#letterstokuma

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It hurts so much. Somebody, please stop the pain.

- Heroky 8/9/2017 someone save me...

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Save me, anybody, it hurts... it hurts so much

- Heroky 7/26/2017

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“Stop Treating me like a kid!” I remember making such a remark as you gave me a pat on the head.

I’ve always felt like you saw me as your child rather than your lover. It was only after a year and half since you left did i realize the form of love i had for you.

Weird enough, you were the mother i never had. I didn’t have have that kind of love and support growing up. I really felt like you always had my back- and that you’d always be my partner in everything.

You always gave up the better things for me. The more comfortable seat. You'd give me the tastier food. You didn't like seeing me having a hard time. Worse- seeing me cry. You always went back home with the best treats. You’d be the one to hold the bags when we go out cause you’re pretty sure i’d forget that i was holding something or how clumsy i get when i get overly excited.

You bought me things you think i needed to become a good architect. You always motivated me. You always watched me work. You always gave me the biggest hug and the gentlest pat on my head whenever i finish my work. You always encouraged me to be the best- and it worked. It was okay not to win everything, as long i went home and you told me i was the best- i already felt like i was the winner of the world. You always loved it- watching me run off and grow- and win “stuff” for home.

I didn’t have to be a “gentleman” and i didn’t have to act brave because for some reason you loved how gentle and helpless i was.

What surprised me the most the day you cheated- was the fact that you deliberately hurt me and suddenly you abandoned me.

It upset me.

I’m sorry i couldn’t be dependable. I’m sorry for being a burden- i’m sorry for being a responsibility. I’m sorry i couldn’t be more like a lover than a child.

To my prodigal mother, i’m thankful. I wouldn’t be who i am now if it weren’t for you. I will continue growing up even after you've left the nest. I hope to leave soon, once i've learned how to fly on my own.

- Heroky 7/16/2017

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You really are gone aren't you?

- Heroky 7/8/2017

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It hurts so much, it aggravates me.

Heroky (6/11/2017)

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It hurts more when it rains

Heroky (6/11/2017)

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In a haven we didn't know exists, as another you and  another me.

Stardust by Three.! (04/15/2017)

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When you don't get any past or future, start over and over. No yesterday- no tomorrow- start over again.

Eye by Three.! (04/15/2017)