For today’s theme, I took the chance to illustrate one of my all-time favorite Modern AU Levihan fanfictions: "Findings" by @donttossgrannyinthebegonias 🔍💌
It’s an incredible story full of suspense and mystery, where Pieck, with the help of Reiner and Porco, stumbles upon some forgotten, unsent letters during one of their urbex explorations…
Letters from a young soldier named Levi, written to someone he calls “Four-eyes.” 👀📜
If you're into slow-burn investigations, hidden truths, mysterious timelines (and yes, a bit of angst!), I highly recommend giving this fic a read. It’s a gripping journey and a beautiful piece of Levihan storytelling.
💖 A huge thank you to @levihanfest for organizing this wonderful week! Such a great opportunity to discover so many talented artists and writers in the fandom! 💖
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A story written for #LeviHanWeek2025 Day 1: Childhood Friends
Summary:
Levi and Hanji have been best friends their entire lives. That is, until Hanji moves out to go to college and study the career they've always dreamed of.
Time passes, and ten years later, they meet again when Paradis High calls their graduates for a High School Reunion.
What will happen when they see each other once more?
In a series that intertwines their past and present, they face their truths. And, after one night together at the school's event, there's a choice they have to make. They either go their separate ways, or they risk it all and change their lives around to be with each other.
READ THE FULL STORY HERE!
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Children can be fucking assholes. Actually, they were fucking assholes, too much of a bunch of assholes that Levi wondered what future generation his fellow soldiers had dedicated all their fucking hearts to.
And why did it take him having his own child to realize just that?
Levi and Hange's child gets bullied and the two contemplate their parenting styles.
Written for Levihan Week 2021, Day 4: Childhood.
Link: AO3
Notes:
@levihanweek Day 4: Childhood
I don't know if this is still accepted because it's so late huhu. But I was on a slight hiatus for a while I was in the US since I don't see my family there often.
I'm in the Philippines again so I think I'll have an easier time going back into writing regularly.
Children were unreasonabe little shits and his own son was no exception. In fact, his experience with his own son might have been the sole reason Levi held on so tightly to that belief in the first place.
“Daddy, can we buy the cereal?”
“No.” The response was automatic and it had been automatic since the kid started asking for that damn cereal two weeks ago. During my time we didn’t even have cereal. Levi opened his mouth to say it.
“Why don’t you give it?” Hange spoke up first. Her own contribution had seemed to come out of nowhere especially since she had been neck deep in some research papers until a while ago.
Most days, she would have left by the time they had that conversation and Levi was in no mood to fill her in on it. He turned to his son. “Would you even finish it?”
Luke’s were trained expectantly at Levi, his eyes wide. He looked innocent, confused.
If Levi stared for any longer, he might just buy it. He averted his gaze, and snuck a glance at Hange “He doesn’t even eat it.” He kept it to a soft whisper, too soft that he could never be too sure of whether or not she got the message.
Hange put the papers down on the table then she flashed her son a smile usually saved for insufferable diplomats. “Luke, if we bought you the cereal would you eat it?”
Luke nodded quickly.
Lies. It was a fucking lie. Levi had bought him the cereal the first few times the young boy asked. Every single damn time though, Levi had ended up finishing the box. And he was sick of cereal. So sick that when he closed his eyes and willed himself to think of it, he recalled everything from the grainy texture and overly sweet twinge so vividly, he practically tasted it in his own saliva.
“I’ll buy some on the way home,” Hange said. “The name is ‘Pops’ right?”
It was difficult to protest when it was Hange suggesting. Levi nodded.
“What about now?” Luke said. “I wanna bring it to school.”
Levi and Hange exchanged glances. “Why?” he asked.
Luke was side-eyeing something. A closer look only confirmed, Luke may have been too deep in thought to have fixated on anything in particular. Finding the right words, maybe? “Lunch.”
“Is there anything wrong with the lunch I packed you?” Levi asked. There shouldn’t have been anything wrong with the packed lunch. Levi always made sure of it.
Or maybe Levi was just deluding himself into thinking he was a good cook. Luke kept mum and stared down at his food, only ringing alarm bells inside Levi.
Levi was suddenly self conscious of the neatly packed lunch box he made every morning. Like all weekday mornings, it was lined up on the counter right next to Hange’s own lunchbox. He glanced quickly at it, and he was tempted to go the extra mile and reorganize it. “Luke is there anything wrong?”
