They say that in an ideal world, it takes two years to prepare for the coming of a child. That's two years of finding unity and harmony with your partner and preparing the 'vessel' of your body to create life. Of course it's very rarely the case that one plans a child and it's still rarer to find couples who are planning a conscious birth, however as a womb healer I thought I might take some of my own advice prior to getting pregnant. So, in my case, it has been two years of solid preparation. Two years with my husband and a good two years (if not an eternity) of healing. I was sure by now we had it all sorted. I was just waiting, arms outstretched, for the soul of our beautiful baby girl to bless our lives. Not so. They say that God laughs at our plans, and if I hadn't learnt to not take things personally, I would be thinking that right now. In truth, just as I was preparing for what I projected would be an idyllic and somewhat restful time, life hit like a ton of bricks. I have been confronted with the most difficult time of my life since my father got ill, and instead of thinking about creating life, I have been musing over death and how similar they are. On top of this, in two weeks we move home, fly to Rome, then fly to India (we will be back in Ojai in April!) We are stepping entirely into the unknown. And I say thank God/Goddess for my capacity to live in flow. Thank heavens for my commitment to a life that is lived orgasmically and that is oceanic in its wake. I am able to surrender now more than I ever have before. I am able to find deeper levels of trust that I thought I didn't have in me. And do you know, I got married against all odds and my motto was 'love happens in the messy'. I think my child will come in the same way - messy, and not at all planned. Loving you all profusely 💕 and stay magical 💗 Photo @soulseedgathering :: #lifeasprayer #themodernmedicinewoman #birth
