Authors note: I have no idea how Ser Gwayne Hightower managed to crawl under my skin by appearing for a few seconds on screen but here I am writing for the sad noble knight as if my life depended on it.
Warnings: SMUT 18+
Word Count: 5,8 K
Summary: a wounded knight, a healer's hut, and a love neither of them can afford
Dividers by @cafekitsune
The rain had come and gone three times that day. The forest smelled of wet earth and pine, and the cool air had made goosebumps rise along your arms. You shivered and gripped tighter your woven basket half-filled with mushrooms and wild herbs.
Most villagers avoided the forest even during the day, and every child knew the stories about spirits wandering beneath the trees once the light faded.
You knew better. The woods held wolves, thieves, and men. Those were the real danger.
The shadows were getting longer, you had to get home before darkness settled in.
It was when a distant sound reached you through the trees – a groan, low but unmistakably human.
You stopped and listened, the sound came again, so full of pain and angry despair that it made you flinch.
For a moment, you considered turning around and running. You didn’t. You couldn’t.
Your mind screamed at you in agony, calling you a fool, that whatever had happened here had nothing to do with you, that the only sensible thing to do was to vanish before anything worse happened.
You had never been good at sensible.
You stepped from the path and pushed through the undergrowth. The forest slowly darkened around you as the last remnants of daylight vanished behind thick clouds, but the direction you had chosen was right – the groaning grew louder.
A shape emerged between the trees.
A horse.
Dead.
Saddle half-torn loose, some pieces of armor scattered just next to it and several paces farther on – a man, sprawled against the roots of an ancient oak, one arm hanging uselessly at his side, face streaked with mud.
Your breath caught.
Not a bandit.
A knight, or rather what remained of one.
You stopped dead in your tracks. Men in armor brought trouble. Noblemen brought even more.
For all their faults, thieves and bandits understood the sacred rule: do not bite the hand that heals you. They knew what it was to go hungry, to bleed, to depend on the mercy of another. Noblemen rarely did.
They moved through the world as though it had been laid at their feet for their use alone. Gratitude flowed upward, never down. Kindness was expected, service demanded, and debts forgotten even before blood had dried on a bandage.
You had learned that lesson young, and life had seen fit to repeat it often.
Yet as you watched, the man’s head shifted weakly and you heard a strained breath escape him.
Not dead, not yet at least. You cursed at your foolishness as you moved closer.
The man's hair, damp with rain, stuck to his forehead, and even the mix of dirt and blood couldn’t completely hide the fine features of his handsome face.
The embroidery on his green doublet, the remnants of his armour, every single thing about this man screamed he was someone important, someone dangerous and surely someone far above the concerns of a village healer living alone on the edge of nowhere.
You leaned in and put your palm on his forehead. Burning hot.
His eyes opened. Blue of the morning sky and still sharp despite the pain. A shaky hand reached for you.
"Water," he rasped before his eyes rolled back, and his body slumped back against the tree.
You stared at him, at the blood seeping through his doublet, at the straight line of his nose, the sharp eyebrows.
The sensible choice would have been to leave him.
Instead, with a muttered curse and a prayer to every god willing to listen, you set down your basket and knelt beside the unconscious stranger.
You fetched the flask hanging from your waistband and slid one hand behind his neck.
"Easy."
His head lolled heavily against your palm and his eyes opened again, unfocused and glassy with pain.
You tipped the flask carefully.
He swallowed once, coughed, then drank again, greedily.
"Not too much," you warned, pulling it away.
His brow furrowed, whether at your words or simply from the effort of staying conscious, you couldn't tell.
For a long moment he simply stared at you. He looked confused, trying to place where he was, who you were, perhaps even remember his own name.
You set the flask aside and turned your attention to the armor.
The breastplate was dented along one side and mud had worked itself into every buckle and strap. You had to get it off but it was clear it was not going to be an easy task.
"What are you doing?" he managed as you started to pull at the straps.
"Saving your life."
Your fingers worked at the leather fastenings, the knight frowned and his hand moved weakly toward yours.
You slapped it away.
"Stop that."
A surprised blink and then, despite the blood loss and obvious pain, something almost resembling offense crossed his face.
"I can't carry you," you said with a slight scoff. "And you can't walk carrying half a forge on your shoulders."
The final buckle came loose, the breastplate shifted and he groaned in pain as you moved his body to ease it away from him.
You kept going – the pauldrons, the vambraces, all went off. He didn’t protest anymore, and piece by piece, all the steel fell away.
You looked at the man revealed beneath it – wiry but well built, pale and far younger than he had first appeared.
The doublet was stained dark with blood. The wound would need cleaning, stitching, perhaps, but none of that could happen in the middle of the forest.
"We need to move."
His eyes closed briefly and when they opened again, they were sharper and more aware.
"I can’t."
"You want to live, you will."
The look he gave you suggested he was unused to being argued with.
You rose to your feet and dusted off your skirts, his gaze followed you.
You offered your hand and after a moment's hesitation, he took it.
You braced your feet.
"Ready?"
"No."
"Good."
You pulled, he cried out as he put all his remaining strength in holding on to you and pushing himself upright. For a second his knees buckled and you already thought he would fall back on the ground, but somehow he managed to keep standing.
"Seven, help me," he muttered through clenched teeth.
You quickly stepped closer, draped his good arm over your shoulders and wrapped your own around his waist.
The weight that settled against you was considerable.
"Gods," you breathed, looking with remorse at your basket on the ground. There was no way you could lean down to fetch it without letting the man drop back into the mud.
The two of you stood there for a moment, swaying slightly.
“Move,” you ordered.
There was a pause but then he shifted his weight forward.
One step. It was shaky and painful, the movement drew a sharp hiss from him but it was a step.
"Good boy," you gave him an encouraging smile.
His jaw clenched but another step followed.
Consciousness returned slowly and in fragments.
First was the feeling of warmth, then the sound of crackling fire, next came the scent of dried herbs.
Pain. A dull, throbbing ache spread through his ribs, shoulder, and side.
Gwayne frowned, his eyelids felt heavy but he forced them open.
A low wooden ceiling, smoke-darkened beams, a small window.
Memories run scattered through his still somewhat foggy brain.
The battle. The screams. The pain.
The fire. The rain. The forest.
A woman.
Beautiful, large eyes looking at him with open annoyance.
He was alive.
The realization came with a fresh pulse of pain and a ragged gasp.
The door opened and you stepped inside carrying a wooden bowl filled with steaming water.
"Look who's decided to rejoin the living," you smiled seeing the young man awake and set the bowl down.
The blanket shifted as he moved, attempting to sit up, and he instantly froze and looked down, realising there was nothing between him and the blanket. Completely, absolutely nothing.
His eyes widened.
"What in the..." his voice sounded hoarse but it still was pleasantly soft.
He looked pointedly at the blanket, then back at you.
You blinked.
"What happened to my clothes?" The accusation in his voice was hard to miss.
You folded your arms.
"They're drying."
A beat of silence passed.
Gwayne's face grew steadily warmer as the implications arranged themselves in his mind and the speed with which the young man’s cheeks all over to his ears turned brightly red made you chuckle.
"You removed them."
"You were unconscious."
"You removed all of them."
You stared.
He stared back.
Finally you let out a long, disbelieving breath. "Seven preserve me."
"What?"
"You wake up in one piece after nearly dying in the middle of nowhere and that's your first concern?"
His jaw tightened.
"You undressed me."
"I saved your life."
"You undressed me."
"I stitched your wounds!”
The man looked genuinely mortified and offended. You looked genuinely ready to throw something at him.
His mouth opened, closed, then opened again but nothing emerged.
"Not even a thank you," your frustration spilled out before you could stop it. "Not one."
Gwayne blinked.
"I carried you out of the woods, spent half the night cleaning blood off you, used almost every bandage and pain soothing herb I had and unless you've discovered some miraculous method of treating wounds through a doublet, yes, I removed your clothes."
The room fell quiet.
Gwayne found himself staring at a knot in the wooden wall, and his ears felt suspiciously warm.
"You stitched my wounds?"
"That is generally how healing works when someone has a hole in his side."
Gwayne shut his eyes and rubbed a hand over his face, the movement pulled painfully and he hissed.
The concern drove away the annoyance from your features so quickly that it caught him off guard. You immediately stepped forward.
"Don't. You'll tear the stitches."
Your gaze dropped to the bandages wrapped around his torso.
"Try sitting up slowly."
Gwayne eyed you suspiciously.
"Why?"
"Because if you're going to continue being difficult, I'd at least like you to be conscious for it."
It had been on the third day that the young man finally revealed his name.
To his credit, there had been no grand announcement, no expectation that the world should stop and marvel at it.
The truth had surfaced gradually, piece by piece, through idle conversation and half-answered questions until, with visible reluctance, he admitted that he was Ser Gwayne Hightower.
You cursed inwardly.
A Hightower. As if sheltering a wounded knight beneath your roof was not enough trouble to tempt fate. Of course he had to be a nobleman as well. Of course he had to belong to one of the most powerful houses in the realm, a house with its hands buried up to the elbows in the bloodiest war of the century.
Just your luck.
You dragged a half-dead stranger out of the forest and somehow ended up with a piece of the realm's troubles sleeping in your bed.
The days that followed settled into a rhythm neither of you acknowledged aloud – each morning began with fresh bandages and a new argument.
Gwayne healed quickly, much faster than you had expected. The fever broke after three days and by the end of the week, he could cross the room without needing to lean on walls or furniture. He stubbornly refused your hand whenever you offered it to him.
He had tried to ask you questions about the course of the war. You cut him off before he could speak them out.
"No discussions about kings, queens, claimants, dragons, battles, or whichever noble lord is currently trying to kill whichever noble lord."
A faint frown appeared between his brows.
"I merely wished to know..."
“I said, no,” you tied off the fresh bandage with perhaps a little more force than necessary.
Gwayne studied you for a moment.
"I'm too poor to have the luxury of caring who sits on the Iron Throne," you finally said and turned to face him. "When lords quarrel, villages burn. While princes decide who is entitled to crowns, common folk bury their sons. Armies take grain, horses trample fields, and healers like me spend their days stitching together whatever is left behind."
You folded your arms.
"I heal whoever comes through that door. Farmer. Merchant. Shepherd. Drunkard. When I picked you up in the woods, I didn’t ask for your title.”
Your gaze drifted briefly to the fresh bandages wrapped around his torso.
"I have no desire to be part of noble quarrels," you said at last, more quietly. "I don't want favors. I don't want rewards. I certainly don't want enemies."
A muscle shifted in Gwayne's jaw as it slowly hit him, the reason for that distinct feeling that learning his name had somehow lowered your opinion of him.
"You think knowing my name places you in danger."
"I know it does."
The certainty in your voice surprised him.
"When you leave this place, Ser Gwayne, I sincerely hope you forget the path that brought you here."
His expression tightened.
"You saved my life."
"Exactly."
You pointed at him.
"And if, after all that, the thanks I receive is having soldiers, rivals, debt collectors, spies, or ambitious noblemen showing up at my door asking questions, then I hope every old and new god in the Seven Kingdoms curses you for the rest of your days."
For a heartbeat, Gwayne simply stared, his blue eyes met yours and something softer flickered there, something unusually sincere.
"I give you my word. No one will hear of this place from me," the solemn certainty in his voice surprised you, and for reasons you could not entirely explain, you found yourself believing him.
A week later, Gwayne Hightower discovered that recovering from a near-death injury was considerably easier than earning your approval.
Gwayne had spent most of his life knowing exactly what was expected of him.
He was a knight. A Hightower. A soldier. The son of a powerful house.
There had always been a place for him in the world, a purpose that fit as naturally as a sword hilt in his hand until he woke up in your hut and discovered that in your world he had none of all that. Even more - he was entirely useless.
The realization did not come all at once.
At first, there was the wound. No man could be expected to work while half stitched together and burning with fever but the fever broke and the strength returned.
The days passed.
You rose before dawn every morning.
By the time he woke, water had already been fetched, the fire lit, herbs sorted, breakfast prepared.
Then the rest of the day began: children with split open knees, farmers with swollen joints, old women seeking remedies for aching backs, broken bones, cuts, fever.
You treated them all.
Then there was laundry, cooking, cleaning, mending, collecting herbs, brewing potions, the work never seemed to end, and somehow everything that needed doing simply found its way into your hands.
For the first time in his life, Gwayne found himself uncertain of where he belonged within it all. Worse still, he discovered that he wanted to belong.
Every morning he woke to the scent of porridge or fresh bread and the soft sounds of a household already awake around him.
It was a small life by the standards of lords and castles, a simple one, hard, undoubtedly, and demanding in ways he had never seen before, yet there was something about it that drew him in.
Perhaps it was the honesty of it, the quiet purpose woven into every task, or perhaps it was simply you.
Whatever the reason, Gwayne found himself wanting, more and more, to be a part of this strange little world fate had thrown him into.
It took him a while before he braved to offer help, but it seemed the least he could do.
A mistake.
A terrible mistake.
The first task you entrusted him with was watching the bread.
It sounded almost insultingly simple – sit by the oven, keep an eye on it, take it out when it was done.
A few distracted thoughts later, smoke began pouring from the oven and by the time he realized something was wrong and dragged the loaf out, it had transformed into a charred black brick that could scarcely be called bread anymore.
Your face when you discovered it haunted him for days.
The bowls proved even less cooperative. The task was to wash and dry them.
How could anyone wash dozens of fragile things every day without breaking them?
As the third one hit the floor, Gwayne stopped and sat down with his head in his hands.
Not that he had more luck with the wood. You had found him standing in front of the chopping block and watching the axe stuck in the log after his first swing with absolutely no idea how to get the stubborn tool out of it.
The truth was humiliating.
He was a knight and yet you were more capable than him in almost every practical matter that kept a household alive.
At first he found that realization uncomfortable, then impossible to stop thinking about.
He started to watch you. Not intentionally, at least, not at first.
His gaze simply found you. Again and again.
There was confidence in everything you did – competence earned through years of doing.
There was no one else in your life. No servants. No household staff. No family helping. Just you and yet somehow you managed it all.
And for the first time in his life, Gwayne found himself wondering if fate had dropped him into the world with nothing but his own hands, would he have managed half as well as you?
He wasn’t certain, and it made him feel both shame and admiration.
The realization arrived gradually like the dawn creeping across a room.
No single moment or dramatic revelation, just a growing certainty.
He liked your sharp tongue, the way you refused to be intimidated by him, the way you argued with him without hesitation or the way your eyes flashed whenever he said something particularly foolish.
Gods.
Especially that.
You were infuriating and somehow he found himself looking forward to every argument.
He liked hearing your voice, just simply being near you and seeing you smile. At some point, without noticing when or how, you had become the first thing he looked for when he woke and the last thing he thought about before sleep and once he acknowledged that, the rest became impossible to deny.
