when i get back on my writing wave, it’s over for you guys 🤣 honestly im applying for a new job that’ll give me more free time but also fix a lot of stuff that’s going on in my life right now. so lets hope for the best on that.
i’m looking forward to my vacation :) i can’t wait. i’ll be locked in my room writing. i have sooooo many ideas and finally the time to write them all down.
i’m convinced the words ‘quick’ and ‘short’ aren’t in my vocab when it comes to writing… i’m picking prompts if I’m being honest. just to get some stuff out because my drafts is a wasteland right now where my dreams go to die 😭🙏🏼
so i’m really stuck. little angel has hit a point where i don’t know what to do. my short story about the gang meeting lexi has turned into a twelve page story. i’m so frustrated. my brain is so creative but i tend to over describe. if i could, without feeling terrible about myself, i would delete the past like three pages. seriously, somebody send help.
It’s currently 1:34 am on this stormy April 26th morning, in the glorious year of 2025. I’m sick and just woke up after having taken pills that were supposed to knock me out all night…and I just had the most diabolical idea.
Demon!Dean x Lena anyone?
For reference Lena is Sam’s soulmate in my SPN world. They are fated to end up together in every life timeline… I can’t help but feel like this is so so wrong of me. But I need it.
I’ve never done a crossover this crazy in my life. It’s going to have warnings because it’s going to be the most fucked up shit that I have ever written. Realistically speaking, it’s going to start out as non-con sorry to say, but by the end it’ll be the most consensual shit you’ve ever seen. More cross overs coming your way…
My cross overs will be between universes because, if i’m being honest, I’ve been reading up on The Boys recently, haven’t seen it yet. Soldier boy tickles my fancy. Soldier Boy x Lexi? Yes please! Jensen Ackles x Lexi? Yes please! The trio (Lena, Dean, Sam in my universe) get transported into the real world (like a similar spn episode)? Yes please!!!!!!!
Guys I have too many ideas these days, it’s going to take me fucking forever to write something. Let me know if you’re interested in any of this. If not, it’s okay too because i’ll probably still post it anyways.
Been obsessed with this song recently, it’s giving me Lena/Sam vibes. Hopefully I can write out the idea soon for you guys. I honestly miss writing so much, I just have no time.
My supernatural tattoo is healing beautifully! I can’t wait to show y’all. My sister (who introduced me into SPN) absolutely hates it because she thinks I’m not a fan of supernatural… babe, I wouldn’t have got it on my body permanently if I didn’t at least like it a little. She pisses me off anymore. I’ll share a pic of the tat soon :)
Let’s start a Lexi deep dive… (songs/artists from modern time will be included) Spoilers about things that will happen to her in the future are included in this. The trio is Lena, Sam, and Dean.
Alexandra Flynn was born to a prostitute mother and alcoholic father. They were together, but not married. Her father was in and out of rehab whilst she was growing up, while her mother was never home. She essentially raised herself. She was an only child. At the age of 18, she took it upon herself to leave her family. She traveled by any means necessary with what little money she’d been able to save working her jobs. She dropped out of high school in eleventh grade to be able to save enough money so that she could leave. When she left, she’d made her way to Washington state. At the age of twenty one she’d had her own place and eventually moved in with her boyfriend. Her and Theo were together for four years before breaking up. He wasn’t kind to her, she is a dv survivor.
During high school since her parents never acted like parents, she fucked around a lot. She’s lost her virginity by the time she was fifteen. She was always careful though. She'd gotten her nose pierced at sixteen, most of her tattoos were done between the ages of sixteen to nineteen.
She doesn't meet the trio until she's twenty-five. When they meet she's working at a bar in Washington. They stop at the bar because they're in town on a hunt. Before they figure out what's happening Lena accuses Lexi of being a witch. Turns out her coworker Chris is a vamp. They save her from him and Selena apologizes. Selena and Lexi stay in contact. A year later Lena gets a call from Lexi asking them to pick her up because Theo had hit her. After they finish the hunt they are on, they come to pick her up and she's been with them ever since.