Luke shook his head. He was starting to look a little flustered.
Everyone seemed to be bearing the weight of the tension and awkwardness since that question was raised. They were all very sluggish. For Levi, there was more than enough time to take a peek at the lunch box.
The sandwich was packed, the crackers were nearly lined up just next to them and there was a box of orange juice snug on the corner of the lunch box. Nothing was supposedly wrong with it. Still, it was worth a try. “You want anything packed differently?” Levi asked.
Luke nodded but he didn’t say anything after. As if he had expected Levi to read his mind.
Levi wasn’t a mind reader. One quick look at Hange and Levi concluded, Hange wasn’t a mind reader either. “What do you want packed differently?”
Luke shook his head then looked down at his food. There was a slight tremble in his lips.
Was he about to cry? Before Levi even noticed it, he had raised his voice, spoke more quickly. “If you don’t tell me, we won’t be able to fix it.”
Hange was also strangely still. She held her spoon a few inches above her plate and she could have been calculating something. That was the face Hange would make in the lab, when running through an experiment for the third team. That face was a prelude to long speeches on hypotheses and conclusions.
Do we have the time for a long speech? Levi noted the time on the mantel and Hange’s slow movements that morning. “Hange, you might be late for work.”
“Right…” Hange dropped her spoon and stood up slowly and hesitantly. Then when she got to her feet, she put on her usual confident and busybody demeanor. “I’ll make sure to buy that cereal on the way back. If you really want that for lunch, I see no reason to say no.” ”
It turned out though, it had been nothing more than a facade. Levi had followed her out to lock the door and exchange goodbyes like every other day. Then, Hange’s true thoughts came out as a whisper. “Can you stay after school for just a bit? Just see what happens after they drop him off?”
“Why?”
Hange hummed, chin raised and nose turned up. “Something doesn’t seem right.”
He didn’t need Hange to point it out for him. For a while as they packed up, Levi had already been pondering how long he could stay in the schoolyard before one of the teachers saw him home. “You didn’t have to tell me twice.”
Hange’s expression relaxed. She said a soft goodbye. Then her mind and her murmurs to herself were suddenly elsewhere.
She was thinking about work again. Like every other day before, During those times, Levi was reminded, keeping their son safe was his responsibility until Hange got home from work.
***
By some rule that didn’t seem to make any sense, the parents weren’t allowed to stay during school hours. Most days, he didn’t really mind but the last thing he had prepared himself for was a scolding, not from the teacher, but his own son.
“Daddy go home!” Luke had his back to his classroom and it didn’t look like he’d be turning his back on Levi until the latter was long gone.
“Luke, I need to talk to the teachers. Then I’ll go home.”
“Don’t talk to the teachers!” Luke said. He was starting to seem more and more agitated.
What the hell? What type of parent told their kid not to talk to their teachers? Levi was more determined to stay behind. “I just want to see--”
“Don’t talk to my friends!”
Something inside Levi broke at that moment. He had raised that kid and ninety-nine percent of the time, he was a peace loving kid. The way Luke had raised his voice at him, had him almost shaken. The young boy’s face had crumpled into a pout and it only made the cracking inside Levi all the more painful.
Then some defensive instinct inside Levi took over. He narrowed his eyes and observed more closely, he could have sworn he saw fear in those young boys' eyes.
“Go home daddy.” Luke said, more softly that time. Whatever gentleness though quickly assuaged when he ran towards Levi only to push him away.
“Okay. I’ll go home,” Levi backed away slowly at first. “I’ll pick you up at two okay?”
Luke didn’t reply. He didn’t even spare a wave before Levi turned his back on him. Hange was most likely right, his gut instinct might just be right too.
Something about Luke’s sudden change in demeanor just wasn’t natural. Despite Luke’s protests, Levi didn’t go home that morning.
***
Children can be fucking assholes.
They were fucking assholes, too much of a bunch of assholes that Levi wondered what future generation his fellow soldiers had dedicated all their fucking hearts to many years ago.
Levi had concealed himself under the shade of one of the trees just outside the school yard. His fighting instinct was still strong and he didn’t find it even a little stifling to completely freeze right under the tree. At the same time, he was completely confident that as long as he didn’t move, nobody would see him.