Your handsome knightly patient was getting better with every passing day and somehow it made you inexplicably sad.
Patients came and went. Some stayed for an afternoon, some for a few days. They arrived carrying pain, fear, and uncertainty and departed as soon as their bodies allowed it.
That was how it was meant to be.
Yet lately, whenever you looked at Gwayne, you found yourself wishing his recovery would slow.
Not stop, just... slow.
The wound along his side had nearly closed, the bruising had faded. He moved easily now, no longer wincing every time he stood, soon there would be nothing left keeping him here.
The thought sat heavily in your chest whenever you allowed yourself to think about it for too long, but even if you tried not to allow it, your attention kept drifting toward him.
The truth was, he was not at all what you had expected.
When you had learned who he was, you had imagined the worst – a proud nobleman, demanding and entitled, the sort who believed the world existed for his convenience only.
Instead, fate had delivered you a knight who burned bread, shattered bowls, and spent half an hour contemplating a log because he did not know how to chop it.
The memory still made you laugh and there was one thing you couldn’t deny – his efforts had been genuine, even after repeated failures, especially after repeated failures, he still never acted as though any task was beneath him.
Despite all his attempts to appear composed, he still blushed every time you changed his bandages.
A grown man and a knight, reduced to awkward silence and burning cheeks whenever you untied the laces of his shirt.
You glanced up from sewing the torn sleeve of his doublet.
Lost in thought Gwayne was staring into the fire again. He looked so out of place when he did that.
He looked lonely.
You had spent most of your life alone, you were used to it, and yet for a brief, foolish moment, you found yourself imagining what would happen if he stayed.
The thought lasted all of three seconds but it was enough for you to accidentally drive the needle into your thumb.
Then common sense returned with the pain.
“Ouch,” you hissed.
He would never stay and even if he wanted to, he shouldn't.
Gwayne belonged to castles and armies and great stone cities, to duties and responsibilities, to a world you could scarcely imagine.
You lived in a forgotten hut at the edge of a forest.
Your lives were not even supposed to touch.
Carefully, you brushed your fingers over the healed skin on Gwayne’s side one last time.
The gash was gone, the skin had knitted together cleanly and what remained would also fade with time.
You didn’t even notice Gwayne had gone suspiciously still beneath your touch.
"Well," you leaned back. "Congratulations. You are healed."
You both glanced down at the discarded bandage in your hands.
"There is no need for another one," you said more quietly.
You knew exactly what that meant. He could finally leave.
You placed the bandages aside and pushed yourself off the bed as a hand closed around your wrist.
Your eyes dropped to the place where his fingers touched your skin.
Gwayne immediately looked as though he regretted every decision that had led him to this moment.
Color flooded his face.
Gods.
You had never seen a man blush so thoroughly.
The redness reached all the way to his ears.
For a heartbeat he simply stared at your joined hands.
Then he released a breath.
Opened his mouth.
Closed it again.
You waited.
Gwayne looked like a man preparing to charge a dragon.
You blinked.
"I … I…,” he stammered.
“What?"
A flash of horror crossed his face.
"Gwayne."
His gaze found yours again.
"Come… come with me," he finally managed.
You stared, certain you had misunderstood.
"What?"
His grip tightened slightly before immediately loosening again.
As though he feared frightening you away.
"When I leave."
The words came slowly now.
Carefully.
"I want you to come with me."
For a moment, you simply looked at him, at the handsome knight sitting on your bed with an earnest terror in his eyes.
A soft, disbelieving laugh escaped you before you could stop it.
"Gwayne."
"I know how it sounds."
"Do you?"
He closed his eyes and shook his head.
That, at least, was honest.
Neither of you moved but neither of you looked away.
Gwayne still held your wrist lightly. Slowly, almost hesitantly, he loosened his grip and turned your hand in his.
His gaze dropped to your fingers as he lifted your hand toward his mouth.
The touch of his lips against your knuckles was feather-light.
You could have pulled away.
You knew that.
You should have.
Instead, your hand remained where it was.
Gwayne kissed your knuckles first, one after another, slowly, eyes shut close, savouring every touch of his lips against your skin.
When he finally looked up at you again, something had changed.
The uncertainty in his gaze remained, but now there was something else alongside it.
Wonder.
As though he could scarcely believe you were still there, that you hadn’t pulled your hand away.
Slowly, giving you every opportunity to stop him, he leaned closer.
"Gwayne..."
His gaze flickered briefly to your mouth then back to your eyes. You held your breath but didn’t move away.
Carefully, tentatively his lips brushed yours. So lightly, so briefly that at first you almost wondered whether it had happened at all, even so your heart stumbled painfully in your chest.
Gwayne’s eyes fluttered shut and he leaned in once more. His hand cupped your cheek and you could feel the slight tremor in his fingers as though he could scarcely believe he was allowed to touch you.
You felt him smile faintly against your lips, a small, disbelieving thing, as if he had spent so long hoping for this moment that now he didn't quite trust it to be real.
Without thinking, your fingers curled into the fabric of his shirt, pulling him closer.
It drew a soft breath from him, something between a soft moan and a whimper.
The sound sent warmth flooding through you.
Gwayne's hand, still resting against your cheek, slipped into your hair, his fingers threading through the strands before settling at the nape of your neck. The touch was careful, almost protective, yet there was nothing uncertain about it anymore.
The kiss deepened, his lips moved against yours with impossible tenderness but you could feel the quickened beat of his heart beneath your palm on his chest.
When you finally broke apart, it was only because breathing had become necessary.
"Gods," he murmured.
"What?"
A smile appeared. It was slow but bright enough to transform his entire face.
"I was certain you were going to throw something at me."
Despite yourself, you laughed.
Gwayne drew back with the unmistakable look of a man gathering the courage to say something that mattered.
His lips parted.
You already knew what was coming.
A promise, a plan, something sensible and reassuring.
You did not want any of it. You didn’t want promises that were impossible to keep. You wanted this moment, this beautiful fleeting moment between now and then, where everything was possible and nothing was spoken out loud.
Before he could say anything, you lifted a finger and pressed it gently against his lips.
"Hush."
He blinked.
"Don't."
There was confusion in his gaze, you ignored it.
Slowly, you guided him backward. He let you. The mattress dipped beneath his weight.
His gaze never left your face.
You crawled on top of him, straddling his hips. His heartbeat picked up beneath your palm. Fast. Much too fast for a knight.
You smiled.
"Don't speak," you murmured.
His throat bobbed.
"Just feel. No promises. Just this one night."
Your fingers drifted absentmindedly across taut planes of his abdomen tracing the familiar lines of the body you had spent weeks tending back to health.
Beneath your touch, every muscle seemed to go still.
You leaned in and pressed your lips to the scar on his side. Gwayne's breath caught audibly, head tipping back with a soft gasp.
The sound emboldened you. You kissed the line of the scar again, letting your tongue trace its length. His hips twitched beneath you and a low, broken sound left his throat.
“Gods…” he breathed, fingers flexing against the sheets as if he didn’t know whether to reach for you or hold himself back.
“Schhhh, my knight,” you whispered.
You took your time exploring him with your hands and mouth, every scar, every ridge of muscle, every place your fingers had once brushed as you tended his wounds, you worshiped them now with your lips and tongue – the hollow of his throat, the sharp line of his collarbone, the sensitive spot just beneath his ribs that made his breath hitch sharply.
Gwayne’s head pressed back into the pillow, eyes half-lidded. You loved the soft, helpless sounds that spilled from his lips with every touch, all the quiet gasps and shaky moans. His hands finally rose to your waist, gripping lightly, reverently, as though you were something sacred he was terrified of breaking.
“Don’t…,” he managed, voice wrecked. “I… I can’t…”
You silenced him with a deep kiss, swallowing his words as you rocked your hips slowly down against his. His fingers dug into your waist, then loosened again, trembling with the effort.
“It’s my choice,” you said firmly. “You’re mine for this one night. Unless you tell me you don’t want it.”
Gwayne swallowed hard but didn’t say anything.
“I take it for a yes,” you smiled and started to pull your dress over your head.
You let your fingers trail the hem of his breeches.
The moment you pulled him out, your noble knight almost stopped breathing. He was beautiful, hard and flushed, a vein running along the underside from base to the flushed tip.
You wrapped your hand around him slowly, stroking once from base to tip with a feather-light touch and Gwayne’s chest started to rise and fell rapidly, his hands fisting the sheets.
You stroked him a few more times, gliding your thumb over the sensitive head, drawing beautiful broken whimpers from him.
His hands settled lightly on your thighs, fingers trembling. He didn’t guide or rush you. He simply held on, as if touching you was the only thing keeping him from shattering.
You shifted higher on your knees, Gwayne’s gaze snapped back to yours, pupils blown wide.
“Are you sure?” he rasped. You silenced him by sinking down onto him, slowly, unhurriedly, savoring every inch. Gwayne’s head fell back with a broken moan, hands clutching at your thighs.
You stayed still for a moment, savoring the way he pulsed inside you, then you began to move. Slow rolls of your hips, rising and sinking down on him again and again.
You loved every desperate sound your movements drew from him: the soft, needy moans, the sharp gasps and pleas he couldn’t seem to stop.
Your proud, noble knight was completely unraveling beneath your touch. The flush on his cheeks, the way his eyes fluttered half-shut with every roll of your hips, the broken sounds he couldn’t hold back… you loved it. You loved it more than you could ever admit.
His hips started to buck up to meet you, sharp needy thrusts that almost knocked the air out of your lungs. You stemmed your feet against the bed and rode him harder, faster, grinding down, chasing your pleasure shamelessly.
Gwayne’s back arched clean off the bed with a strangled moan, one hand flying up to clutch at your waist as he kept moving against you.
“Good boy,” you moaned, leaning down and capturing his mouth in a messy kiss.
The praise hit him like a spark to dry tinder. Gwayne whimpered into your mouth, the sound raw and needy, his tongue sliding against yours in urgent sloppy strokes.
His fingers dug into your waist as he flipped you over like you weighed nothing.
“Say it again,” he gasped, voice wrecked and pleading, hips slamming against yours in almost desperate rhythm. “Please…, I need to hear it.”
You moaned beneath him, nails raking down his back, as the new angle sent sparks of pleasure shooting through every nerve.
“My good boy,” you breathed against his lips. “My perfect knight.”
“Fuck me harder, knight!” you moaned and a low, broken groan rumbled from Gwayne’s chest, his hips stuttered, rhythm faltering before he managed to get the hold of it and started driving into you with deeper, more powerful thrusts.
It didn’t take long, a broken sob of pleasure tore from you as you shattered, back arching against the bed. He kept fucking you through it, arms wrapped around you, holding you close. The tenderness never left him even as moments after he came, gasping, shuddering, groaning hoarsely against your neck.
The night passed in quiet whispers and lingering touches. Neither of you spoke much, there seemed little point.
Words belonged to tomorrow, tonight belonged only to the two of you.
Gwayne held you as though he feared the dawn, you rested against him, listening to the steady rhythm of his heartbeat beneath your ear.
At some point during the night, when sleep still felt far away, Gwayne pressed his face into your hair.
"I never want to let you go."
The honesty of it was both beautiful and unbearable.
For a moment, you closed your eyes. Gods help you.
It would have been so easy to pretend, to let yourself believe impossible things, that the war did not exist, that he could stay or that you could follow.
Instead, you reached up and brushed your fingers through his hair.
"This was my parting gift, Gwayne."
You felt him go still and the silence that followed hurt more than any argument could have.
His arms tightened around you again.
"You could come with me."
"And go where?"
He did not reply.
You shook your head.
"You belong to your world and I belong to mine."
His breathing grew uneven, but he didn’t say anything.
Morning arrived far too quickly, by sunrise you slipped out of bed.
“It’s time,” you whispered. He didn’t answer.
A moment later Gwayne stood fully dressed beside the door, his sword at his hip.
The sight felt wrong.
Neither of you seemed able to find the right words, but in the end, it was you who broke the silence.
"You should go."
Gwayne looked at you, eyes moving over your face.
He took a step toward you, then stopped and nodded once. A small, broken gesture before turning and walking out the door.
You remained where you were, arms folded tightly across your chest.
The path disappeared between the trees a short distance from the hut.
Gwayne reached it and stopped.
Your heart betrayed you immediately.
For one terrible second, hope surged through your chest.
He turned around.
Even from there, you could see the question in his eyes.
Come with me.
Stay.
Choose differently.
Slowly, you shook your head.
No.
His eyes closed briefly, then he turned and continued down the path.
You watched until the trees swallowed him completely, only then did you allow yourself to sit down.
You did not see the tears that finally slipped down Gwayne's face once he was safely hidden by the forest.
And he never saw yours.
Years passed. The realm endured.
A fragile peace settled across the land, uncertain and imperfect, yet peace nonetheless.
Life continued.
The little hut remained where it had always been, tucked against the edge of the forest, the herb garden had grown larger, the roof needed repairing twice.
The ache had softened with time and become something quieter, a fond memory tucked carefully away, a story belonging to another life.
The afternoon sun was warm against your skin as you sat outside sorting herbs into neat bundles.
Your hands moved automatically, the work was familiar enough that your mind could drift elsewhere – toward a broad-shouldered knight with kind eyes and a talent for burning bread.
You paused, a stem of lavender still between your fingers as you couldn't shake a feeling of being watched.
Slowly, you lifted your head, the forest stood silent. Nothing there. You shook your head at your own foolishness yet looked up again.
A movement caught your eye. A figure was standing at the edge of the woods, far enough away that another person might not have recognized him.
You did. Immediately.
Not because he looked unchanged, time had touched him, as it touched everyone, yet you would have known him anywhere.
A soft smile appeared on your lips before you could stop it.
The figure remained motionless for a heartbeat longer, as though he needed a moment to convince himself you were real.
Then Ser Gwayne Hightower began walking toward the hut, and with each step he made, you found yourself smiling a little wider.
Authors note: I don't really know what this is. I just woke up horny and decided to make it your problem. It's just me dreaming about being Baelor's wife🤷
Summary/Warnings: plot? never heard of it. Just SMUT 18+ with some pinches of fluff. established relationship, p in v, oral, breeding kink if you squint, truly it's just a girls wet dream and boy do I want that old man fuck me senseless in all the possible ways. Bealor really loves his wife by the way and I think he needs a daughter, so I gave him one. Not proofread, we die like true knights
Word Count: 1,3 K
You want him. You always do. When it comes to your husband you’re a little greedy minx, a whore and not a breath of a lady. Prince Baelor Targaryen is your dream man and you love everything about him.
You love his silver threaded beard, how it scrapes so deliciously the tender skin of your thighs. You love his long fingers and how they stretch you open and curl into that sweet spot inside you that makes you see stars almost instantly.
You love how big he is. Not the ‘oh, he’s big” wide eyed gasp of a virgin on the wedding night. No, it’s the breath knocked out of your lungs and your insides rearranged every time he fucks you even after years of marriage.