Her birth date is July 7th, 1981. Making her two and a half years younger than Dean, one year and ten months older than Sam, and two years and three months older than Lena. Her and Dean become friends, slightly flirty but still platonic. Over time they develop into friends with benefits, then they get together.
Some of Lexi's favorites would be; color, black. food, a Caesar salad. fruit, blackberries. animal, white tiger. dessert, blackberry cheesecake.
Less obscure favorites of her's would be; number, 8. curse word, fuck. season, summer. alcoholic beverage, whiskey.
Some of her favorite music artists include Pierce the Veil, Skillet, Led Zeppelin, and Falling In Reverse.
People with the INTJ personality type tend to be highly independent, confident, and self-sufficient. They are analytical, creative, and driven.
Her favorite songs are The Drug in Me Is You by Falling In Reverse and Mr. Brightside by The Killers. She doesn't have a favorite movie, not being one to ever really watch tv. Her favorite book is Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte.
If her main story were based in canon supernatural this is what I'd imagine would happen. In her main story, which will, if I'm being honest, probably never be written, she does turn into a demon! She gets killed during season 7 by the leviathans. Dean, Lena, and Sam have to run away right after she gets killed. When they make their way back to get her body and give her a hunter's funeral, she's gone. They spend time trying to find her but to no avail. She dies before Bobby does. Her body had been taken to hell by Crowley where she endured pain, years of pain. Since time is different in hell versus earth, she was only dead and gone from the trio's lives for about six months before she reappeared with Crowley.
I imagine them seeing her again would be something like this; (Sue me, I wrote a one shot in Lena's had to add one here too).
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"Dean, we've looked for her for months. I don't think she's coming back. She hasn't answered any texts, any calls, nothing. She hasn't tried to reach out in any way." Lena said, resting her body against Sams.
His arm circles around her back to grab her hip, "She left. She took the first opportunity that she could-"
"No! She wouldn't just fucking leave. She couldn't, she cared about all of us you know that. We all saw her die, I don't understand how her body could just be gone. A body doesn't just disappear-"
They'd all heard it. A laugh. A laugh sounding exactly like Lexi's. All of their heads whipped around looking for the girl. Dean was the first to see her. She looked healthy, her hair bounced higher than it ever had. Her nails were still painted black as they always had been, he could remember the day she'd let him repaint them for her. They'd had a rough hunt, one where Lena ended up having to go to the hospital. They'd tried to convince Sam to come back to the motel with them, Lena wasn't going anywhere and he could come back the next day, but he'd refused. He told them to go back themselves and he'd wait with her. So they had returned to the motel room, alone for the first time in a while. They had surpassed the friend stage, started sleeping with each other some time ago. Somewhere, somehow over the past year they'd gotten even closer. Sleeping in the same bed when they could, kissing whenever Selena and Sam weren't looking, showering together, hands groping at each other any chance they could. They weren't necessarily hiding it, just not talking about it.
"What're you doing?" He'd asked that night, running a towel over his hair.
She smiled at him, with teeth, "Painting my nails."
"Why would you do that? It's just gonna chip again."
"Yeah, it will but I like having them like this."
He continued to watch over her shoulder as she painted her nails. Once her right hand was finished, he saw her dip the brush back into the bottle.
"Can I do the other hand?"
She turned towards him, "And why would you want to do that?"
He shrugged, "I don't know."
She seemed to consider him for a moment, eyeing him up and down. He watched as she stood and motioned for him to sit down. He took a seat at the table and allowed her to sit on his lap. She pushed the nail polish towards him and held her hand out. He smiled before taking her hand in his and pressing a kiss to her fingers. He'd gotten to work quickly, brushing lightly across her fingernails with hesitation. He missed a bit, nail polish getting on her skin surrounding her nails.
He chuckled, "Sorry, I tried my best."
He felt a kiss being pressed against his temple and moved to look at her. She wrapped both arms around his neck and moved to straddle his waist. His hands wrapped themselves around her waist automatically. He leaned into her embrace and felt her lips placing kisses around the planes of his face. He released a sigh, relaxing into her embrace.