They were too far away anyway and the group of children seemed to be more occupied in what was looking to be utter assholery.
“Your lunch looks like poop!” Who the hell compares meals to human waste?
That was the least of his worries though. The boy that had fallen to the ground was Luke. The lunch that lay scattered on the grass was the one Levi had so carefully put together that morning.
Wasted food, wasted food he had worked on himself and the scene of his own son sprawled on the ground seeming defenseless just pushed Levi to the point of just almost feral. He wasn’t a soldier anymore and he hadn’t been in years. At that point in time, he even identified more as a father than a soldier. An attempt remain hidden forgotten, Levi rushed to the schoolyard.
“What’s going on here? Why are you wasting food?” Levi kept his tone almost polite. His own actions may have betrayed it though. Levi pushed himself to the front, pushing a little less gently when he recognized the kid who had thrown Luke’s food to the ground.
That had been enough to leave a look of horror in all of the kids' faces. Levi bent over, cleaned up the lunchbox and helped his son up. He flashed the boys a stare, and he hoped that would have been enough to poke daggers into them. “Don’t do that again,” he said firmly.
Paternal instinct had Levi’s mind racing. When he was thinking quickly, his body tended to act much faster. Even when he wasn’t even aware of it, Levi had pulled his son up by the arm.
And everything else happened quickly after that.
It was only when he had closed the door behind him, when his son had succeeded in wriggling out of his grasp, did Levi make sense of circumstances. The day wasn’t even over and he had dragged his son home.
“Daddy what were you doing there?” The look of horror was still there, his cheeks were tinged a little red.
“They weren’t treating you right,” Levi said matter-of-factly. He was starting to doubt himself though. Had that been the right thing to do?
Luke didn’t seem too happy at whatever Levi had done anyway. The young boy padded into his bedroom, slammed the door and like many other days, Levi was left alone in the kitchen, a ruined lunchbox on hand. He opened it and started to salvage.
The food was still edible and they didn't look too bad. The young starving boy who grew up in the underground city would have been happy to have received that. In contrast, Luke grew up in a comfortable home, with an easy three meals never wanting for anything. And that was Luke’s lunch and it would never be the young Levi’s.
He started to contemplate the small things. He inspected the sandwich, caked with a little soil. He then held the apple slices between his two fingers. All stained with dirt.
When he ran the container over running water, the dirt eventually disappeared and Levi deemed that edible for lunch, for his lunch at least. He wouldn’t serve that to his son. He pulled ingredients out of the cupboards, ingredients for a quick sandwich, eggs, mayonnaise and cheese.
It was a little past one and there was no time for anything fancier. Luke didn’t have lunch and was probably starving and Levi was having a harder time as well shaking that ache in his stomach. He went through the motions a little faster, turned on the toaster in advance.
In those in betweens, Levi let his mind wander. The father inside him then started to ask more questions.
How was he going to talk to Luke about it?
***
Levi had made two sandwiches for a party of three. Unexpectedly, Hange arrived from work early because of some ‘strange phone call’ from the school about ‘their son going missing.’
“And it looks like, you're the strange short man who abducted our son,” Hange said playfully in between bites of an egg salad sandwich.
Levi let his own sandwich sit, or at least his sorry excuse of a sandwich. The egg salad he hurriedly made had only been enough for two people. Thus, his own share had been barely even enough to cover even one side of the sandwich.
That was the least of his worries. He turned to Luke. “Would you’ve rather stayed in school?” he asked.
Luke didn’t answer. He was biting at his egg sandwich much faster. The loud chewing could have been a hint at the least that Luke refused to speak.
“I can get off of work early. Later, we could go to the supermarket and get your cereal later” Hange suggested, an attempt at some light conversation maybe. “You wanted to bring it for lunch tomorrow right?”
Luke shook his head quickly and continued to chew the sandwich.
Levi thought back to the scattered lunch box, the muddied contents. He couldn’t blame the kid. But how to tell Hange? “Luke couldn’t have lunch,” Levi said.
Hange’s eyes widened in surprise. “Really? Did school get busy?”