You love being fucked fast and hard, bent over his writing desk after a long day of frustrations and petty disputes. Dress hiked up, panties down, legs spread wide, fingers gripping the edge of the desk as every thrust shoves you harder against it, the sharp slap of his heavy palm against your ass echoing through the room.
"Harder," you moan, and the groan from behind tells you he's unraveling just as much as you are.
You love how he kisses your throat afterwards, how his hands trail your back in featherlight strokes, as he pants into the crook of your neck, thanking you over and over again for letting him have you like this. He knows he doesn’t need to, he knows you would let him do anything he wanted with you.
You love the lazy lovemaking in the mornings when he doesn’t have any pressing duties that would call him away and you wake up with his cock insistently nudging your entrance.
“Schhh… my love,” he whispers and drags the head through your slick folds. Your body recognizes him even before your mind does and you are already dripping wet. “Relax, let me take care of my queen,” he rasps into your ear and slowly, patiently works himself deeper.
His warm calloused palm kneads your breasts and you can’t but arch back into him as he slowly starts to move.
You love how your absolute gentlemen of a husband, kind and soft spoken, who never forgets to pull your chair back for you to get seated, who has never let a servant help you dismount your horse, as it’s his job to keep his bellowed wife safe, who kisses your hand dozen times a day just because he loves to show everybody how much he loves you, whispers pure filth in your ear as he pounds into you, telling you how tight you feel, how perfectly you take him, what a good girl you are for him.
The rhythmic slap of skin on skin and the sticky wet sound of his cock sliding in and out of you mixed with his panting breath are like music to your ears.
You love when he returns from council meetings, tense and frustrated. He just drags a hand over his face and groans but you are already on your knees. You free his cock from his breeches, already hard and throbbing, and take him into your mouth without a word.
You love the taste of his cock on your tongue, you love to watch his handsome, precious face contort in pleasure as he bucks his hips forward, fucking into your mouth. You love the taste of him, salty, musky, all man, and when he comes, flooding your mouth, you swallow every drop, then lick him clean while he praises you in broken breaths.
The gods know you love traveling with him, but even more, you cherish greeting him upon his return from those long rides to the borders. You love the tiny creases that form around his eyes when he smiles the instant he sees you. Wrapping your arms around his strong shoulders, you whisper, "I missed you," in his ear, feeling him melt beneath your touch. You know he has missed you too and the moment the doors of your chambers fall shut your back hits the wood and he’s on his knees before you, your leg pushed up on his shoulder. He eats you out like a man starved, licking, sucking, fucking you with his tongue till your thigs tremble and your knees threaten to buckle in.
And sometimes, when he returns late at night and you're already asleep, you feel the mattress dip as he slides closer. His arms encircle you, pulling you flush against him as he breathes you in.
"Please, put it in," you whine, half-asleep. "I want to feel you."
You drift off again with his cock buried deep inside, dreaming of how he'll fuck you in the morning, how he will make up for every night you have spent apart, how many times he will make you come on his tongue and his fingers first before giving you his cock.
You love to tease him mercilessly, straddling his lap you grind your soaked pussy against his length, coating him in your arousal. "Beg for it," you whisper, nipping at his ear, and he does, your noble prince, reduced to pleas, bucks his hips helplessly, chasing your heat and begs you to let him fuck you. You sink down slowly until he's buried to the hilt and then you ride him hard, bouncing on his cock, your breasts heaving as his hands roam your body, pinching your nipples, slapping your ass until it's red and stinging. The room fills with your shared gasps, the slick sounds of your bodies joining, and when you clench around him in climax, he flips you beneath him and pounds you into the mattress, chasing his own release.
"I want you to give me a girl," he whispers as he comes deep inside you, filling you with his seed like it's still your wedding night. "A small wonder just like you, with bright eyes and a smile that crumbles me every time."
And when he speaks like this your peak hits you hundred times harder, crashing over you till you’re clamping down, spazming around him, milking every single drop of him.
You love the feeling of him leaking out of you, as he keeps fucking you through it, his eyes dark with need and desire. He stills for a moment, but the sight of you spread out before him like this with his cum gushing down your thighs, head thrown back, jaw slack and eyes rolling back in your head in bliss makes him instantly hard again.
His head drops down in the crook of your neck and he whispers I’m sorry my love, but I can’t get enough of you as he resumes rolling his hips into yours. His mouth is on yours swallowing your moans and whimpers.
You're overstimulated, pliant, boneless and utterly fucked-out mess, but the moment his fingers find your pearl, the moment he ruts back into you, all that escapes your lips are broken chants of yes, yes, yes, more, please give me more until you come again and again, until you’re so full of him you feel bloated.
And when you finally give him what he so desires, when the small, screeching bundle is placed into his arms, his daughter, his little beautiful girl, you see his eyes go bright and wet as he kisses gently the tiny, fragile hand, the small wonder you have given him.
Thank you, thank you, he can’t stop whispering in the crook of your neck and you hear him sniffle. Is your prince really crying?
And when after a while he gently reaches for you and murmurs – I want more little wonders – you know you will be giving them to him.
Because with him, you're never sated, you're always aching, always ready. You are a whore for your prince and you’re proud of it.
Pairing: Gwayne Hightower x fem!reader
Authors note: June Jukebox Scribbles event
June 24th - Groove Is In The Heart - Deee-Lite / “No, I couldn't ask for another”
Warnings: none
Word Count: 428
Summary: Everyone thinks Ser Gwayne Hightower has chosen the wrong sister
EVENT MASTERLIST
You had made your peace with it long ago.
The Sept would not be the worst place in the world. Maybe it was even better so. It was more than many third daughters received.
Your elder sisters would marry. Diana had golden curls and a laugh that charmed every visitor. Ellyn possessed graceful features and a talent for music.
You had neither.
So when the servants began racing through the halls and cries of "Hightower banners!" echoed through the keep, you felt no excitement.
"You are not coming downstairs," Diana informed you. "You will only embarrass us."
Ellyn nodded and before you could protest, they pushed you inside your room and turned the key.
You sat on the window seat, staring at the distant fields as the shouting and footsteps came.
The door flew inward and you jumped to your feet.
A young knight stood in the doorway, tall and broad-shouldered, a silver tower sewn upon his doublet, handsome enough to belong in a song.
Behind him stumbled your father, red-faced and breathless.
"Ser Gwayne, please," he said. "There has been some misunderstanding."
Gwayne was already crossing the room and dropping to one knee before you, looking up at you as though you were the most beautiful thing he had ever seen.
"My lady," he said, voice slightly shivering with nervousness. "I have come to ask for your hand."
You looked down at him. You knew that face. But from where?
A distant memory emerged.
A year ago, the road south of your father's lands, a man laying beside it. Young, bloodied, face streaked with mud.
"A robber," Diana had declared at once.
"Or a drunkard," Ellyn agreed.
"Leave him."
The stranger had struggled weakly to rise before collapsing again as you climbed down from your horse.
You had knelt beside him and uncorked your waterskin.
"Can you drink?"
Beautiful blue eyes had blinked open.
You had held the waterskin to his lips while he drank.
When he tried to thank you, the words had dissolved into a cough.
"Do not speak," you had told him.
Then you had risen and turned to the servants.
"Take him to the next village."
"My lady," one had protested, "we do not even know who he is."
"Someone's son,” was your answer, and nobody dared to argue anymore.
You had never learned his name. Never expected to.
Your father made a strangled sound.
"Ser, you must be mistaken. You are certainly mixing up my daughters. May I introduce you to Lady Diana?"
"No," he said softly. "I couldn't ask for another."
Pairing: Gwayne Hightower x fem!reader
Authors note: June Jukebox Scribbles event.
June 22nd – Wonderwall - Oasis / “You're gonna be the one that saves me”
Dividers by @cafekitsune
Warnings: none
Word Count: 390
Summary: Gwayne is a sweetie and a gentlemen
EVENT MASTERLIST
The camp was quiet. Many of the men were drunk, but there was no real laughter, no boisterous songs drifting between the tents, just the heaviness of exhaustion and fading patience.
You kept your head down.
That had always been the safest thing to do.
You had hesitated for weeks before coming, but coin had become scarce, and armies were always in need of healers.
A rough hand suddenly closed around your wrist.
"There you are."
"Let me go," you hissed, twisting against the iron grip.
He laughed and it made your stomach turn as panic slid cold beneath your skin, you dug your heels into the dirt, but he barely slowed.
"Release her."
The command cut through the darkness and the soldier stopped just as a figure stepped from the shadows between two tents with one hand resting loosely on the pommel of his sword.
The soldier's expression changed as recognition flickered across his face, his grip loosened and a heartbeat later he released you and disappeared into the maze of tents, muttering curses beneath his breath.
You rubbed your wrist where his fingers had dug into your skin.
"My lady."
The stranger inclined his head in a small bow.
"Ser Gwayne Hightower, at your service."
You blinked.
"Ser?" you repeated, unable to hide your disbelief.
"This way, please."
You blinked and followed until he stopped before a tent.
Of course. How could you be so stupid.
You knew how camps worked.
You knew how men worked.
You made a step back but a firm hand caught your wrist.
“It’s late. It’s not safe for you to walk around the camp at this time.”
Before you managed to say something you were already pulled into the tent.
"You may sleep there," he said, pointing to the bed.
You stared.
"And where will you sleep?"
He gestured toward the entrance.
"There."
You watched him in confusion.
The realization seemed to strike him a moment later as his face reddened slightly.
He took your hand.
You froze.
Instead of pulling you closer, he simply bowed his head and pressed a brief kiss against your knuckles.
"Rest well."
Then he let go.
"Why?" you finally asked and studied him for a long moment.
"Who knows," he said softly and smiled at you. "Maybe one day, you're gonna be the one that saves me."
Authors note: based on this request. Thank you, dear Anon, for this awesome request! I had so much fun writing this, so much that I got completely carried away🙈
Warnings: fluff, angst, SMUT 18+ I really went all in with this one 😅. Canon typical violence, mention of blood and wounds, Bucky’s taking quite a few knocks. Mention of male masturbation, oral (f receiving), p in v. Sunshine reader and Bucky being total Winter Grouch at the beginning, completely lost in his feelings and self-doubt. It's quite a ride and the cherry on the cake comes at the end 😅 Set in the after Thunderbolts timeline
Word Count: 17 K ( I know and I'm sorry 😓)
Summary: Bucky had fallen for you from the first sight, but kept his distance for months, telling himself it was safer that way, until the day Hydra took you, and the choice wasn’t his or yours anymore. Some deals are made knowing they’ll break you.
The jet landed with a metallic shudder, its hydraulics hissing as the ramp descended and exhaust curled into the cool evening air. You were already waiting, standing at the base of the landing pad with your med bag in one hand and a clipboard in the other.
Another completed mission, another set of bruises and egos to tend.
Yelena was the first off the jet, smirking despite the tear in her sleeve and the dried blood on her temple.
"It was just a tiny explosion," she was saying over her shoulder.
“Tiny?” Alexei grumbled behind her. “Then why did you have to use me as a shield?”
He stomped down the ramp with his usual flair, arms spread like a war hero returning from glorious battle, except he was covered in soot, and one of his boots was clearly cracked at the joint, barely clinging to his foot, threatening to give up with the next step. His suit was dusty, torn in at least three places, and he had a cut just above his brow that had left a streak of blood drying down his cheek.
Still, he was grinning.
“Ah! Little one!” he beamed when he spotted you, gesturing broadly. “I took the brunt of it! Protected the children!” He nodded backward toward the others. “You should have seen it! Fire everywhere, rubble falling, and me, holding up half the building!”
“You also tripped over your own foot and fell into a table,” Yelena added as she walked past, deadpan.
Alexei ignored her.
You smiled warmly as he approached, already reaching for a cloth to gently dab at the blood on his face.
“You’re lucky you’re made of bricks, Alexei,” you said softly, scanning him for more injuries. “Looks like you took more than a few hits.”
He puffed out his chest. “Yes, but look! Still standing. Still beautiful.”
You laughed under your breath, cleaning the cut with careful fingers. “Mostly beautiful. Though I think your nose might be crooked again.”
He gasped theatrically. “No! Not the nose! How will I charm the nurses now?”
“You’re in luck,” you said sweetly, patting his arm. “We’re immune to your charms but I still want you in the med bay, please. Let’s get that arm checked out and your ribs, too. You're favoring one side.”
He let out a dramatic sigh. “Anything for you, solnyshko.” His grin widened as he winked his eye at you. “You patch me up, I’ll tell you all about how I saved everyone. Twice.”
“Deal,” you said with a smile, stepping aside so he could follow the others down the hallway.
You shook your head, watching him lumber off, humming cheerfully, even bruised and dusty, Alexei was still a big child beneath all that bluster.
While Alexei disappeared down the hallway, already beginning his dramatized retelling to a passing tech, gesturing wildly with his good arm, you turned back toward the jet, just in time to see Ava stepping off the ramp with a quiet grunt, one arm wrapped tightly around her middle, the other clutching the railing like it might float away. She moved gingerly, each step measured, the pain clear in her posture, even if she was doing a great job of pretending otherwise.
Your eyes narrowed.
“Ava,” you called gently, jogging a few steps closer, “you’re limping.”
“I’m fine,” she said, her voice was calm, too calm, and she didn’t look at you directly.
“You always say that when you're not,” you replied, already lifting your comm to your mouth. “Medbay, I need a wheelchair to Hangar One. Now, please.”
“I don’t need…”
“You do,” you said firmly but kindly, cutting her off with a smile. “I can see your ankle from here, and I think it’s trying to leave your foot.”
She huffed out a short laugh, shaking her head. “You’re so dramatic.”
“Says the woman who just fell through a collapsing stairwell and landed like a superhero with a pulled ribcage and a twisted ankle. I heard the whole thing over comms, including the extremely creative swearing,” you smiled at her innocently.
That earned you a small smile in return.
The wheelchair arrived within a minute, pushed by a medtech who looked vaguely terrified of Ava. You gently coaxed her down into the seat, ignoring her muttered protests, as you squat beside her to check the swelling at her ankle.
“It’s already puffing up,” you murmured. “We’ll need x-rays, just to be safe.”
She sighed, clearly embarrassed. “I was trying to phase through the floor to break the fall.”
“And you phased into a fridge instead, didn’t you?”
“I... may have misjudged time and space a little bit.”
“Mm-hmm,” you said, fighting a smile as you gave her knee a gentle pat.
“Please don’t make a big deal out of it.”
“I would never,” you said sweetly, then added with mock seriousness, “but I will offer you a deal. No disappearing in radiology this time, okay?”
Ava blinked. “I was nervous last time. I didn’t mean to vanish.”
“You ghosted the technician mid-scan. She still talks about it.”
“That’s not my fault,” she muttered, cheeks pinking.
“Let’s just keep you visible until we get a diagnosis, yeah?” you said with a wink, tapping the edge of the wheelchair lightly.