He'd remembered being so comfortable sitting with her in that way and it just being the two of them, that he recognized the feeling then just as he again did now. His heart soared at the sight of her, the air being forcibly choked from his lungs. The entire world seemed to stop and all he could focus on was Lexi. He continued to take in the girl, who'd stopped just ahead of them. She was wearing a black leather jacket, black shiny heels, and god help him... the tightest pair of jeans he'd ever seen in his life. When he was finally able to pull his eyes away from her ass, he saw her standing next to Crowley. What the hell would she be doing with Crowley?
"Crowley!" He found himself yelling as he stomped towards the pair.
Lena and Sam ran after him, urgency in their actions.
"Dean!" Lena yelled, grabbing at his arm.
He shook her off quickly continuing on his path. Nothing was going to stop him from taking her away and keeping her with him at all times. His hands will never leave her, he'll tie her up in the bunker and make her stay. She'll never be able to run away again.
Lexi's head whips around to meet his gaze. His pace falters as his eyes lock onto hers. His green irises clash with her fully black eyes. Black eyes... Crowley... her not being dead... she's a goddamn demon.
"What the hell did you do?" he growled out, coming to a stop in Crowleys personal space.
"If you want to know, you're going to have to take a step back."
He notices Crowley gripping Lexi's wrist in his hand. The sneer on his face could've killed a man.
"Take your hands off of her now."
"You might not want to do that squirrel. Your girlfriend isn't stable yet."
Confusion passes his features, "Stable? I'm going to ask you one more time and I want an answer. What the hell did you do?"
"I saved her life! If it weren't for me, you would have a dead girlfriend and a whole hell of a lot of guilt about it."
"So you're telling me, having my girlfriend become a demon is better than her being dead? If she's a demon, that means she was tortured. You torture her?"
Crowley rolls his eyes with a laugh, "Personally? No. Did I know it was happening? Yes."
Dean growls, "It would've been better if you'd just left her alone Crowley!"
A soft whine pierces through the space around him to his right. He looks at Lexi taking in the sight of her. Despite being a demon, she looked really good. The only thing stopping him from grabbing her and taking her away from all of this, was her herself. His eyes met hers, no longer black and once again the chocolate brown that melted his heart. He reached out his hand only to watch her flinch away from him.
"This is better? You think this is better, you son of a bitch." he angrily snaps at Crowley.
A smirk lights up the demon kings face, "It's been six months for you Dean, it's been sixty years for her. Give her some time to adjust. Let her come to you."
"She's not a dog!"
Crowley rolls his eyes and drops Lexi's wrist from his grasp. Dean keeps his eyes focused on his girlfriend's face as she looks him over. Making sure to stay very still when she walks around him in a circle. He hears a sniff at his neck and closes his eyes. The scent of her filled his nose as she walked around him. She smelled like spicy cinnamon. He opened his eyes and cast a glance at her. Her eyes searched his, looking for signs of recognition. What she found in his eyes was so much more than that.
Love. Anger. Hate. Sadness. His eyes glistened with unshed tears. She could feel the anger pulsing off of him in waves, disrupting the calming air Crowley had been trying to achieve. The hate, burning hot hate, burned through her whole being. She felt the hatred in her lungs, every breath of air she breathed hot and charged with energy.
Getting turned on by the scent of Dean wasn't anything new. He always smelled like leather, whiskey, and sex. Pure manly energy filled her head as she smelled him. Flickers of memories passed through her mind as the scent filled her. Driving down the highway listening to Led Zeppelin as the summer breeze blew through her hair. Waking up next to him, tangled together in motel sheets. Watching him get dressed in the morning. Counting the freckles on his nose as he laid asleep next to her. Listening to him sing softly as she's falling asleep.
Her breath came quickly, she couldn't seem to catch it. Taking a step away from Dean calmed her senses. Her mind wasn't filled with memories of her past life. She cast a quick glance towards Crowley. He was the one helping her though all of these new feelings and becoming a demon.
"What's going on Crowley? Why does she look scared?"
"She's okay. She's just going through a lot right now. You aren't helping! She's not ready to be around you guys yet."
Dean scowls, "We're her family! She needs us, more than she's ever needed you."