“It’s not that… “ Levi was feeling for the words slowly and carefully. He turned to Luke who was digging through the sandwich much much faster. “It’s---”
Luke’s hands slammed on the table. “Nothing!” he screamed, in a tone that was definitely not nothing.
“Luke, are you okay?” Hange asked. “Did something happen?”
“Daddy came to school today!”
“But you like daddy right?” Hange raised one eyebrow.
Luke shook his head. “No! No parents allowed in school.”
Levi stared down at his plate. The sandwich was starting to look less and less appetizing. What was that heavy feeling? Guilt? What else was he supposed to do? Stay still while they pushed his son to the ground and spilled his lunch onto the grass? “Luke, no one was supposed to be pushing you to the ground either. Of course I’d jump to your rescue.”
“I don’t need help.”
“You didn’t look like you were fighting back,” Levi argued. "You could have gotten hurt."
Luke stared up at Levi, a flash of indignance on his face. And for a few moments, the kitchen was silent, the air was heavy.
Hange cleared her throat. “Luke… Why don’t you fight back?” Something about her voice was too rehearsed.
“He knows how to fight," Luke answered hesitantly. For assurance maybe? He didn’t believe it as confidently though.
Hange hummed. “What makes you say that?”
"He learned to fight."
"Who taught him?" Hange asked.
“His daddy and mommy.”
“Really? How?”
“They’re soldiers.”
***
It took more effort after that to coax the rest of the information from Luke.
It came in between banters, in between fights, hurling of unintended insults and it ended with some half baked conclusion from Levi that the military police never really shook off the irrational pride that came with working so close to the king but doing close to no actual combat.
And how the hell did a next generation kid pick up that same abrasive attitude and the bare minimum of fighting skills.
Hange received her own personalized message from the whole ordeal. A message which Levi would rather Hange never entertained. “Did we do something wrong?” She broke the dim silence with the awkward question.
It was late in the evening, Luke had retired to bed and Hange and Levi had deliberately selected a corner of the room, farthest from Luke’s room. Even if it meant having to make themselves comfortable on the floor with some Indian sit.
Levi shrugged. “According to Luke… We did… By not being part of the military police.” He laced his tone with sarcasm, enough to lighten up the mood. The sliver of a smile on Hange’s face was enough indication that it worked just a bit.
Luke’s intention hadn’t been to hurt definitely. Levi conceded, maybe it had been his fault for forcing it out of the young boy.
“But we do know how to fight right? I mean, we’ve always had more experience than the military police officers,” Hange said.
“Don’t sell yourself short. You fight better than all military police officers, Commander Hange Zoe,” Levi said.
“If I fight better than all military police officers then humanity’s strongest, Captain Levi fights better than all the soldiers right?”
Captain and Commander. Very nostalgic epithets.
It had been years since they even used those epithet. Most people in the office called Hange by her first name while Levi was convinced most people called him Levi anyway. Organizing paperwork, expediting processes, executing trades, setting up meetings for the Queen and just knowing the ins and outs of executive level bureaucracy, Hange’s job was indispensable but painfully thankless. Levi's own job as a homemaker which had been raising a child, while his partner worked had also been painfully thankless.
It wasn't like their jobs as captain and commander of the survey corps had been any more thankful during times of war. Just the thought of fighting was strangely intimate but the stress and the adrenaline rush that came with war, the pain of an injury and the very close brushes with death were not anything to be proud of.
After being dissed by their own child though, Levi was uncharacteristically self conscious. A quick onceover at Hange and he was sure she was thinking the same thing. "Maybe that's what we did wrong?"
"What?" The look of confusion on Hange's face was enough of a reminder.
Levi's own reflection had been silent. "Do you think I coddle Luke too much?"
Hange didn't respond immediately but Levi hadn't been in a hurry either to goad whatever answer out of her. "To be honest...I thought about it…" she huffed. "Okay, I wouldn't use the word coddle but don't you think it's just a little bit strange that our child is growing up in a completely different world from what we did."
Was it wrong? Levi's mind was finding ways to justify it.
Hange continued. "Of course we did things wrong we weren't perfect parents but it just feels weird… We raised a child who can't fight? A child who probably doesn't even know the realities of war.” She flailed her hands up in emphasis. “If we drop him off in some forest, he might just die...And now he's being bullied by some kid of retired soldiers. Should we have raised him a little stricter? Taught him to fight?" A tremor shook in her tone but when she looked up, she was smiling. More specifically, forcing a grin.