Ava sighed again, but her mouth twitched like she was fighting a smile. “Fine. Only because it’s you.”
You smiled warmly in return.
As Ava disappeared down the hall, and not literally this time, you turned to find Yelena leaning against a supply crate like she’d been waiting for her moment.
“I didn’t get so much as a hello,” she said with mock offense, arms crossed, a faint smirk playing on her lips. “And I only got half blown up.”
You let out a soft laugh, walking over to her and gently brushing away a bit of ash clinging to her sleeve.
“I saw the blood on your temple. You sure you’re okay?” you asked, your voice already laced with quiet concern.
She shrugged. “Tiny cut. I’ve had worse hangovers.”
You gave her an approving once-over anyway, just to be sure. “Well, you still look good.”
Yelena grinned. “I know.”
Behind her, John Walker strode over, looking smug and sore in equal measure as he adjusted his shoulder strap with a wince, then paused beside the two of you.
“I don’t need patching up,” he said immediately, like it was a point of pride.
You raised a brow. “That’s why you’re walking like your spine was replaced with rusted springs?”
“I’m just sore. That wall came out of nowhere.”
Yelena snorted. “Walls do that, don’t they? Sneaky things.”
You offered him a friendly smile. “Glad to hear you’re unbreakable. Still, I’ve got an ice pack with your name on it, just in case that ‘soreness’ turns out to be something pulled.”
John chuckled and held up his hands. “No need, Nurse Sunshine, but thanks for the concern.”
Yelena’s smirk deepened. “How do you do this? Even the Boy Scout over here likes you.”
“I don’t like her,” John protested weakly, then glanced at you. “I mean, I do. You’re nice. Just… not like that.”
“I’m flattered either way,” you replied with an easy laugh, the warmth in your voice never faltering.
Yelena gave you a fond little nudge on her way past. “Don’t let the Winter Grouch give you trouble,” she murmured. “He’s bleeding and brooding. Prime Bucky mood.”
“Noted,” you whispered, drawing in a deep breath as you prepared to turn and face the inevitable but Yelena caught the subtle shift in your mood and paused.
She tilted her head, studying you with that sharp, perceptive gaze of hers. “Hey, you’re smiling,” she said, “but you’ve got that look.”
“What look?” you asked lightly, fiddling with the strap of your med bag.
“The one you get when someone’s been a jackass to you and you’re pretending it doesn’t bother you.”
Your smile wavered for just a second. “It’s nothing. I just… sometimes feel like I’m in the way. Like I’m being annoying. I know they’re all tired and hurt and don’t want someone hovering but I’m just simply here to help.”
Yelena frowned. “You are not a nuisance.”
You blinked.
“I mean it,” she added, stepping closer. “You walk into the room, and it actually feels lighter. We’d all be dead or grumpier without you and Bucky’s just... well, you know. Bucky. Don’t take him seriously.”
A soft laugh bubbled out of you. “Bukcy grumpier than he already is? That’s a terrifying thought.”
“Exactly, so do your thing, patch us up! Smile at us. Fuss over us. We need it, even when we pretend we don’t.”
You looked at her, clearly touched by the sincerity in her tone. “Thanks, Lena,” you murmured with a smile.
She gave you a quick, awkward shrug and started backing away. “Don’t get weird about it.”
“I won’t,” you teased, eyes shining. “I’ll just journal about it later.”
“Ugh,” she groaned, shaking her head as she walked off, leaving you alone in the almost empty hangar. Almost.
You knew he was still there, watching from just out of sight in the shadow, hoping that you might forget him and leave.
You didn’t need to look to know where he was – slightly to the left of the jet, behind one of the grounded transports, where the shadows ran deepest. You sighed, so this time it was the hide and seek tactic.
He had a whole repertoire of avoidance tactics by now. He’d beeline for the far exit the second the ramp dropped, trying to slip past you in the blur of disembarkment. He’d stride with a confident grimace on his face as if late for something important, trying to hide the limp in gait and muttering ‘I’m good’ without meeting your eyes, hoping you'd be too busy to stop him. Once, he barked at the mechanical crew about malfunctioning weapons so loudly it echoed through the entire hangar, like this could distract you from seeing his dislocated shoulder.
He’d timed more than a few disappearing acts to the exact moment you were wrapping gauze around someone else’s arm, his absence marked only by a faint smear of blood on the floor.
The thing was: none of those tactics had ever fully worked.
You almost always caught him, not because you were fast, but because you were constant. You didn’t chase; you simply watched, patient and unwavering, and somehow ended up beside him just when he thought he’d shaken you off. And every single time, it ended the same way: a grumpy exchange, his voice clipped and curt, your smile trying its best to stay steady… and then him following you to the med bay with all the warmth of a snowstorm.
And today was not going to be an exception.
You took a deep breath, adjusted your med bag on your shoulder, and started walking toward him, calm, unhurried, like this was the most natural thing in the world, because it was, because he was hurt, and even if he didn’t want kindness, he still needed care.
“I can see you, you know,” you said gently as you rounded the transport.
Bucky didn’t move, he stood with his back to you, one hand braced against the metal side of the jet, the other pressed to the steadily bleeding wound on his side, his dark hair was damp with sweat, a smear of grime streaked across his cheekbone – a man made of iron and exhaustion.
“I’m not in the mood for lectures,” he muttered.
You smiled softly, stepping closer. “Lucky for you, I don’t give them.”
“I’m fine,” he grunted trying to pass you by, but the dark smear of red spreading across his t-shirt just beneath his arm was hard to ignore and in addition to that he was walking a little too stiffly, jaw tight.
“No, you’re not.”
You quickened your pace and managed to step in front of him, blocking his path before he could make it to the elevator. You tilted your head up to meet his eyes, those sharp, tired eyes, and gestured toward the wet patch on his side.
“You’re bleeding,” you said, trying to keep your voice even.
“I’ve had worse, they all heal,” he muttered, barely meeting your gaze.
“That doesn’t make this one any less important.”
He exhaled like you were the most exhausting person alive. “Go patch up someone who actually needs it.”
You just gave him another warm smile, the one that always got under his skin, the one that said I’m not going anywhere, Barnes.
“Oh, I am,” you said. “You.”
He gave you a look that could freeze lava. “I said I’m fine.”
“Let me look,” you asked quietly. “Just look.”
He finally turned his head toward you, and for a moment, something flickered in his eyes, something raw, cornered, tired and angry.
“Why do you always do this?” he snapped. “Why can’t you just leave it?”
The words weren’t loud, but they hit harder than they should have, you swallowed, keeping your expression steady and your voice gentle.
“Because you’re bleeding, Bucky, because it’s my job, and because I care.”
He winced.
“Come to the medbay,” you said, nodding toward the corridor behind you. “Please, let me help.”
He stared at you like he didn’t understand why you were making such a fuss about it, but eventually, wordlessly, he started slowly moving in the right direction.
You walked in silence, a careful distance between your shoulder and his, not too close, never too close. He didn’t like that, or maybe he didn’t like you, and the thought of your arm accidentally brushing his was too much. You weren’t sure.
You used to tell yourself he was like this with everyone and to a certain point that was true, Bucky Barnes didn’t exactly ooze warmth with the rest of the team either, but somehow… somehow it felt different with you - colder and sharper.
At first, you thought it was just because you were new. People like him took time to open up, to let others into their world but time passed, it was six months now, and nothing had changed or maybe it had, maybe it had gotten worse.
You tried not to dwell on it, but your brain kept cataloging every moment he flinched away from your touch, every time he refused to look you in the eye when you smiled, every muttered “I didn’t ask you,” or clipped “Just don’t talk”, and you tried, you really, really tried to let it slide off your back, to tell yourself it wasn’t personal.
But it felt personal, because you didn’t just care about him as a medic, or even as a teammate. You liked him, even more than that.
There was something steady in him, something tired, yes, angry and closed-off and jagged, but steady and kind, in these brief, flickering moments that he seemed to hate himself for.
You saw that, you felt it, and you liked him, quietly, fiercely, which made the way he shut you out all the harder to swallow.
You wanted to believe he didn’t actually hate you, that it wasn’t your voice or your warmth that irritated him, but something else, some fear or scar you weren’t meant to understand. And yet, every time he pulled away or acted like you were unbearable, it left a bruise in a spot no bandage could reach.
You glanced over at him as you reached the hallway leading to the med bay. He was walking stiffly, blood still blooming through his shirt, jaw clenched like stone, as if he were headed for an interrogation room, not a place meant to help him heal.
He very obviously didn’t want to be here, not with you.
You swallowed hard against the familiar ache in your throat and forced on that small, professional smile, the one you’d worn too many times before.
Don’t take it personally… don’t make it anything… just do your job.
Because if he really did hate you for whatever inexplicable reason… you didn’t think you wanted to know.
The med bay was quiet, even Alexei’s booming voice was absent, which could only mean one thing: everyone else had already been checked, patched up, and cleared. This time, the injuries hadn’t been serious.
You set your bag down and pulled on a pair of gloves, while behind you, Bucky hovered just inside the doorway, tense as a loaded spring.
“You can take the cot,” you said softly, nodding to the padded bench where you treated most of the team.
He hesitated, as if the simple act of sitting felt like surrender but eventually, without another word, he crossed the room and lowered himself stiffly onto the edge.
You pulled out gauze, saline, antiseptic, scissors.
Bucky flinched slightly at the sound of the tray rattling into place, but his face stayed neutral and cold, just as usual.
“I’ll start with your arm,” you offered gently. “Then I’ll take a look at your side.”
“There’s nothing wrong with my side.”
You glanced up, his jaw was locked, lips pressed into a thin line and his vibranium fingers flexed against his thigh.
You kept your tone warm and steady. “You’re still bleeding, Bucky.”
“It’s not deep.”
“It’s bleeding through your shirt.”
“It’ll stop.”
You swallowed and carefully seated yourself in front of him to reach his arm, gently taking his flesh wrist to begin cleaning the cut that ran jaggedly along his forearm. You worked in silence for a few seconds, watching the way his muscles stayed coiled under your touch like he was resisting the urge to bolt. It was nothing new, he always did.
You spoke softly, eyes still on your work.
“I need to check the wound on your side.”
“You don’t.”
“I do.”
His voice sharpened. “Don’t push this.”
“I’m not pushing,” you said, meeting his eyes. “I just… I care if something’s wrong and it is.”
Something flickered in his expression – not quite anger, not quite fear, you couldn’t name it.
“Let me help you to pull it off,” you offered and reached for the hem of his T-shirt.
“I can handle it,” he muttered, already shifting, fingers hooking the edge of his tattered black T-shirt. “You’ll see it’s nothing.”
You leaned back slightly, watching as he tried to pull the shirt over his head, his breath hitched mid-motion, a soft sound of pain escaping before he could swallow it down, while the fabric stuck to his side where the blood had dried, tugging at the skin.
You stepped forward quickly. “Wait, don’t hurt yourself more. Let me…”
“No.”
His tone was harsh as he shoved your hand away, his arm still raised, shirt half-bunched around his ribs, every line of his body stiff and defensive.
You froze, a beat passed, then another.
“Bucky, I just want to help you,” you said, desperately trying to bite back tears that threatened to well up in the corners of your eyes.
He didn’t move, but didn’t say anything either, so you reached for the scissors on the tray, holding them up between you, giving him time to see and react if needed.
“I’ll be careful.”
Another silence.
Then, finally, a barely audible: “Fine.”
You moved close again, as you gently slid the cold edge of the scissors beneath the hem of his shirt. You felt, rather than saw, the way he tensed, the shallow rise and fall of his chest, the unsteady rhythm of his breathing.
The sound of the scissors snipping through fabric seemed too loud, too sharp. Bucky kept his eyes locked on the wall across, teeth grinding together to keep anything else from slipping out. You worked in silence, peeling the shredded, blood-soaked shirt from his body piece by piece, the fabric clinging to the wound at his side, warm and wet and sticking.
He hated this. Every second of it.
Hated the way the air touched his skin, hated the way he could feel your eyes taking him in, even if they were just scanning for damage, hated the way he sat there like a goddamn puzzle you had to piece back together again, like he couldn’t even take care of himself, couldn’t manage that on his own.
He would rather charge into enemy fire than sit here under your hands and let you see him, let you see all of it - the battered, bruised chest, the old lacerations across his ribs, the jagged web of scar tissue where his shoulder ended in steel.
It was disgusting, he knew it was, he saw it in the mirror when he dared to look, saw it in the way people hesitated when their eyes caught on the place where man became machine.
He waited for that from you, waited for the breath that hitched too long, for your fingers to still, for the quiet, involuntary reaction you didn’t mean to give because no matter how warm your smile was, no one wanted to look at this.
And God help him, he didn’t want you to.
He could’ve taken it from anyone else, from a stranger, a medic without a face or a voice but not you, not when he’d spent months trying to build walls between himself and the unbearable ache of wanting you that was driving him mad every single day.
Because if things were different – in another world, another life, he still dared to dream of from time to time – you wouldn’t be tending to him like this, you’d be touching him differently.
He’d feel your delicate fingers splayed across his stomach, slow and teasing, tracing lazy patterns over his skin just to hear him groan.
You’d climb onto his lap in soft cotton sleepwear, fingers curling into his hair, lips brushing his ear and he’d have your legs around his waist, your nails digging crescents into his shoulders as he rocked into you slow and deep, swallowing every whimper and every sigh from your perfect, plush lips.
And maybe, maybe there’d be mornings where you’d wake him with kisses against his jaw, sliding under the sheets to trail your mouth lower, lower, until he was gasping your name and fisting the sheets, your voice humming sweet praise against his skin as you ruined him with nothing but your mouth and that sunshine-soft devotion in your eyes.
In another life, he’d earn the sound of you falling apart underneath him and he’d memorize it, worship it. But in this life?
He was just a grumpy, half-broken supersoldier bleeding on your floor again, a silent burden with a history no one wanted and a body no one could love, something to fix and release, stitch and forget.
He flinched when your fingers brushed the raw edges of the gash on his side.
“Sorry,” you whispered.
He didn’t respond.
Couldn’t.
He hadn’t stood a chance.
Not from the very beginning, not from the first moment you stepped into the med bay, bright-eyed and steady-handed, soft-spoken but somehow commanding the whole damn room without raising your voice once.
Warmth rolled off of you like sunlight through glass, not the loud kind, not the fake, performative shit that cracked when it was tested. You were real, you were constant, you remembered names, remembered birthdays, brought people coffee the way they liked it without asking.
They’d started calling you “Sunshine” within a week, even Alexei, loud and blunt and impossible to embarrass, had switched to calling you solnyshko in his thick Russian accent, like it was second nature.
And Bucky?
He’d been gone for you the moment you touched him.
