So yesterday I talked to my roommate, and he noticed I've been sleeping less lol, told him cause I've got more energy since I've now made it 1 month into my new yrs resolution, cutting back calories and a lot of carbs, and my junk food habit, and working out 10 to 15mins a day, while staying active as I am, told him my goal this yr is to get back to the body I had 10yrs ago, but pace myself cause the reason ppl stop taking care of themselves is they try it all at once, and you can't, lowering calories and junk sure, but full cut off will have your body go into starvation mode and will hold onto weight. He said he should start on his resolution but knowing him he won't, I offered we can workout a bit if he wanted. I also have not checked my body weight and I've not looked in a mirror for a month (meaning shirtless and all) cause the brain will make judgements too often especially when you have Body Dysmorphia issues. My pals hate that I say that cause I'm smaller than all of them, but I can't, I've only ever felt good about myself when I was happy in a relationship and worked out a lot, buuuut that's a long story and didn't end good for my brain lolz, I choose not to self destroy as much. Now onto a new month and to increase the workout timewise and start eating a bit better too, that's the goal at least, hopefully when my bday happens at the end of this month I'll be closer to where I want, or at least doing good on the progress. We redevelop ourselves so often and change each yr, hoping to feel better and happier about myself. To all of you out there I hope if you aren't happy with yourself that you can find something you love of yourself to keep going.