Hange always found a way to blame herself, an annoying habit since even back when they were soldiers.
A very annoying habit. Levi sighed. "I was the one who raised that kid. If anyone should be taking shit for not teaching that kid anything about standing up for themselves. It should be me."
Hange sighed then shrugged. "Well, it happened. So what now Papa Ackerman?"
Hange must have acknowledged it, the countless hours that Levi had put into raising the child. Between both of them, Levi should have known more about how to approach the young boy and just the thought of putting Luke through an inkling of that same training he went through had his stomach turning.
Admittedly, if Levi had encountered those bullies at Luke's age, or maybe even younger, he would have been more than capable of beating the shit out of those bullies. But, would he even be proud if he found Luke beating the shit out of those kids?
"We talk to the teachers," Levi answered.
"You don't think we should teach him how to defend himself?"
Levi shook his head. "Times have changed. Even if he doesn’t need to, I wouldn’t.” He met Hange's eyes. “I don't want to teach people how to solve things with violence."
Hange cocked her head to one side. “Why not?” Her mouth twisted into an expression of genuine curiosity.
Levi was terribly curious too. Fighting wasn’t one thing he would have wanted to think back to anyway. He didn’t see himself in Luke, or at first glance he didn’t. In the darkness, he gave himself some leeway, some space to think deeply about it and he started to realize, he couldn’t really avoid seeing himself in his son.
The glaring difference between himself and his own son had been circumstances. Luke didn’t have to learn how to fight. The age of war was over. No one was constantly in any immediate danger.
"Maybe you're better off teaching him what you know.” Levi sighed. If I could get away with not teaching my son how to fight, then I’d rather not.”
***
Diplomacy and maybe talking could have worked. That is, if they were talking to anyone else.
"We could launch an investigation on this…" The teacher side-eyed nothing in particular.
"Just now?" Hange raised one eyebrow. A quick estimation and a detailed recall of Luke’s change in demeanor put the estimate at two weeks ago. How did no one notice it?
The teacher nodded. "But it might take some time.” She leaned slightly forward. “I hope you understand… it's not easy to approach cases like this.”
“I saw it with my own eyes,” Levi said.
The teacher didn't prod. She didn't put much weight in Levi's assertion either. She raised her hands up in defense. "Give us time."
Levi gripped the edge of his seat in some attempt to alleviate tension. It had taken a little more time to get his bearings so he opted not to say anything just yet.
Hange straightened up on her seat. "How much time?"
At least it was Hange who was asking, Levi was sure he couldn’t have said it any more amiably.
The teacher’s responses weren’t making it any easier. “A few weeks?”
A few weeks. That was at least ten lunch meals. Or even more than that. When Levi fathomed the scale of it, he was also considering the wasted meals in retrospect. How often was Luke coming home with an empty stomach? “Really? A few weeks? You can’t implement something, monitor our son….”
“You have to understand, it’s not that easy to investigate a bullying problem. The line between rough play and actual bullying is not very clear. We don’t want to be accusing any kids either.”
Hange bit her lip and looked away. Levi couldn’t even make a good conjecture of what she would have wanted to say. One thing was for sure, his fists were shaking, or maybe it was the leg underneath.
“So that means you aren't doing anything?" Levi confirmed.
The teacher flashed him an incredulous look and Levi was starting to confirm, it came out more as a challenge. Well, he didn't care too much, if challenging the teacher made everything happen faster.
"We're doing what we can," the teacher said.
"I've heard that spiel already," Levi said. He needed a breath of fresh air. If Hange wanted to talk anymore, if the teacher wanted to talk. It was their prerogative. "Thank you for your time," he added coldly, not bothering to look back.
Hange didn't leave immediately. She probably had a lot more to say, and maybe those were the same things running through Levi's head. Like always, she had a more open minded and more pragmatic way of navigating such a conversation.
Something Levi would probably never learn how to do. Hange would probably take her time, and even if he did lose her in the school, he knew his way home like the back of his hand anyway.
He allowed himself some free rein, wandering through the hallways while taking careful deep breaths. He took the long way to Luke’s classroom, subtly taking a peek then allowing himself enough of a view to search for his son among the students behind the desks.