He remembered it too well. The first time he’d been sent to you: reluctant, annoyed, still bleeding from some rooftop mess in Prague with a shallow cut above his brow that wouldn't stop dripping into his eye. He expected antiseptic, cold metal tools, instructions barked without eye contact.
Instead, he got you.
Smiling up at him like he wasn’t some grim relic dropped into your workspace, you’d stepped close, murmured something about how the cut made him look very “stoic and tortured, like a brooding detective” and stood up on your tiptoes to reach him properly, steadying yourself with one palm on his chest, while pressing a patch to his brow.
Plaster, you’d joked, the strongest glue known to mankind, emotionally and medically.
Your breath had ghosted across his cheek, your fingers, so soft and casual, had brushed just under the line of his jaw and Bucky had gone hard so fast it made his stomach twist with panic. He’d stood there frozen, every muscle locked, fighting instinct with sheer will, horrified that you might glance down and notice the unmistakable bulge straining against his suddenly-too-tight pants.
And two hours later, drenched in sweat and halfway through beating a heavy bag to pulp in the training room, he still hadn’t shaken the feel of you off.
He tried, every day, tried to unsee you, to pretend that he didn’t care, to spook you away with ignorance, tried to forget the sound of your voice saying “you’re okay, I’ve got you” like it was true, like it could ever be true for him.
He tried to avoid being treated by you whenever he could. It was simply too much to bear, in some ways even worse than anything he’d endured in HYDRA’s basements. Having you so close, breathing against his skin, your touch light and careful… and not being able to touch you in return – it was torture of its own kind.
And now, with your fingers skimming the raw edges of his side, your face so close again, eyes filled with concern that couldn’t possibly be meant for him… he simply wanted to crawl out of his own skin.
Bucky shifted in his seat again, trying to breathe normally, trying to think, and the leather creaked beneath him, betraying every twitch of tension in his body.
You moved back to the tray beside him, picked up a syringe, and checked the vial like you always did.
“I’m going to give you a local,” you said softly. “Painkiller and a bit of anesthetic. Should take the edge off before I start stitching.”
“No.”
Your head lifted slightly, surprised by the sharpness of his tone but you didn’t flinch.
“Bucky…”
“I said no,” he snapped, eyes locked ahead, jaw grinding tight. “I don’t want anything in my system, not now, not ever. I can take it.”
You just nodded. “Alright,” you said. “Then I’ll be quick. Let me know if it’s too much.”
Too much.
It already was. Not the pain and not the gash.
You.
Your fingers were back on him a moment later, brushing near the edges of the wound, wiping away blood with sterile gauze. The contact was brief, barely pressure but it didn’t matter. It never did.
The moment your hand touched his skin, his body betrayed him.
Heat flushed beneath the surface, cruel and immediate, his breath caught in his throat and his cock throbbed helplessly in his tactical pants, already half-hard from the second you'd knelt in front of him to examine the wound earlier. Now it was worse, aching, twisting up beneath his belt, too present and impossible to ignore.
Fuck. No. Not again. Not here.
He shifted, subtly, or at least as subtle as he could manage with adrenaline roaring in his veins and you so close he could smell the hint of citrus from your tee on your lips.
You moved in closer to thread the needle, and his gaze dropped for a fraction of a second not by choice, but instinct, and there it was again: the way your lips parted slightly in focus, the way the curve of your jaw tilted just so, the shape of your fingers, the slope of your throat, the warmth radiating from you.
And all he could think, all he could fucking think right now, was what it would feel like to have you straddling his lap, your thighs tight around his waist, grinding down against the ache in his jeans while he held you steady by the hips. How would it feel to have your hands buried in his hair, tugging hard, needing him closer, needing more and him giving it to you, gladly, worshipfully, with a hunger he hadn’t let himself feel for anyone in years.
How he’d grab a fistful of your shirt, shove it up, bare your stomach and your breasts to his mouth and kiss his way down until you were shivering, hot and soft and completely at his mercy.
How you’d moan for him, sweet and desperate, head tipped back, your voice already wrecked from whispering his name like it was the only thing you could remember.
And when you’d finally start to sink down on him, taking him in inch by inch, deep and slow and ruinous, he’d hold your hips down and take his time, grinding slowly up into you until you were crying for him, clawing at his back, writhing under the need for him.
He wanted to hear you beg with voice cracking, breath stuttering, he wanted to see you come apart for him with tears in your lashes and his name spilling from your lips like prayer.
He’d mouth at your throat, your shoulder, sink his teeth into the delicate line of your collarbone just to hear how you’d whimper at the edge of pain, only to soothe it a second later with his tongue.
He wanted to know what kind of sounds you’d make for him, what kind of mess you’d become under his mouth, what it would be like to feel your smile against his skin while you writhed beneath him.
God, he’d give anything, anything just to know how you tasted.
He bit down hard on the inside of his cheek, trying to force his breathing even, trying to shut it all down.
There was no place for thoughts like that, not here, not now, not ever and not with you.
Not when he was a mess of scars and steel, and dark memories still keeping him awake at night, not when all you’d ever seen of him was what was broken.
He was a soldier, not a man, something salvaged and repurposed, not someone you would ever choose to touch unless it was necessary. Certainly not someone you’d ever moan for, arch for, someone you would want.
Bucky swallowed hard and tried to focus on the sting of the needle entering his skin, anything to keep the tension from turning visible.
Because if you noticed… if you so much as glanced down… if you knew that your fingers brushing his skin made his breath hitch not in pain, but in desperate, pulsing want.
If you knew that the way you leaned over him, the slope of your collarbone just inches from his mouth, had his thoughts unraveling into a mess of things he had no right to imagine.
If you knew that every time you smiled at him he wanted to drop to his knees and bury his face between your thighs and stay there until you forgot your own name.
If you knew even a small fraction of all that … he wasn’t sure he’d survive the humiliation.
The needle dragged through his skin, a sting, then a tug, again and again, your hands were steady as ever, moving with focus and care. You didn’t rush, you never did and he welcomed the pain, it was at least somewhat distracting.
At some point he must’ve shifted a little too sharply because you paused and looked up at him, brows knitting.
“You alright?” you asked softly. “Is it hurting too much?”
“I’m fine,” he said, too quickly, too sharp.
You kept your eyes on him, studying his face, and he swallowed hard, blinked once and looked away.
“I said I’m fine,” he rasped.
You returned to your work, lips pressed together, gaze dropping to the wound as you continued stitching in silence.
Bucky stayed still as stone, blood thundering through his veins, sweat prickling at the back of his neck, focused on the rhythm of your hands, the even glide of the needle, the way your fingertips ghosted over him as you wiped away the excess blood.
You were nearly done. Just one more stitch, just one more soft sweep of gauze to catch the last streak of blood, just one more whisper of your fingers along the edge of his ribs.
Bucky’s eyes flicked to you, just for a second, and out of a sudden it was simply too much. You were too close, eyes warm and full of that open-hearted care you gave everyone, but that somehow always wrecked him more than anything.
He could feel himself slipping, unraveling under your touch, under the heat of his own skin, under the pulse pounding between his legs and the ache twisting in his gut like punishment.
You moved slightly, reaching for the tape to dress the wound and your hip brushed his knee, barely, barely, but it felt like fire, and he snapped.
Before you could speak again, before you could even exhale, Bucky shot up from the cot like he’d been burned. The stool beneath you scraped across the floor as he moved, too fast, too rough, and his shoulder caught yours in a hard shove.
You stumbled back, shocked, almost tumbling from the stool.
“Bucky!”
He didn’t hear the rest, didn’t want to, he just bolted through the door and didn’t stop moving, didn’t dare to stop, because if he did, if he let even one more word sink in, he might’ve turned around and done something he couldn’t take back.
By the time he reached his quarters, his hands were shaking.
He slammed the door shut behind him with more force than necessary, rattling the frame, pressed his back to it and then just stood there, eyes squeezed shut, fists clenched at his sides, heart thundering against his ribs, blood rushing loud in his ears.
Everything was too much, no, you were too much and yet, all he wanted was to run back to you.
“Fuck,” he breathed, voice hoarse.
He was so hard, so painfully, furiously hard, his cock straining against the inside of his pants, the fabric already damp with precum, throbbing in time with his pulse like it was punishing him for letting you near him again..
It had never been this bad, it was unbearable.
He stumbled into his quarters and barely made it to the couch, fingers shaking as he fumbled with the zipper of his pants, nearly tearing it in the rush, as he slumped on it heavily, dragging his boxers down just enough to free himself, already slick, already leaking so hard it hurt.
His hand wrapped around himself, and he groaned, low, ragged, desperate, head falling back against the cushions. He squeezed tighter, trying to relieve the ache, but it only made the tension worse, the pressure coiling tighter in his gut.
He bit down on another desperate groan, and your name slipped past his lips before he could stop it.
"Fuck, Sunshine…"
Bucky hissed through his teeth, head tipped back, sweat beading at his temple, fisting his cock with rough, tight strokes, eyes clenched shut as image after image tore through his brain.
You on your knees between his thighs, looking up at him with that soft, open smile, your hands trailing up his legs, patient and warm. The sweet flutter of your lashes as you leaned in, the heat of your breath against the head of his cock, your lips wrapping around it, and the aching reverence in your eyes like you wanted him not because you were kind, not because you pitied him, but because you craved him.
You in his bed, flushed and gasping, sheets tangled around your waist as you rocked beneath him, saying his name in that same soft voice you used when stitching him up, only now it was broken by pleasure, by need. He’d have his hands on either side of your head, holding himself there, watching your eyes roll back and your face twist with each thrust, feeling you flutter around him, close, so fucking close.
You bent over the counter in his kitchen, your scrubs still on, pants pushed just low enough for him to take you, your hands braced against the tile, back arched, moaning like you belonged to him while he drove into you from behind, rough and deep, gripping your hips like they were the only thing keeping him sane.
He could practically hear the wet sound of his cock sliding in and out of you, your heart-shaped ass arching back into him, wiggling just right as his palm landed on one cheek with a sharp smack, your breathy curses spilling into the air, broken and desperate, the sweet, wrecked little “please” before his fingers slid between your thighs, rubbing slow, deliberate circles over your clit.
And then… you straddling him in the dark on the sofa, chest to chest, your arms around his neck, your mouth at his throat whispering, “You’re okay, I’ve got you.” Not because he needed saving, but because you meant it, because in this dream, you weren’t afraid of him, you held him tight, rode him slow, deep, grinding your hips down on him, needy moans, spilling over your lips as he came inside you, shaking and undone, filling you to the brim with his cum.
He jerked faster, harder, chasing it, chasing you, the dream of you, the one thing he would never have, not really, not the way he wanted.
Thick, hot ropes of cum painted his belly and hand, his grip still tight around his cock, milking out every last desperate pulse. His chest heaved with shallow, ragged breaths as he slumped back against the couch, utterly spent, his hand sticky and trembling, and looked down at the mess across his stomach. He scrubbed his metal hand over his face, dragging his fingers through his hair with a groan.
For the next few days, Bucky avoided you like his life depended on it. He disappeared before you entered a room, skipped mealtimes, changed his training hours, and if your footsteps echoed down a hallway, he took the nearest exit. It wasn’t subtle, and it certainly wasn’t kind, but it was the only way he knew to keep the need from consuming him every time he saw your face.
But he couldn’t avoid you forever, so when avoidance stopped being an option, whatever fragile balance had existed between you before suddenly to your surprise shattered into something far more painful.
Bucky had always been gruff, distant, unreadable, barbed around the edges. You could live with it, you had lived with it for months and never taken it personally. You kept telling yourself he was like that with everyone.
But now… it wasn’t just coldness anymore, it was something meaner, something much sharper.
Bucky wouldn’t even look at you when you walked into a room, wouldn’t speak unless he absolutely had to, and when he did, his words were clipped and flat, like they left a bitter taste in his mouth. The warmth you kept trying to offer, the soft smiles, the careful concern, were now met with eye rolls, snorts, and outright dismissal.
And you couldn’t understand why.
You played the conversations back in your head every night, quietly lying in bed long after the tower had gone still. Had you said something wrong? Had you touched a nerve you didn’t know existed? You weren’t pushy, you didn’t force your care on anyone, you just wanted to make sure he was okay, that he knew someone was looking out for him, even if he didn’t ask for it.
Especially because he didn’t ask for it.
And maybe that was the mistake.
But God, you couldn’t stop trying. Every small kindness was an attempt to bridge the gap, every careful word was another thread you cast across the distance he kept growing between you but it never landed.
Instead, it drove him further, every kindness seemed to piss him off more, like he couldn’t stand you caring, like your presence was some cruel trick he couldn’t figure out the punchline to.
Sometimes he glared at you like he wanted to shout, like he was choking on something he couldn’t say, and the only way to survive it was to shove you away as hard as he could.
And still… still, you stayed and kept wondering why on earth the man you had so stupidly fallen for was such a jackass towards you.
You’d never said it aloud, not to anyone, not even to yourself, but it was there, thick and painful in your chest every time he walked into the room, every time he stood too close, every time he looked at you like your love was a burden he hadn’t agreed to carry.
And that, more than anything, made your heart break in silence.
You tried to hide it, God, you tried, but lately, you were tired in a way you couldn’t patch not with excess of coffee and not with sleep, that had started to avoid you too. Your smiles wavered a little more often, your hands hesitated, and slowly you started to wonder if maybe he was right, maybe you were just hovering, just annoying, just… too much.
One morning, you’d brought fresh bandages down to the gym during training. You always did and everyone appreciated it.
Except him.
“We don’t need your charity,” Bucky had muttered as you knelt to check on Ava’s twisted wrist. “Don’t you have something better to do?”
Everyone had heard it.
John had cleared his throat loudly, muttering something like “Jesus, man” under his breath. Ava had looked away, clearly uncomfortable and Alexei had offered you a gentle, apologetic shrug before loudly demanding you to check his very serious (imaginary) injury instead.
Yelena had walked straight over and planted herself between you and Bucky, glaring up at him with a force only she could wield. “Say thank you,” she’d said flatly. “Now.”
But Bucky had just walked off, face like stone, jaw grinding as he pulled his sweatshirt over his head.
Later that day, you’d tried to bring him fresh ice packs after training, you hadn’t even said anything, just offered them quietly, gently, like you always did.
He hadn’t even looked up.
“Don’t hover,” he said, voice low and sharp. “I don’t need them.”
That one had cut deep.
You hadn’t answered, just turned and walked out, your chest hollow, the ice packs still clutched in your hand.
The others noticed, of course they did, and they did their best to soften it, to shield you where they could.
Ava stopped by the med bay more often, even when she didn’t need anything. John lingered longer during patch-ups, tossing you dumb jokes to make you smile, even Alexei, blunt and bumbling, started bringing you terrible coffee and terrible compliments in the mornings.
Nothing of it made the sting go away.
You kept doing your job, quietly, kindly, as if the person you’d fallen in love with wasn’t tearing you down piece by piece until the day he finally broke you.
