Feb 5, 2013
It's kinda confusing when you leave tumblr for a while and when you come back on, EVERYBODY has changed their name. Still, it makes you feel like you are starting fresh, with a new attitude and outlook on people.
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It's kinda confusing when you leave tumblr for a while and when you come back on, EVERYBODY has changed their name. Still, it makes you feel like you are starting fresh, with a new attitude and outlook on people.
WOW
It just goes to show how much tumblr-fame means when I can leave for several months and STILL get followers ( It's all about the tags, baby). It makes it seem pretty silly that i go into a tumblr-exile because i don't consider myself a consistent poster(because to get the most out of sites like this you have to stay updated and engaged in the community), but who cares? It's not like i'm producing actual content, so why do i have these ridiculously high expectations of myself? Maybe because i spend so much time observing talented people on here? I may have made this confession before, but it bears repeating that i often compare myself to people way different from me, because i'm very bad at weighing my own talents. That almost always lead to a large amount of self-scrutiny. Basically, i can't seem to interact/become involved with people on tumblr, without completely overdoing it and blame myself when i just can't talk to certain people. So, what now? I could quit, but if i did that i would miss out on some of the best stuff on the web right now. And if i stay here, my presence will further cement how pointless my high expectations of this blog. As long as i don't get too invested in my quasi-social interactions on here, i should be okay, i guess. I'm sorry if I'm not conveying my predicament very clearly, but i just needed to get it out. A presence on tumblr is a fleeting one, and i don't always need reasons for taking a break. TL;DR: I'm back to posting again. Now with ten percent less awkward-ness! Hopefully!
The 3 things that makes me want a partner(right now): 1: Free neck massages 2: Conversations without filters (yeah right) 3: Help paying the rent Yeah, i know i could just get a roommate for these things, but in order to get the neck-massage (even in an ironic way) i would have to breach the most extreme levels of bro-mance. Didn't end well the last time I did that.
The drought is over...
And thus, my-self imposed exile from the pony fandom ends. I don`t know why I decided to disappear, but it might have something to do with one or more of the following things: 1: Too much infighting in the fandom 2: A lack of focus on my school-work 3: A fading interest in the show and rising obsession with Tumblr-Pon 4: Lazyness 5: The Fear of bothering people on tumblr 6: A feeling of inadequacy when comparing myself to the many amazing people in the fandom (not just the artists) regardless of my reasons, taking a break was a great idea. I have calmed down since then, and i have stopped comparing my little corner of the web to other blogs. After all, I have no reason for being here, other than communicating with people (and occasional ask-submissions), so why compare myself with artists and such, when my reasons for being here are very different? I hope i can get back into the blogging-grind i was in back in April, before i started caring too much about people i really know nothing about. and maybe stop posting so many YT-links with three words attached to them. And stop the self-scrutiny. And the self-importance. Anyway, I´m glad to be back. I can`t wait to see what this madcap fandom will come up with, now that it has something to actually talk about (new eps). Stay lurking
I have reached pro-status
I managed to open my dash at my school and be bombarded with half a page of pony-R34 and just scroll past with noone seeing it. The world can throw anything at me right now and i will survive it. COME ON Fuck.With.ME.
Dear Diary...
Today i learned that Mountain Dew can be combined with ALL types of booze...
Nothing beats watching Anthony Schepperd videos in the dark(no drugs).
"Ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..." is the word I have used the most since I got back in school. I'm in a drone-like state right now mentally. And I thought I had it hard when I could not get anything done in the summer. Talk to me, tumblr.