It was easy to pick out the dark hair that peeked out from among the other attentive faces. Luke’s head was down. He was focused on a book maybe, or maybe he was just particularly self conscious of everything at once.
Levi didn’t have the view to tell, nor the time. The teacher eventually looked to her side, then a few young faces followed. Levi pressed himself against the wall. For sure he was out of site.
Just to make sure, Levi walked on ahead, he then turned the corner of the school, a familiar voice echoed form the other side of one of the hollow walls.
Kids these days are too spoiled if you ask me..
We grew up during a war… And these kids are crying over a few fights?
And the parents can be pretty entitled
Luke Zoe’s parents… I think those are former soldiers… You’d think they’d know better about spoiling their son.
Maybe the glory of war got into their heads or something. Suddenly they want their kids to have an easy life.
Yes, Levi agreed, he wanted his kid to have an easy life. He conceded to that.
Actually, not conceded. He wholeheartedly agreed with it. The essentials though of that conversation, the fundamental beliefs that carried it were just infuriatingly wrong.
Levi didn’t allow himself to contemplate and maybe he just didn’t have the energy for it. He opted not to wait for Hange, he slipped quickly out of the hallway and out onto the streets.
He took the long way home and part of him was hoping he got lost. He was in no mood after all to discuss ‘a spoiled generation’ with a teacher who grew up during a time of war.
He might just end up fighting back.
***
He didn’t have to teach his son how to use a knife. Still, Levi considered it enough times to sneak a few glances at the knife holder a foot away from the sink.
The first weapon Kenny had ever taught him to use was a knife. But knives hurt, knives kill.
The only reason Levi was teaching his son how to fight back was to prevent any more wasted lunches, to prevent bruises for piling up on his ass to prevent any more scrapes from appearing on the palms of his hand.
"When they push you like this… what do you do?" Levi stretched out his arms in front of him, positioning himself to push.
Luke was a quick learner He gripped Levi's hands and the grip was surprisingly hard. Levi's wrists ached and he was suddenly hyperaware of the nails digging into him.
Levi bit his lip, he forced an outward flinch just to show his son it was working. Then the leg movements followed. Luke was still much smaller than Levi. The latter though had done it too many times during bar fights to tell, Luke had picked it up to a T.
Lock your knee to the back of their leg.
"Then push!"
Levi teetered and he was sure he still had the reflexes to jump away. Still, he wanted to give his son that confidence.
He fell to the floor, catching his light weight with the palms of his hands. "There. Okay? When they try to punch or push, you pull them towards you." Levi mimed the movement with his hands. "Then trip them from behind."
Luke nodded obediently.
"Okay…" Levi stood up. "Now let's try it again. Much faster this time."
***
Levi didn't have to try too hard to teach his son.
Luke had the natural agility and quick wittedness. With the right guidance, he was a force to be reckoned with, especially when facing a group of bullies.
Be it two bullies, three. Regardless of whether or not he was outnumbered, Luke might just make it work.
Maybe fighting skills ran in the family. No, it definitely ran in the family. Luke had natural skill that could have made him indispensable in the survey corps many years ago. WIth the right training and the right guidance, he managed to pick up the same fighting instinct Levi was all too familiar with.
Was it the same Ackerman gene? Or was it just natural talent. Levi entertained that as nothing more than a passing thought. After all, no one needed the Ackerman’s anymore since the war was over, the titan curse completely obsolete.
Soon, the Ackerman abilities would be too.
It was a slow process, and maybe it did start with his sons own stint against the bullies.
Levi found himself sneaking through the bushes near the school grounds around lunch time. The branches pricked, the leaves tickled and the smell of green lingered in his nose and he was already planning the warm bath as soon as he got home.
The situation he had put himself in, reminded him too easily of the war. Laughably, the situation he was roped into was much much milder.
He wasn't there to stand by while his team took down titans. He was just there to stand by and jump in just in case things got too heated for Luke.
Luke had proven self-sufficient in practice. But could he easily apply it?
Levi was watching the developments like a hawk, his heart beating in time to some rustle in the leaves, his hand digging into the branches right next to him. He didn't even notice he was holding his breath until the first body slammed onto the dirt with a loud thump.
Levi let it out with a loud huff then he closed his eyes, recounting the events of just a few seconds ago.