It was during a briefing, the entire team gathered around the table, mid-discussion about the next mission. You were there to offer medical assessments, speak up when necessary. You always stood off to the side, out of the way.
Bucky had been tense from the start, pacing, arms crossed, clearly on edge, and then you’d made the mistake of speaking without being asked.
You had noticed that the structure they were infiltrating had weak points that might collapse under heavy stress and that the team should avoid the northwest stairwell if possible, because if that broke there would be no way medics could reach them.
You barely got the words out before his voice cut across the room like a whip.
“Oh, thank you, Sunshine,” Bucky said mockingly, turning toward you with a sneer. “I’m so glad we have a fucking ray of light here to tell us how to do our job. Maybe next time you can bring cookies to the field too. You know. For morale.”
The silence that followed was absolute.
No one breathed.
Your throat tightened, heat prickled behind your eyes, too fast, too sudden, you blinked quickly, trying to smile, trying to laugh it off, but your lip wobbled.
“Bucky…” John started, his tone edged in disbelief but it was too late.
You pressed a hand to your chest like it could hold the pieces of you in place, gave a soft, choked sound, and turned on your heel.
You left the room as fast as you could, but the tears were already falling before the door even hissed shut behind you.
Bucky just stood there with an annoyed expression on his face before turning around and leaving in fast strides.
Yelena stared at him in silence, then she moved, fast.
She caught up with him in the hallway as he stalked off, hands flexing at his sides like he didn’t know what to do with them.
“Hey,” she snapped, grabbing his arm and yanking him around. “What the fuck is wrong with you?”
“Back off, Yelena.”
Bucky yanked his arm free but didn’t move away, he didn’t answer either, didn’t even look at her.
She stepped in front of him, blocking his path. “No. No walking away from this. You’re gonna stand here and tell me what the hell you’re doing.”
“Leave it alone, Yelena,” he muttered.
“No.” Her voice was sharp, deadly. “You’re not just being a grump anymore, you’re hurting her and that deliberately. And for what?”
Bucky’s jaw flexed.
“She didn’t do anything to you,” she went on. “Nothing. She’s the only person in this whole tower who’s never asked for anything back, she’s gentle with you, she’s kind and you treat her like she’s poison. Why?”
He said nothing, just stared at a point past her head like he could will himself somewhere else.
Yelena jabbed a finger into his chest.
“She came in every day this week and smiled at you. She brought you clean wraps, asked how your stitches were healing, even after you walked by her like she’s an empty air.”
His jaw flexed, his shoulders tensed but still, he said nothing.
Yelena stepped closer.
“You’re not just being an asshole anymore. You’re being cruel, you made her cry in front of the entire team.”
“I didn’t mean…” he snapped, then caught himself.
She narrowed her eyes. “Didn’t mean to, what?”
He looked away.
“Bucky.”
Silence stretched and his hands flexed at his sides like he was holding something back with everything he had.
Finally, he spoke.
“Because I can’t stand it.”
Yelena blinked.
“Because she’s just so fucking nice and bright, and I’m…”
He stopped.
Yelena tilted her head. “You’re what?”
His lips twisted. “I’m this… broken, dark, unnecessary, unlovable something,” he ground out, eyes flashing. “And she’s just… Sunshine. All the damn time.”
Yelena said nothing.
“How can someone be so…” He stopped again, swallowing hard. “So stupidly sweet? So lovely just by breathing? It’s like she doesn’t even know what kind of world she’s in. Like she thinks if she’s kind enough, soft enough, people will stop bleeding.”
He laughed bitterly, shaking his head. “She’ll get herself killed trying to be loved by everybody.”
Yelena’s voice was low, cutting. “She doesn’t want to be loved by everybody.”
Bucky froze.
The air between them went still, almost fragile, waiting for one wrong word to shatter it into pieces too small to sweep up.
He didn’t speak.
Yelena stepped closer, her eyes narrowing, sharp with understanding now. “She wants you.”
He closed his eyes. Just for a moment.
“Bullshit.”
“No,” Yelena said, firm. “It’s not.”
He swallowed hard, jaw grinding like he could chew the words down before they ever reached his throat. “She’s just…” His voice cracked. “She’s kind. She’s like that with everyone.”
“She’s kind,” Yelena agreed, nodding. “But she’s not careless with it. She doesn’t give pieces of herself to just anyone.”
She paused, looking him dead in the eye.
“And you’re not just anyone, you matter to her. More than you think, more than she’d ever say out loud.”
Her voice softened, just slightly.
“She loves you, Bucky. Even if you’re too scared to see it.”
“Don’t.” He turned sharply, like he couldn’t bear the word.
Yelena didn’t flinch.
“Don’t you see it?” she pressed. “The way she looks at you? Like you’re something worth waiting for, like she’s hoping you’ll let her in? But every time she smiles at you, you just look away like it hurts.”
“Because it does,” Bucky snapped, finally meeting her eyes. “Because I don’t know how to take it, because she wants someone whole and I’m not. I’m not some sweet fucking project she can fix with soft hands and careful words.”
Yelena didn’t move.
“I’m not the good guy,” he hissed. “I’m not soft, or stable, or someone who deserves someone like her. I’m a weapon with a retirement plan. That’s all.”
“You’re not.”
He ignored her. “And she, God, she walks around here like a goddamn sunrise, like nothing’s touched her, like she still believes in something.”
“She believes in you.”
“Yeah. Well, then it’s her mistake.”
The words exploded out of him, echoing through the corridor.
He turned away again, dragging a hand through his hair, pacing like he could outrun the way his chest was tightening. Like he could shove the image of your tear-streaked and hurt face out of his mind if he just moved fast enough.
You folded your stuff with trembling hands, but it wasn’t the nerves.
This was heartbreak, settling into your chest like a quiet and cold frost.
You didn’t even know why you were folding things so neatly. It wasn’t like you owed this place a tidy exit but maybe it was instinct, or maybe you just needed to hold on to something you could control while everything else crumbled around you.
You blinked down at your bag where your hoodie sat on top, the soft one you liked to wear on chilly days, the one he had once glanced at for a second too long. You hated that you remembered that, that you still cared.
But God, you did. You cared too much.
You loved him and that was the worst part. You’d fallen so stupidly, quietly, deeply in love with a man who flinched every time you got close, who looked at your kindness like it burned him. who spoke to you like you were a wound he didn’t ask for.
You sniffed, angrily wiping your sleeve across your eyes.
Because damn it, love or not, you weren’t going to keep letting him crush you.
You weren’t someone’s emotional punching bag. You weren’t going to keep showing up every day with soft smiles and careful words just to be told you were too much, too sweet. too naive, too present.
If Bucky Barnes hated you that much, if your love, your existence was so unbearable to him, then fine – you wouldn’t force yourself into his life, and you certainly wouldn’t beg.
You zipped the bag shut, you were retreating, yes, but this wasn’t weakness, this was grace in the face of cruelty, a self-respect.
You paused by the door, glancing once, only once, around the space you’d come to think of as yours.
It was the place where you’d laughed with Yelena, where Alexei had once shown up with a massive toolbox and a mission, declaring your wobbly desk chair “an insult to your delicate spine” and then spent a whole afternoon fixing it.
He’d left behind a chair that somehow creaked louder than before, but you hadn’t said a word, especially not after he had patted your shoulder and told you in that booming, earnest voice, “You take care of all of us. Someone has to take care of you.”
It was ridiculous and so oddly touching, and had made you smile for hours that day.
And it was also the place where you had sat on your bed in the quiet, wondering how someone so closed-off could have eyes that held such storms.
No more wondering. You were done.
You stepped into the hallway with shoulders squared, holding your chin high, and you kept your eyes forward, even as your chest caved in around the ache.
You were leaving. You loved him, yes, but you loved yourself too, and that meant knowing when it was time to go.
You woke up with your head literally splitting.
That was the first thing you registered – pain, blooming and hot at the base of your skull. Every heartbeat sent a fresh wave of nausea through your gut, and your limbs felt heavy, wrong, disconnected.
The pain pulsed behind your eyes, throbbing down your neck and into your spine. It was a slow, creeping kind of pain, the kind that made it hard to tell where it ended and where your body began.
The floor beneath you seemed like a smooth metal, cold and way too perfect to be concrete, and the air smelled of dust and oil and something burnt.
There was something over your head, rough canvas brushing your lips, warm and stifling as you could feel your own breath bouncing back at you, too fast, too shallow.
A bag, there was a fucking bag over your head.
Your pulse spiked, dizzy, hot, and you forced yourself to take a slow breath, then another. Keep the panic down. Think.
Your last clear memory was… what? Packing. Leaving. Walking to the garage.
And then… nothing.
Your heart stuttered as faint footsteps echoed in the distance, muffled voices threading between them. Metal groaned, a door, maybe, and the voices grew closer, sharper.
Fear overrode pain as you tensed, every muscle coiling. Keys rattled. A lock turned.
You barely had time to brace before rough hands clamped around your upper arms. The startled cry that slipped from you was pure instinct, but it didn’t slow them.
“On your feet,” one of them barked.
You were hauled upward with no gentleness but your legs buckled immediately and for a moment, you thought you’d crash right back to the floor but a hand gripped under your arm, holding you up as you swayed, half-upright, your head lolling forward.
And then the hood was yanked off.
Your eyes burned at the sudden brightness, not blinding, but after the suffocating dark, it felt like staring into the sun. Shapes swam in your vision and it took a few seconds to focus, to blink back tears and pain.
Concrete walls. Exposed, rusted metal beams stretching into a high, very high, ceiling. Hanging lights flickering overhead. A warehouse. Old, industrial.
And men – three of them, from what you could see, all unfamiliar except for one – the new tower technician that loved chocolate cookies and always had a silly joke ready to throw your way.
But it wasn’t any of their faces that made your stomach twist, it was the cold, heavy pressure at your throat.
You tried to look down as much as your position allowed and saw it, or rather felt it – a thick metal collar around your neck, black and seamless, with a faint green flicker pulsing just beneath the surface.
You instinctively tried to jerk back, to fight, but your legs didn’t cooperate and the man holding you only tightened his grip, steadying you like you were some auction object that needed to stay upright for display.
“What is this?” Your voice came out hoarse, scraped raw by the bile clawing up your throat. “What… what the hell is this? What do you want from me?”
You were bait, that much was obvious, but for who? It didn’t make any sense. Who would be reckless enough, stupid enough, to walk into this? You had no rich, no powerful friends. You had nobody.
A commotion stirred at the far end of the space, too distant for you to see. Footsteps pounded and another man appeared, breathless.
“He’s here. He’s coming.”
You lifted your head as far as you could manage, straining against the weight in your limbs, as you watched figures emerge from the shadows. There were more men with guns and between them, moving at a controlled, deliberate pace, was someone who made your heart lurch violently in your chest.
You blinked, once, twice, as if your vision had blurred and needed clearing before you almost choked on your own breath.
Bucky?
What the hell was Bucky doing here? The one man on Earth who’d made it perfectly clear he’d rather chew glass than be in the same room with you. The guy who could turn the air in a hallway to ice just by glancing your way. And yet here he was, and your stupid heart still tried to sprint straight out of your chest like it hadn’t gotten the memo.
His hair was tousled and his shoulders taut, every line of him coiled in barely restrained fury. His eyes scanned the room, and the moment they landed on the cage you were standing in, he stopped.
Not the stop of surprise, not even shock, but the kind of stillness that comes when something deep inside snaps tight, when every nerve and every muscle strains against the need to act.
His eyes found you instantly, locking on like a sniper scope, and didn’t move. The air around him seemed to hum with the effort it took not to launch himself straight at the men flanking your cage. You’d never seen him look at you like that before, so fierce, unblinking, like nothing else in the room existed but you.
After a moment of hesitation he moved again, coming closer, so close that you could clearly see his slow and unblinking gaze sweeping over you, taking in every detail. It lingered at your throat, on the strange collar biting into your skin, at the faint bruise you felt pulsing along your temple, at your bare feet, the cage. Each detail seemed to hit him like another blow to the ribs, and his jaw clenched so hard you thought it might splinter.
You watched Bucky’s fists clenching at his sides, metal fingers flexing with quiet violence, his eyes never leaving you, not even for a second, and you could see it – the crackling rage just beneath his skin, the split-second decision he wanted to make, to rip through every one of them, collateral be damned.
“I wouldn’t, if I were you,” a man stepped forward from the shadows, his tone almost conversational, though the smug curl of his mouth made your stomach turn. “You can’t save her.”
Bucky’s stance shifted, subtle but unmistakable the barest lean forward, like he was calculating the distance between himself and the man’s throat.
The man’s smile widened. “See that collar?” He pointed lazily, as though he were pointing out a piece of artwork. “It’s wired. One signal from my friend up there,” he jerked his chin toward a figure on a metal catwalk above, hand resting on a small trigger device, “and her head comes off before you even make it to the bars.”
He rapped his knuckles against the cage. “And this? Vibranium. You could throw yourself at it all day, soldier, and it wouldn’t make a dent.”
Your skin went cold, but you couldn’t look away from Bucky. His jaw worked, his breath sharp through flared nostrils.
“So here’s how this goes,” the man continued, voice dropping into something slicker, deadlier. “You surrender, now, and maybe she walks out of here. She’s unimportant, just a leverage. Hydra only wants its asset back.”
The word asset made Bucky’s face flicker, just for a second, before his expression shuttered again.
Bucky didn’t move at first, his chest rose and fell slowly, his expression almost as if carved from stone, but you could see it, the hesitation, the desperate search for any way out that didn’t end with you hurt.
The man’s smirk widened, sensing it.
“So… what’s it gonna be, soldier?” he drawled. “Or maybe you’d rather take your time deciding? We can make it… educational for you.” His gaze slid to you, and his smile turned wicked. “Maybe let my men have a little fun with that sweet little thing before you come to your senses.”
The man standing at your side shifted, and before you could react, his hand clamped hard around your jaw, forcing your face toward him. His breath was hot and foul as he leered down at you.
“Get your hands off her,” Bucky’s voice was low, almost too quiet to hear, but it carried like a gunshot.
The man didn’t so much as glance at him, instead, he crushed his mouth to yours in a greedy, bruising kiss, his other hand shoving hard against your breast.
White-hot disgust and fury surged up your throat as you screamed into him, twisting in his grip, fighting to wrench free. His fingers dug harder into your cheeks, and unable to get free you just bit down as hard as you could.
The man yelped, jerking back with a curse, blood streaking his mouth, but your small victory lasted all of a heartbeat before a sharp crack split the air, his open palm connecting with your jaw. Your head snapped to the side, the world tilting, and a sharp buzz filled your ears as they rang.
Bucky moved before the sound had even finished echoing. It wasn’t a lunge, but the kind of forward step that made the men around him stiffen, guns rising a fraction higher. His hands fisted at his sides, the vibranium fingers flexing, as if remembering what it felt like to crush bone.