Crowley looks at Lexi before nodding, "Okay. You guys take care of her then. Try taming a newborn demon and just see what happens."
He disappears in a cloud of red smoke, leaving her with Dean, Sam, and Lena. She looks at them wide-eyed, not sure what to do.
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Wasn't sure how to end that if I'm being honest. Let's get back to her though.
Honestly, I've been rethinking her a bit. She is a total badass but also sort of soft. It's hard to explain but I love her so much that I take a lot of her personality from myself. Here's a list of her kinks! Based off the list I used in Lena's. The link to her story will be below.
💬 0 🔁 0 ❤️ 17 · Post by @5ummit · In honor of Sammy’s birthday, here’s a little something that’s been finished just sitting in my drafts.
I hope you enjoy getting to know my characters as much as I love getting to describe them for you. I did some digging and I have some things to add about my characters.
In honor of Sammy’s birthday, here’s a little something that’s been finished just sitting in my drafts.
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Let’s do a Selena deep dive… this is including modern artists that are currently big in 2025. This may contain spoilers for future writings. You have been warned.
Selena Katherine Singer, daughter of Bobby and Karen Singer was born on November 2nd, 1983 putting her exactly six months younger than Sam and four years, ten months younger than Dean.
Less obscure favorites of hers would be; number, 5. curse word, shit. season, autumn. alcoholic beverage, long island iced tea.
Some of her favorite music artists include Billy Joel, Elvis, Ariana Grande, Lana Del Rey etc.
People with an ESFJ personality type tend to be outgoing, loyal, organized, and tender-hearted, which is why they are sometimes known as "The Caregiver" or "The Consul." Because they are extroverts, ESFJs love spending time with others. In fact, they gain a lot of energy by interacting with other people.
Her favorite song is Pour Some Sugar on Me by Def Leppard (a personal favorite of mine). Her favorite movie is The Breakfast Club.
When Lena was nineteen, Bobby found out that she’d been hunting and told her to stop. He said that if she didn’t stop she wouldn’t be able to stay with him. She didn’t stop and they got into a terrible argument about it. She decided to shack up with Ellen at the roadhouse to get a little separation from her father. While living with Ellen, Lena was given a job at the roadhouse and learned to enjoy her freedom as an adult. She was still hunting but only local things in the surrounding neighborhoods. She met a lot of hunters during her time there and learned to hone some of her skills.
In her personal life, she's had three boyfriends. Of course we already know about Sam. Before the boys brought Lena back from the roadhouse, where she'd been living with Ellen and Jo for a bit, she was seeing this guy named Greyson. Greyson was a hunter's son, someone who prided himself on following in his fathers footsteps. They started dating when she was twenty-one, after meeting at the roadhouse. He was twenty four. Her first ever boyfriend, his name was Noah. They'd met in high school when she was sixteen. They dated for two years before breaking up. He was her first. Well sex wise that is. Her first kiss was with Sam, they were 14.
He and Dean stopped coming around to Bobby's shortly after that. The next time she'd seen the Winchesters, it was just John and Dean. Apparently Sam had abandoned them and went to Stanford. She couldn't help but feel happy for him, knowing how much he'd hated the hunting life.
After finding out Sam got out, it just made her want to get into the hunting life deeper than she had been. Her first hunt had been a simple salt and burn ghost. She'd done the research and hunted the ghost all by herself. It was exhilarating. When she'd rid the ghost from the family that it was terrorizing, they'd felt such gratitude that they'd asked her to come back and visit them any time she'd wanted. She'd never forget that hunt but she'd also never go back. She had used an alias and that alias is dead. It was her first alias she'd ever used, Marilyn Darby. As far as she'd known about that family she helped, they'd moved out of the country shortly after word got around about her supposed death.
Selena and Castiel’s relationship is complicated. It’s kind of like a father/daughter relationship. He’s referred to as her ‘favorite angel’ in Little Angel. His nickname for her is Little Angel.
