going to happen, most of the time NOT how you want them to, but It's okay, you just have to find the positive in every situation, make the most of what's there, and look at these moments like they are the most precious jewels of time and they are yours.

[misunderestimate-me]

I don't know why i'm doing this

So let's continue with last year. I'm a bit inebriated at the moment so I apologize for any errors.

Sam and I had gone out to see a movie together and spent some time talking after the movie. We continued to flirt non-stop at work and in our free time. I really started to believe that maybe she was interested in me. Which made the next part suck.

I found out through a co-worker that she was dating a guy she went to college with. I felt crushed. She never mentioned him to me or told me she was seeing someone else. It sucked. All she ever did was flirt and lead me to believe she was at least a little bit interested in me, which maybe she was, but I felt a little bit deceived. I never confronted her about it but kept on guard after I found out.

I still had strong feelings for this girl, and despite my better judgment, I still continued to flirt with her. Hindsight is 20/20 and I wish I knew now what I didn't know back then but oh well. I was like a love struck puppy because of Sam. She would flirt with me and I couldn't say no. She invited me over to her house one night and made caramel for me. It was a wonderful evening and I started to ponder the possibility of her actually liking me despite the fact that she had a boyfriend. 

There was another night where she invited me over in August for a small party with friends and to watch her favorite football team the next day.Overall it was a fun night, but afterwards she treated me poorly as a friend and as a person. 

[one-step-from-neverland]

I want to take up Archery as a hobby. I think it's because I can't play Ultimate all the time at college, and I want to be outside more.

What is wrong with me? I don't need another expensive hobby.

[caramelspeaks]

Ok talaga ako.

Weird right? Pero pagkatapos ng mga post ko. Naluwagan loob ko. Kaya. Ok ako. Ang sa akin lang.. Wag niyo sana ako idamay sa gulo niyo. Kung babagsak kayo, wag niyo akong isama. Bahala kayong magdusa diyan. =)). Manonood nalang akong TV at gagawa ng AG =)).

Nakapagtataka na ok na ok ako.. Ewan ko. Kasi.. Expected ko naman na na yun yung mangyayari, kaya hindi ako nagulat at nasaktan. Saka.. Nawawala na rin ung feelings.. Actually wala na nga eh. Wala naman ata talaga eh O.O. Atat lang ako magkalovelife =)).

Dapat talaga hindi minamadali ang mga bagay.. Hindi mo kailangang makigaya sa mga ginagawa ng iba. Enjoying mo ang buhay sa sarili mong paraan. Hahaha.