“Touch her again,” he said, voice low and steady, “and I will paint these walls with you.”
The leader’s smirk didn’t waver, but his eyes flickered just for a heartbeat toward the figure high above on the catwalk, the one with his thumb resting lazily on the trigger.
“Temper, temper,” the man drawled. “Make no mistake, Barnes, you’re not in a position to make threats. Every second you stall, she pays for it. You want her breathing? You want her in one piece? Then you get on your knees like the obedient little dog you are, and put your hands where we can see them.”
You caught it, that split-second flicker in Bucky’s eyes, the one that said he was about to do something catastrophically stupid.
This was insane. What the hell was he thinking? For all the ice between you, all the sharp words and cold shoulders, there was one thing you couldn’t deny: you still loved that man.
You loved him. God help you, you loved that grumpy, stubborn, impossible man, loved him so much that the thought of Hydra’s claws sinking back into him made bile burn the back of your throat.
You’d heard enough about what they’d done to him, seen enough of the shadows in his eyes, to know he’d never survive it again, not really. And if he got dragged back there because of you… you’d never forgive yourself.
Your pulse thundered in your ears. You wanted to scream at him to turn around, to not let these bastards use you to drag him under, to tell him you weren’t worth it, but your mouth had gone completely dry and felt as if it had never known how to speak, leaving the words stuck in your throat.
“Bucky, don’t…” you managed to sob, stepping forward, fingers curling desperately around the cold vibranium bars like they could hold back what you already knew was coming.
“Shh, Sunshine.” His voice was soft, steady, and the smile he gave you was something you’d never seen before, surely not from him, and never aimed at you. It was warm, reassuring, achingly tender, like a sliver of sunlight breaking through a storm. You hadn’t even known he could smile like that, let alone at you.
“It’s okay,” he murmured, low and certain. “Everything’s going to be okay. I promise.”
“Bucky, no…” you whimpered, the plea scraping raw in your throat, tears blurring your vision. “Don’t do this. Please. I’m not worth it.”
“Sunshine,” he said, quietly but with such certainty in his voice, like he was telling you the simplest, truest thing he’d ever known. “You’re the only thing in this whole damn world that’s worth it. Nothing else matters. Nothing ever has.”
He didn’t look away, not once, as he moved.
One knee hit the ground first, the dull thud of it echoing through the cavernous space, and for a fleeting, desperate second you thought he might stop there, that maybe he was feigning it, buying time before striking. That maybe you wouldn’t have to watch this but then the other knee lowered, slower, heavier, deliberate, as though every inch cost him something he’d never get back.
His shoulders stayed square, spine locked in stubborn defiance, even as the posture stripped him of the power he’d fought for years to reclaim. The sound of his breathing filled your ears, controlled, measured, but a little too sharp at the edges.
For one last heartbeat, his hands remained loose at his sides, before he lifted them, palms open, offering himself up to the men surrounding him.
Astonishment twisted with guilt in your chest, squeezing the air from your lungs. It wasn’t surrender. You felt it in your bones, it was a bargain, a trade – him for you. And God, it hurt.
The man who had spent months keeping you at arm’s length, who had made you believe you meant nothing to him, was putting his life in their hands for yours, and all you could do was stand there, caged and useless, as he gave himself away.
Two men stepped in close, one on each side, and grabbed his wrists, yanking them back hard enough to strain his shoulders. You saw the small flex of his biceps, the subtle shift in his posture, the instinct to fight still there, before he forced himself to go still.
The click of the first cuff was sharp, the second came with a twist of his arm, pulling the joint past its natural range. It must have hurt, and you saw it in the slight hitch of his breath, the subtle tightening in his jaw.
One of them gave the cuffs an extra jerk, forcing his arms higher, his shoulders arching uncomfortably, another man stepped in and shoved him forward a fraction, making him bow just enough to strip the last illusion of control from him.
He still didn’t look at them, his eyes stayed locked on you, steady, unflinching, that impossibly warm smile refusing to fade, as if he could will you into believing this was all right.
It wasn’t. God, it wasn’t. It was wrong in every way that mattered, a twisting, aching wrong that hollowed you out from the inside.
And it was all your fault, because you hadn’t been careful enough, because you weren’t strong enough. Yelena wouldn’t have been caught like this. Ava wouldn’t have. You knew it, and you hated yourself for it, you hated that you were the weak link he was about to destroy himself to save.
The first blow came almost before they’d even stepped back. You screamed, clutching the bards of your cage.
A heavy, gloved fist smashed across Bucky’s jaw, the crack of impact echoing in your ears. His head snapped to the side, a thin ribbon of blood trailing from the corner of his mouth.
The second strike slammed into his ribs, making his bound shoulders jerk, as he doubled slightly, the pull of the cuffs biting into his wrists, but he forced himself upright again, breath sharp through his nose.
"Welcome home, Soldat. Hope you’re enjoying the welcome party," one of them sneered, and a boot drove into Bucky’s side. His muscles jerked under the blow, every tendon straining as he fought to keep his balance.
The hits kept coming, fists to his face, elbows to his back, another kick to his ribs. They didn’t pause, didn’t give him a second to brace.
Then another kick drove into his side, harder than the rest, and his balance finally broke. He hit the floor on his shoulder, the breath punched out of him, as he sprawled on the cold concrete.
“Stop it!” you screamed, your hands clutching the vibranium bars with knuckles turning white. “Leave him alone! Cowards! He did what you wanted.”
“Not so tough now, huh, Soldier?” one of them sneered, kicking him in the back as he crumpled to the floor.
Bucky didn’t make a sound, he took the hits in silence with nothing more than a grunt when a fist connected with his jaw just right or the smallest, roughest exhale when his head was snapped back by an uppercut.
“Look at him,” a voice jeered over the sound of another strike. “All that muscle, all that metal, and still just a bitch on a leash.”
“Bet she’d scream louder for me than she ever would for him,” someone else laughed.
A kick landed in his back, forcing another breath out of him.
“Look at you,” one of them said, crouching down to grab a handful of his hair and wrench his head back, making him meet his eyes. “Kneeling like a good little dog for some wet hole. Don’t you worry, we’ll treat her right. We’ll put that pussy to good use, and you’ll get to watch. You’ll get to watch every second of how we’ll fuck all her holes.”
It all stopped as abruptly as it started.
“Enough!” the leader’s voice cut through the room, and the others stepped back instantly. “There’ll be time for more fun later. Get ready to move. We leave in ten.”
They filed out in a loose cluster, footsteps fading until the warehouse fell quiet again.
You dropped to your knees.
The tears came fast and hot, blurring your vision as you pressed your hands to the barrier between you. You didn’t care that your shoulders shook, or that your voice broke when you whispered his name.
“Bucky…”
He stirred. One eye was already swelling shut, blood trickled from the corner of his mouth, his chest lifting in uneven gasps.
Tears slipped down your cheeks. “You shouldn’t have come. You shouldn’t have surrendered. Why did you do that? You hate me.”
A beat of silence followed and you were already afraid he had passed out, but then finally his voice reached you, hoarse but clear.
“Hate you?” he murmured, his voice quiet but steady enough for you to catch every word. “Oh, Sunshine, I’m just a fucking idiot. The biggest damn idiot alive, and I can’t…” He broke off, jaw tightening.
“I need you to understand something before they… before anything happens,” he went on, each word slow, like dragging glass through his throat. “I don’t hate you, I never did and I never… I never meant to hurt you.”
Bucky inhaled deeply and continued, “Every time I was cold, every time I cut you down or walked out, it was just me trying to get some air, to keep myself from drowning in this thing I can’t shut off. You walk into a room and I forget how to breathe. You smile at me and it feels like the first warm day after years in the snow, and I … I just simply don’t know what to do with that.”
There was no hesitation in him, just that raw, stripped-bare honesty you’d never thought you’d hear from him, not in this lifetime.
His mouth twisted in something that wasn’t quite a smile. “I knew I didn’t have a chance with you,” he went on. “You’re everything I thought was gone from the world. You are so warm, so kind, too damn good. And me? I’m the thing they built in the dark to kill people like you. So I figured it’d be easier, if you just stayed away from me. For you and for me. That if I made you hate me, maybe it wouldn’t hurt so much, that maybe I could survive watching you give that smile to someone who deserved it.”
Your pulse thundered, your fingers tightening around the cold bars until they ached.
“But the truth is,” he went on, voice breaking in the middle, “I love you. I fucking love you, and I’ve never loved anybody like this before, and there’s nothing, absolutely nothing, I wouldn’t give, or do, or trade, to keep you safe. If they take me now, I’m fine with that, but if they lay a hand on you…” his breath shuddered and faded away.
“Oh my God, Bucky…” you sobbed, shaking your head, not believing any of this could be real.
“Listen to me,” he cut in. “Listen carefully! Whatever happens, stick to Ava. She’ll get you out. Promise me.”
“I… I don’t understand.” You covered your mouth with a trembling hand, choking back another sob.
“We just needed a clear view on where they were keeping you,” Bucky said, his tone almost mocking before it hardened. “And those cocky, self-sure idiots were so wrapped up in the idea of bagging the Winter Soldier, they didn’t bother to check me for anything else, just took my guns.” His lips twitched in a smirk, but it didn’t last, as in the next heartbeat, his expression turned deadly serious.
“Remember, no matter what happens, you follow Ava.” His voice was low, urgent, almost a growl. “Promise me.”
“Bucky…”
“Promise me,” he cut in, steel in his tone. “I need to hear it.”
“I… I promise,” you breathed. “But Bucky…”
His head dipped once in relief, “Good, and Sunshine … I’m sorry I hurt you,” he murmured. “I’m so damn sorry.”
You were crying openly now, hunched low against the bars, hands trembling, tears coming in hot streams that blurred the room into streaks of shadow and light. You tried to swallow it down, to find some semblance of control, but your breath hitched and broke in uneven bursts and your bottom lip trembled so violently it hurt with nose running and cheeks wet and blotchy, and you didn’t even care.
“Bucky, listen to me…” you managed, your voice cracking so badly it didn’t even sound like your own. But the rest of the words wouldn’t come, they just died in your mouth, swallowed by the chaos that suddenly ensued.
It started with a flicker in the corner of your eye, a shimmer in the air, and then she was there.
Ava.
Her form snapped into view inside the cage, crouched beside you, eyes sharp and scanning.
“Hey,” she breathed, quick and urgent. “Hold still.”
“Ava…?” you mouthed, still stunned.
“No time,” she muttered, already reaching for the collar at your throat, her fingers moving with brisk precision. “We’re getting you out of here.”
You barely heard the shouts that followed, the sound of boots pounding, of something crashing, open gunfire, grunts that sounded an awful lot like John, the deep roar of Alexei rising above it all like a battle cry and Yelena’s sharp commands slicing through the din.
They’d come for you. All of them.
But your eyes were on Ava, whose hands shimmered in and out of phase as she tried to disable the collar. She hissed when her fingertips sparked off the tech.
“Shit. This is custom made.”
“Can you…?”
“Yeah. Just…give me a second.”
You nodded, trying to stay still despite the chaos, you couldn’t see Bucky, you just knew he was somewhere just out of your line of sight, still cuffed on the floor where they'd left him.
Your heart pounded so hard it hurt.
With a sharp click and a sudden hiss of pressure, the collar snapped loose and you gasped as Ava pulled it off, tossing it behind her like a venomous thing as she instantly turned her attention to the lock of the cage. It gave in much more quickly and with satisfied huff she turned back to you.
“Come on,” she said. “We’ve gotta move.”
But you weren’t listening because from the corner of your vision just past the open door of the cage you saw something – the leader of the HYDRA men, positioned just beyond the falling debris and shadows with his gun raised and aimed at Bucky.
Bucky had managed to get back to his feet but his hands were still bound with the vibranium cuffs that refused to yield even to his strength no matter how much he struggled against them.
Yelena had spotted the gun too, you could see it in the way her shoulders coiled, but she was too far, her path blocked by the chaos.
Bucky saw him too and then… he just stopped struggling, his arms fell still, all resistance gone. Slowly, he lifted his gaze to meet the cold, smirking eyes of the man about to end him.
He looked… so calm, unimpressed, almost bored, with a smile on his lips, like he’d already made his peace with what was going to happen. It seemed he almost dared the man to pull the trigger.
“No!” you screamed, and your body moved before thought could stop it.
You shoved Ava aside and bolted through the door.
Your legs screamed in protest, but you didn’t stop, not for the fear, not for the ache, not for the warning shouts that followed you as you dove forward, the world slowing around you.
The gun fired.
But you were already there, just in front of Bucky.
The impact slammed into your side like a sledgehammer and you screamed as fire exploded through your ribs.
You hit the floor hard, hands pressed instinctively to your side, something warm and wet seeping through your fingers… blood… so much blood…
The warehouse tilted around you.
Somewhere far away, Alexei roared, a deep, thunderous sound, and the ground seemed to shake as he barreled forward. The gunman didn’t even have time to scream before Alexei’s fist smashed into his chest, sending him airborne into the wall with a sickening crack.
The body dropped. The gun skittered across the floor.
Yelena appeared in your periphery, face pale, hands shaking as she pressed down on your wound. “No, no, no… stay with me…!” and through the ringing in your ears, another sound cut through – raw, savage, and nothing like a human voice.
“NO!”
Bucky was there, fighting against his restraints like a man possessed until Ava freed him with a sharp snap of the cuffs. His arms were around you instantly, pulling you into him, holding you as if he could shield you from the damage already done.
You turned your head toward him, as you tried to give him a smile, but failed.
“Bucky…” Your voice was thin, trembling, each word tasting of copper. His eyes found yours – those beautiful, deep blue eyes, wild and glassy with terror.
“I love you,” you breathed, coughing red onto your lips. “I love you too. Always have…”
And then the world went black.
Bucky’s boots echoed hollowly against the linoleum floor, back and forth, back and forth.
Pacing. Always pacing.
His bruises were already fading. Supersoldier healing worked as perfectly as always, but he looked somehow worse now than when he had left the warehouse all covered in blood. Your blood.
He was pale, his jaw tight with tension, and his fingers kept threading through his hair, over and over again, like maybe if he yanked hard enough, he could wake himself from this nightmare.
He had asked.
Then begged.
Then threatened.
But they still wouldn’t let him in.
“She’s in surgery,” the nurse had said gently, hands folded like she knew exactly who he was and how little comfort her words offered. “They’ll update you when they can.”
He’d nearly broken the doorframe when they said "it’s a tough situation". His hands had clenched around the edge of the metal table and crushed it against the wall before anyone could stop him.
So now, they were keeping him outside, pacing like a caged animal.
Yelena came in quietly, holding a cup of coffee. She crossed the room with that cautious kind of grace, like approaching something volatile.
“Here,” she said simply, holding out the cup.