I felt like maybe I should dive into the whole concept I used surrounding Selena so people could better understand. To make sure that Karen still dies and Lena can still be a possibility in the supernatural world canonically, I had Karen have a miscarriage. When she miscarried the baby, it was sent up to heaven and placed in Castiels care. She had been dead for a different amount of time between heaven and earth. For earth time, she was dead/miscarried for about three months. During these three months Karen did everything in her power to find a way to bring the baby back. Eventually, she’d come across a thing such as a crossroad demon. It offered to bring her baby back in return for her soul. A life for a life. She agreed immediately. The baby was brought back and Karen became whatever it was that Bobby killed. Now because Selena had been sent to heaven, she had some angelic grace in her. In heavens time she had aged up to seventeen before being cast down back to earth as a baby. She had no recollection of these memories, Castiel had known her when he’d found them. She had become part angel but was still human. Him being around awakened the angel side of her and she was able to hear angel radio. She was also able to telecommunicate with entities. She was practicing and learning how to do this before she died (for the only time) and had the angelic grave sucked out of her by Rowena. Canonically this doesn’t make sense but the story is half canon and half my brain.
Her father had told her what really happened to her mother when she was sixteen. She'd always known that she wanted to get into hunting to avenge her mother. She didn't know if crossroad demons, well let's be realistic here, she didn't know if any demons were real. Demons seem to be a bit hard to believe. The occasional ghost, vampire, werewolf, sure she'd give you that, but demons? Surely that was going too far. She isn't able to avenge her mother until she's twenty-nine. (<< that's included in my story Little Angel, this scene is yet to be written.)
After a nice time enjoying Sam and Lena's third anniversary (their three year mark is set somewhere between season 6/7), the trio (Lena, Sam, and Dean) encounter a certain previous engagement that Lena had had. Greyson. Only he'd hadn't gotten the memo about Sam and Lena. I imagine it would've gone a little something like this. (Sorry to include a short one shot into this already long ass deep dive into Lena's character)
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"How do ghosts stay in shape?"
"Oh my god Dean, please just shut up." Lena groaned.
He'd been annoying her and Sam all day with these stupid dad jokes. First at the motel, then he'd continued the whole car ride to the library, and now even at the diner he wouldn't shut up. Sam and Lena had been together for three years now. Their anniversary had come and passed this past weekend and Dean had allowed them to take a little vacation for it. She didn't know why they'd chosen to come back to Nebraska. Perhaps it was because the first time that they'd met each other as grown ups, not being burdened by their parents looming over their shoulders, was in Nebraska. Dean had come to pick them up, informing them about their upcoming hunt.
"They get exorcized."
"Ha ha ha. You're hilarious." Lena says, taking a sip of her drink while rolling her eyes.
"Selena, is that you?"
Her head turns at the sound of her name. You've got to be joking. She never thought she'd run into him again, at least she was hoping she wouldn't.
"Greyson? Hey!"
She stands, hugging the man. Sam and Dean are looking at her with questioning gazes. She just shakes her head, she'd tell them about him later. She lets go of Greyson and takes a step back. His hands slide down her arms as she pulls away from him. Sam catches the action with a glare.
"You mind if I join you guys?" Greyson asked, a smile on his face.
"Uh no by all means." Dean replies, motioning to the booth with his hand.
Greyson grins and takes a seat beside Lena. She was across from Sam, who was still glaring at Greyson. His eyes shifted to her only to find her already looking at him with a stern expression. His eyes widen slightly before faking a cough.
"So Greyson, I take it, how do you know Lena?"
Greyson eyes Sam and Dean before casting a glance towards the girl next to him, "Well if you don't mind, I'd like to get to know the men that she's with before telling private stories."
Dean's face scrunches up. Private stories? What the hell was he going on about?
"Well, this is Sam and Dean Winchester. I'm sure you've heard of the Winchesters." Lena motioned to each one when introducing them.
"Yeah, the Winchesters. Of course I've heard of you guys. John's kids, sorry about your Pop."
"Thanks. How do you know Lena?" Sam asks.
Greyson smiles at Lena before wrapping an arm around her shoulder, pulling her close to him. Sam has to hold back his sneer.
"We go way back. How long has it been, four or five years since we've seen each other? How old are you now Lena?"
She rolls her eyes and twists away from his arm uncomfortably, "Twenty-seven, which makes you thirty, old man."
