i know it’s been a while since i talked to you but i’m okay. surprisingly. i still haven’t talked to mom and i know you’re probably mad at me about that but i just can’t and you know why. anyway , i changed schools. i was really nervous and scared but on my first day i met my roommate , cruz. he’s really kind and sweet , a little dim , but i love him with my whole heart. he reminds me a lot of you , so caring and giving and kind. then there’s blue , and there’s so much to say about her. so much to say about all of them. i haven’t felt this safe since you died. is this a sign ?? i have more friends than cruz too , i have like , 32. it’s kind of wild. i wish you could have met all of them. you would literally love each one of them even if they get on my nerves sometimes. i wish you were still here. you should still be here. i guess i should go , i’m going to try to talk to you more , i promise. i love you.