Grip hard, kick hard enough behind him to buckle his knees.
One down.
Push against him, use your weight against him. If you push hard enough, twist in this direction. He'll flip.
Two down.
With a swift strike to his---
"Stop!"
Levi’s eyes widened then they darted back and forth between the boys on the floor then the naturally, the only one left standing.
Luke dropped his hands to the side. Then everyone was silent, the two boys still recovering, one of them giving his own tailbone a consoling rub.
"Boys! What are you doing here?"
With the sound of that voice, Levi’s blood ran cold. By some stroke of bad luck, a teacher had seen them fighting.
"Luke? What were you doing here?" And by a more annoying stroke of bad luck, circumstances made Luke out to be the bully.
***
"It's very admirable that you're sticking with your son through thick and thin," the principal said, a wide smile plastered on her face.
Having dealt with military police bullshit for a good chunk of his life, Levi was fairly adept at sniffing out bullshit. Consequently, he wasn't so good at accepting such a fake compliment.
"What can we say? He's our son," Hange said, glaringly uncomfortable with the turn of events. She had some excuse to seem tense. After all, she rushed there from her office just a few minute ago.
"They sustained a few bruises, on the tailbone, a few scrapes on the knee which required some tending and one of the boys has a sprained ankle." She listed them out like a sprained ankle was a mortal wound. "I'm sure any settlements can be discussed internally… but if you need any help?"
Hange shook her head. "No thank you. I'll make a few calls, see what I can offer."
But they're not gonna do anything about Luke's mental state and his fucked up lunch meals huh? Levi looked to Hange, attempted to send a semblance of that message with his glare.
The principal cleared her throat. "Have you considered sending your child to a specialist?"
"A specialist?" Hänge asked, her voice was a little higher pitched. She furrowed her brow.
The principal nodded. "Yes, a specialist in a correctional facility, someone who could work with your son. The teachers… they saw your son fight. In this day and age, it’s quite alarming to see...
Levi looked down. His eyes landed on his shaking hands. In some attempt to pacify them, he balled them into fists.
"If he proves to be a danger to students…."
"He won't." Levi answered, voice clipped. If he spoke for any longer, he just might end up shouting.
"It's best to nip this in the bud while it's early."
"I said, he isn't going to do that. He's a nice kid."
"We get that from parents a lot but I firmly believe in some prophylactic work… especially when the first few signs…"
First few signs? What first few signs? The other kids were the assholes here. They started it.
They started it?
That was the argument of a six year old. Something, he constantly scolded Luke over for years.
On the one hand, Hange wasn’t letting any of her emotions out as if she was still trying to process it herself. "May I ask… what are these signs of Luke's aggression?"
The principal raised her eyebrow. "The way he was caught fighting the other students. He moved like a trained fighter. Isn’t it alarming that your son has been trained to fight like that, to be aggressive like that? We don't want this type of aggression here." She said those last words, matter-of-factly, firmly, with some finality.
Levi sensed self righteousness. Self righteousness was fairly bearable in small amounts. He was dealing with someone though with a little too much of that and seemingly little inclination of reflecting and getting to the bottom of it. Something inside of him snapped. "If you really don't want any aggression then watch the other fucking kids. My son is not going through some correctional facility because you as a principal can't do your fucking job keeping the students safe."
"Excuse me?"
"Those kids deserved to be body slammed into the floor. My son has been dealing with their bullshit for weeks."
"How certain---"
"Sure enough. My son doesn't fucking lie."
"That's a bold statement right there."
"You don't know my son better than I do so stop pretending." Levi wouldn't be giving her a chance to speak. Hange could have been glaring daggers at him but he was on some strange high, talking back at the old lady who had been rubbing him off since a while ago.
She paused for a moment and averted her gaze, a refreshing sign for Levi. "Okay then, but if you'd allow me to suggest---"
"Don't tell us how to raise our son."
Before he even noticed it, one hand was pushing him back on the chair.
"Please. Go on," Hange said, not to Levi but to the shaken teacher in front of him.
It had taken her a few more seconds to gather herself. Hange had taken a more comfortable grip of Levi by the wrist, under the table, out of view. She held him with enough firmness to control him but enough gentleness to calm him.
Whatever she says, grin and bear it. Work with it. If Hange had been meaning to say anything, that might have been it.