Greyson releases a deep chuckle, "Yeah, just hit thirty this past weekend."
Lena's eyes widen, she had completely forgotten. Greyson's birthday was the same day as their anniversary. She'd spent one of his birthdays with him, his twenty-fifth to be exact. She could kind of remember what they'd done during that time, if she thought on it hard enough. She was drunk, out of her mind drunk. All she remembered was alcohol, music, and sex. Lots of sex. A shudder ran through her just thinking about it. She wished to have one of those days with Sam.
"That's great! I hope you had a great time. Was your dad there?" Lena inquired.
"No. He couldn't make it. Would've fun if you were there though." He replied, winking at her.
She could see Sam was starting to get really angry, she needed to fix this fast.
"Sam and I were here celebrating our third anniversary."
She could see the shock on the brothers faces. They hadn't expected her to tell him that her and Sam were together.
Greyson shifts uncomfortably next to her, "Oh you two are together?" he points between the two of them.
Sam grabs Lena's hand across the table, rubbing her knuckles, "Yeah. Three years, but it feels like just yesterday she walked into my life. We were each other’s first kiss. We've known each other our whole lives, it was only a matter of time til we got together. Don't you think, Greyson?"
Everyone could hear the lift in his tone. If he was trying to make Greyson leave, it was working.
“Uh sure yeah of course. I’m happy for you guys. I didn’t realize you went back that far. No wonder she rejected my proposal you know. I gotta get going though.”
He begins to stand but turns back towards Lena with a close lipped smile. He leans down and kisses her cheek before she could move. He pulls away from her slowly, pointedly avoiding Sam’s eyes.
“You’ve got yourself a keeper here, Sam. Make sure you take good care of her so she doesn’t have to go looking somewhere else. Anyone would be lucky to have her.”
He stands from the table abruptly, leaving without them getting a chance to say goodbye. Dean and Sam turn their eyes towards Selena.
“Greyson? You go way back?”
Selena rolls her eyes, “He’s an old boyfriend of mine. Nothing to worry about.”
“Nothing to worry about? He was pretty fucking happy to see you Lena.”
She gasps, how was Sam still this angry?
“I don’t know Sam! It wasn’t ever that serious with him.”
He eyes her up and down, “Never that serious? He said you rejected his proposal! He wanted to marry you, but it wasn’t that serious?”
“Babe that’s not important. We’re together now, can we just focus on us?”
Dean interjects himself into the conversation feeling the tension rising between his brother and his girlfriend.
“You guys just celebrated your three years. Sam if she’d wanted to be with Greyson, she would be. Suck it up champ, you got the trophy, no need to make second place feel like shit.”
Hearing that Sam seemed to perk up throughout the rest of their dinner.
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Okay that’s it lol, did you guys enjoy reading about Lena? I’m currently making a Lexi one as well. If there’s anything I missed about her, just let me know and I can update this as much as I want lol.
It's later in the day and work conversation got weird. It reminded me that maybe I should list Lena's kinks as well. This might get weird, you don't have to read if you don't want to. I will be including the same thing for Lexi.
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💬 3 🔁 70 ❤️ 473 · List of 400+ Kinks & Tropes · Below is an alphabetized and roughly categorized list every major kink, trope, and sex act
This is a lot of fucking kinks, but they're split into sections. I will be putting the section and then the number of the kink that she has. These can be things that she likes or just things that her and Sam get up to when they have time.
GSA: 4, 5, 6, 7 (A hand in her mouth whilst being fucked), 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 19, 21, 22, 24, 25
Please, I swear to Chuck, I think I counted right or at least I hope I did. Selena and Lexi have different lists seeing as Selena is more vanilla than Lexi, however there are some overlaps.
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As for Sam and Lena's future, they get engaged in season 11. Now seeing as I haven't watched past a few episodes in season 12, I'm going to assume as of right now that they get married in season 14. Since Little Angel is half canon half my brain, Dean is probably still going to suffer the same fate. I haven't decided yet. But Lena and Sam do end up having kids and living long happy lives together. She does end up dying before Sam and being reunited with their family in heaven.