He wasn't going to spare her a kind smile though.
The principal cleared her throat. "Have you considered that you're spoiling your kid just a little too much?"
When the heat had dissipated, when the tension loosened, Levi found he conceded
To some extent. To some very small extent.
"If you compare what I grew up with to what Luke's growing up with. Maybe he is spoiled," Levi admitted. He kept his voice soft enough not to echo in the hallways, his footsteps slow enough that he didn’t need to think too much about walking.
"No one should ever have to grow up like you did," Hange answered with a more serious tone. A few seconds later, she turned to him with a more relaxed smile. "Do you really think he's spoiled?"
"If you consider the fact that if we dropped him in some military training, he probably wouldn't survive..."
"In this day and age, not everyone will be mandated to join the military anyway," Hange said. "So is it really necessary for Luke to have had to learn how to fight?"
"As much as possible, I wouldn't have taught it to him. If children weren't such assholes."
"And I think we raised him fine. In fact, I'm proud of that kid."
Proud of Luke? For what? Levi asked that question silently but he wasn't looking for answers, he was looking for specifics. He was proud of that kid for a lot of reasons.
Some of the reasons, he didn't really pick them out until they were bumbling towards him.
In between classes, Luke met them on the hallway, a large box wedged awkwardly on his side and Luke lost his balance a few times as he carried it.
As soon as Luke was only inches away, Levi took stock of it. A first aid kit?
"I have bandaids here. Do you know where we can buy medicine?" Luke asked.
"For what?"
"For their booboos."
Levi gave Luke a onceover. "You don't have any."
Luke shook his head. He turned towards the empty schoolyard then to the direction of the clinic. "Their booboos." It quickly became clear who they were talking about.
"Luke, why would you want to give them some?"
"Is that not allowed?" Luke blinked at him in confusion. It was as if that question was the most natural answer in the world. The most correct answer.
Levi started to realize, maybe he didn't know the correct answer either. He bent down and put one hand on Luke's head.. "I'll help you prepare one at home and we'll talk to their parents okay?"
Luke nodded. His lips curled into a wild smile. "I'll see what else I have in the cubby hole."
"He's too kind," Hange commented as soon as they were out of earshot.
"That's the kid we raised," Levi said. "You're proud of that?"
"To be honest, yes. We all aspire to be that kind." She gave Levi a knowing but very playful look. "Maybe he got it from you?"
"Me?" Levi crossed his arms and pulled away. Whatever look he had on his face was enough to have Hange chuckling.
"Maybe kindness runs in your family."
Levi's thoughts flew to Kenny. Kenny? Then he thought back to his own mother. She was enough of a looming thought that Levi was entertaining the kindness gene theory of Hange as some potentially acceptable truth.
"It runs on yours too then," Levi said.
There was a pregnant silence between them. Hange's face had softened into some half smile as she stared down at floor, seeming to be deep in reflection.
It was familiar and the more Levi stared, the more clearly he understood. That was the same exact way they stared at every lost comrade.
"If that's true, then maybe Luke got it from us? Maybe if we grew up in a better world, the same world Luke was growing up in, we would have been much kinder," Hänge said.
"If we had the childhood?" Levi added.
Hange looked at him pointedly. "If you didn't have to fight in the streets, I'm confident you would have grown up just like Luke."
"What makes you say that?"
"You're a good guy Levi. Despite your kill count, the way you talked to the towns people, the way you lectured the soldiers back then... I mean, you weren't the nicest guy but the kindness... the goodness, it just felt naturally there?"
It was a hilarious prospect to consider and Levi had to look away to conceal whatever playful expression took over then. "Well the same goes for you then. Not too many leaders would have risked everything to stop a genocide."
A subtle pink stained the apple of Hange's cheeks, subtle enough that Levi could have sworn a second later that it was never there to begin with.
Levi dropped his shoulders and leaned on the wall. "I've always known Luke was a good kid. It could have been from us, or it could just really be how that kid is. All I know is I wanna nurture it and it feels like the best way is to just give him the childhood I never had.”
I don't even know how I managed to prepare all the sketches but I have them all saved so I might be able to take part in the Levihan week, so have this stupid meme to celebrate it:
Can't wait to see all your content! See you around, folks