Bucky didn’t take it at first, just stared through her like he was still seeing the blood pooling beneath you on the warehouse floor. Then he blinked, hand jerking out to grab it. His fingers trembled around the paper cup.
He didn’t drink.
“Any news?” he rasped, voice barely there. “Yelena, I’m… I’m going mad. I need to see her.”
Yelena leaned against the wall, arms crossed, her expression was softer than usual, even sad.
“I know,” she said. “But maybe next time don’t throw a metal table at a wall when the doctor says it’s a ‘tough situation.’”
Bucky flinched.
“They’ll tell us when they know something. You need to be patient.”
“I am patient,” he growled, dragging both hands through his hair again, the cup completely forgotten and trembling in one hand. “I’ve been patient for months. I just wanted the best for her. Can you understand that?”
“I know you did,” she reassured him with a small nod.
“Why did she do it? God! Why? Why would she take a bullet for someone like me?”
“Because she loves you, you moron!”
“Dear God, you were right. She does, she really does. She said that when…” Bucky’s voice cracked as if that revelation was the most unbelievable, impossible thing in the world.
Yelena looked at him, long and steady, he turned away, jaw tight, teeth grinding.
A beat of silence passed before heavy boots entered the room.
Alexei.
“Any news?” he asked, voice gruff but careful.
Bucky didn’t answer.
“She’s strong,” Alexei said, easing into a chair that creaked under his weight. “They’ll fix her up. She’s tougher than you think.”
“She shouldn’t have had to be,” Bucky said, staring down at the cracks in the tile. “If I’d just…”
“Hey.” Alexei leaned forward. “You blame yourself, you’re gonna drown in it. She needs you here. Not spiraling.”
Bucky didn't look up, as his chest rose and fell in shallow, uneven breaths.
Another pair of footsteps entered.
John.
Even he looked subdued, uncertain, hands shoved into his pockets, eyes darting awkwardly around as if seeking for threat.
“Barnes,” he started, cautious. “Hey, I…I just wanted to say…”
Bucky looked up slowly, eyes sharp and wild, and bared his teeth.
“Don’t.”
John stopped mid-step, the snarl in Bucky’s voice was quiet but dangerous.
“Don’t say anything comforting. Don’t tell me it’s gonna be okay. Don’t act like you know a single damn thing about what this is.”
John blinked, opened his mouth and closed it.
Yelena lifted an eyebrow. “Yeah, probably not your moment, Cap Junior.”
Alexei huffed. “Let him snarl. He’s scared.”
“I’m not scared,” Bucky snapped, but it sounded hollow even to his own ears.
He sat down heavily, elbows on his knees, head in his hands, metal fingers digging into his scalp, human hand curled tightly around the forgotten, crushed and leaking coffee cup.
“I’m… fucking terrified.”
The room went still.
“I love her.”
It came out like a confession and a collapse all at once, the kind of truth that had been rotting in his chest for too long, finally clawing its way out.
“I love her,” Bucky said again, more desperate this time, as if he had to convince himself that saying it out loud might make it more real.
“I’ve loved her from the moment she smiled for the first time at me like I wasn’t something broken,” his voice crack.
“She’s the only sunshine I’ve ever had. The only good thing. The only thing that made all the noise go quiet.”
A bitter, humorless laugh tore from his chest.
“And I pushed her away. Treated her like shit because I thought if I kept her at arm’s length, I’d be safe.”
His voice faltered, the words catching. “And she… she loved me. She fucking loved me all along. Me…”
He looked up with a stunned, hollow expression on his face that told he still couldn’t believe it, that he still couldn’t wrap his mind around the fact that it was possible, that someone could really love him.
He swallowed hard, eyes glassy. “I… I don’t know how to live without her.”
The silence that followed was deafening, sharp and suffocating. Quiet glances darted between Yelena, Alexei, and John, each of them catching the other’s eye, then shaking their heads almost imperceptibly, as if daring anyone to speak, but knowing there were no words that could make it right, no comfort that wouldn’t sound like a lie.
The door swung open, the sound slicing through the silence like a gunshot and Bucky sprang to his feet so fast the chair behind him skidded with a screech and hit the wall.
The doctor, a young man in his forties with soft hands and weary eyes, froze in the doorway, eyes going wide like he’d just walked into a lion’s den.
“No,” Bucky said, already breathless, with uneven steps striding toward the doc.
“No… no… no… don’t tell me she’s…”
The doctor actually flinched.
Bucky surged forward, and Alexei instinctively stepped in front of him, holding out a hand like a shield.
“Easy,” he muttered. “Give him a second.”
Doc peeked nervously from behind Alexei’s shoulder, adjusting his glasses with fingers that visibly trembled. “She… she survived the operation.”
Bucky froze mid-step and the whole world seemed to stop with him.
“What?” His voice broke, low and hoarse, almost too afraid to believe it.
“She made it,” the doc said, gently now, peeking around Alexei to look at Bucky. “There was internal bleeding and a rib fracture, but the bullet missed her lung by a few millimeters. We stabilized her. She’s unconscious but…” He swallowed. “She’s stable.”
For a long second, no one moved.
Then Bucky staggered back and dropped into the chair like his legs had given out, eyes glassy, mouth open in silent shock as he covered his face with both hands, shoulders shaking, and… wept… no shame, no restrain… just two hot streams running down his cheeks.
Two months had passed since you were finally cleared from the med bay, and in that time Bucky had appointed himself your full-time caretaker, and by caretaker, you meant prison warden disguised as a Victorian nursemaid.
You weren’t allowed to lift a grocery bag, open a door, or even pour your own damn coffee. If your eyes flicked toward the top shelf for more than a second, he was already there, plucking whatever you wanted down like some grim-faced butler with shoulders that could block out the sun.
It didn’t matter if you were perfectly capable, Bucky read your needs straight from your lips and was halfway to fetching them before you’d even realized you wanted them.
At first, it was sweet, then it was… smothering, and by now you were starting to feel less like a recovering human being and more like a particularly delicate crystal vase he was convinced would shatter if left unsupervised.
And you were horny.
Suddenly, you had the hottest, most ridiculously built, dangerously attractive supersoldier boyfriend… who insisted on treating you like you might snap in half if he so much as breathed on you too hard. Which was, frankly, a torture, especially when you’d wake up to find him shirtless, hair mussed, sipping coffee like a damn Calvin Klein ad and not doing a single thing about the ache he’d put in you.
It came to a head on a lazy Saturday morning.
You woke to find him already out of bed, hair a glorious mess, standing at the kitchen counter in nothing but a pair of sweatpants slung low enough to make you forget your own name. He was stirring sugar into your coffee, because of course you weren’t allowed to make your own, humming under his breath like some brooding, muscle-bound guest star on Desperate Housewives, the kind who has every bored suburban wife on the block peeking over the hedge just to watch him move.
“Morning, Sunshine,” he murmured, setting the mug carefully in front of you as you came closer like you were a patient in an ICU. “Careful, it’s hot.”
That was it, that was the moment you decided you’d had enough.
You took a slow sip, eyes on him over the rim, letting your gaze linger on his chest, his shoulders, the trail of hair disappearing under those sweatpants and without warning, you reached out and hooked your fingers into the waistband, tugging him a step closer.
“Sunshine…” His voice went wary, but his body didn’t move away.
You tilted your head, giving him your sweetest smile. “I’m healed, remember?” Your hand smoothed over his abs, nails scratching lightly, just enough to feel the hitch in his breath. “And unless I’ve forgotten basic anatomy, I’m pretty sure this,” your palm slid lower, “isn’t a danger to my recovery.”
“Not the point,” he muttered, though his voice had gone rough, his pupils blown.
“Feels like the point to me,” you whispered. “You’ve spent two months treating me like glass, Barnes. But I’m not glass. I’m flesh and blood. And right now, I’m very, very warm flesh in need of…” you pressed your mouth to his ear, “…attention.”
He swallowed hard, his hands twitching at his sides like he was fighting himself. “You keep this up, Sunshine, and I’m not gonna be responsible for what happens next.”
You grinned, pulling back just enough to meet his eyes, your voice dropping to a purr.
“Good. I’m not asking you to be responsible, Bucky. I’m asking you to fuck me, and… I want you to do it right.'
You let the pause hang, then tilted your head, teeth catching your lower lip in mock innocence.
'I’d say you owe me that… seeing as I took a bullet for you.”
That was when the dam finally broke.
It happened fast. One second you were smirking up at him, the next his mouth was on yours, hard enough to steal the breath right out of you, and his vibranium hand slid up your thigh, fingers squeezing possessively, while the other gripped your jaw, keeping you exactly where he wanted you.
He kissed like a man starved, his tongue swept against yours, deep and claiming, swallowing every little gasp you made as his grip on your jaw tightened just enough to make your pulse race.
“Oh, I will fuck you,” he muttered against your lips, the word low and rough, before kissing you again, harder this time, his teeth grazing your lower lip until you whimpered.
That sound must have done something to him, because his hand on your thigh moved higher, hooking beneath your knee to drag your leg over his hip.
The kiss never broke, it only deepened, messy and consuming, until you could taste your own ragged breathing between his. When he finally pulled back, his lips red and eyes pure hunger, it was only far enough to drag his mouth along your jaw, down the column of your throat, where his teeth scraped lightly over your pulse point.
“Do you have any idea,” he rasped, lips ghosting over your skin, “how many times I’ve gotten myself off thinking about this? About you?” his voice roughened with every word he spoke. “For months, Sunshine… I’ve been picturing the way you’d sound… the way you’d taste… the way you’d feel, clenching around me.”
Shit, it was too damn hot to hear, the filthy image his unfiltered confession conjured in your head sending a shiver through your whole body, running so deep he felt it. His answering groan was pure, unrestrained want as his hand slid between you, cupping you through your thin pajama pants, his thumb stroking slow, deliberate circles over your throbbing clit.
“Believe me Sunshine, I will fuck you so good you will forget your own name. Gonna show you,” he murmured, nipping lightly at your neck, as he scooped you up like you weighed nothing, “exactly how much I’ve been wanting you.”
Your legs locked around his waist on instinct as he carried you back to the bedroom. You caught sight of the half-finished coffee cooling on the counter, the sun spilling through the blinds and then his shoulder slammed the door shut with a finality that made your stomach twist in anticipation.
The next thing you knew, you were flat on your back, his weight settling over you, all heat and muscle and weeks of coiled need. His fingers pushed your shirt up and over your head in one smooth, impatient motion, his eyes darkening at the sight of bare skin.
“Still sure you’re okay?” he asked, but it didn’t sound like hesitation this time, it sounded like a warning.
You hooked your fingers in his hair and pulled him down.
“Not glass,” you murmured, crushing your lips against his.
“Not glass,” he repeated with a low growl, and the look in Bucky’s eyes was anything but gentle now as his hands slid slowly down your sides, fingers hooking into the waistband of your pants, tugging them off in one smooth motion.
Before you could even gasp, he was kneeling between your thighs, pushing them wide, spreading you open for his gaze. His tongue darted over his lips like a starving man confronted with a long-denied feast.
The cool glide of his metal fingers traced through your slick folds, lingering just long enough to make you shiver before his thumb found your clit, teasing in quick, perfect circles. Your back arched off the mattress with a moan you couldn’t bite back. God, you were more than okay, you were trembling, aching, soaked for him, almost embarrassingly so, every nerve tuned to the first real touch you’d been craving for what felt like ages.
“Beautiful, so fucking beautiful,” he whisperred as his hands gripped your thighs, thumbs stroking once before he leaned in, his breath warm against you and then his mouth was on you.
The first stroke of his tongue made your hips jolt, a gasp tearing from your throat. He groaned in approval, the vibration shooting straight through you as he licked deeper, slower, savoring you like he’d been dying for the taste.
Bucky’s grip was firm, keeping you spread for him, every flick and swirl of his tongue deliberate, unhurried like he was going to wring every single sound out of you before he let you go.
“Sweet,” he murmured against you, his voice rough, “knew you’d be.”
When you tangled your fingers in his hair, tugging him closer, he growled low in his chest and sucked harder, making you cry out. He didn’t let up, working you with his mouth until your thighs trembled and your breath came in short, desperate gasps.
“God, Bucky…” you choked out, but he only hummed, sending another shiver through you, his tongue pressing exactly where you needed it.
Your fingers fisted in his hair, pulling, urging, but if you thought that would make him hurry, you were wrong. Bucky was thorough, controlled, and so damn focused it made your head spin.
He slid one hand up to your stomach, holding you down when your hips tried to lift off the bed, while the other gripped your thigh, his thumb digging into your skin just enough to remind you who was in control.
He latched onto your clit, sucking with a slow, devastating pull that made your back arch and your breath break. You whimpered his name, and the sound must’ve been exactly what he wanted, because he growled against you and the vibration made your toes curl.
“Bucky… oh, shit… yes… yes… oh God…” you mewled, hips jerking in an instinctive plea for more.
“Shhh, my sweet girl,” he murmured, his lips brushing your slick heat as the words ghosted over you. “Take it easy… let me take care of you.”
Before you could even process that, his tongue slid lower, teasing at your entrance before pushing inside, deep and relentless. Your thighs clamped around his head, but he didn’t seem to mind, if anything, his grip tightened, pinning you in place while he fucked you with his mouth.
You could feel him moan into you, like your taste alone was making him lose his mind and every slow drag of his tongue, every flick against that aching spot, built you higher, tighter, until the pressure in your stomach was unbearable.
“Come for me,” he ordered, voice ragged as he pulled back just enough to wrap his lips around your clit again. “C’mon, baby. I’ve been starving for this.”
Your vision blurred, heat flooded you and then you broke, the orgasm ripping through you so hard you cried out, your whole body shaking as he kept going, licking you through every aftershock like he had no intention of stopping.
Only when you had turned into a whimpering, moaning mess, trying to push at his head, to escape the devastating onslaught of his lips and tongue, did he finally relent and sat back on his heels, lips and chin glistening, eyes dark and hungry as he wiped the back of his hand across his mouth.
He didn’t give you time to catch your breath. Still on his knees between your legs, Bucky crawled up over you, the bed dipping under his weight until his chest pressed to yours. His mouth found yours instantly, hot and hungry, and you tasted yourself on his tongue, heady, intoxicating, intimate in a way that made your cheeks flush and your pulse race.
You whimpered against him, and he swallowed the sound greedily, one hand sliding up the side of your body to cup your breast, his thumb brushing over the hard peak until you arched into him. The other hand found your hip, holding you in place as his hips rolled, letting you feel every inch of the thick, hard length straining against his sweatpants.
“Feel that?” he murmured against your lips, voice a low growl. “Been like this for months… every time you walked into the room, every time you touched me, drove me fuckin’ insane. That time you patched the gash on my side…” his mouth curved in a breathless smirk, “…I bolted right after because if I’d stayed one more second, I would’ve come in my pants like some desperate fuckin’ teenager.”
He kissed you again, slower this time, savouring every drag of his lips against you, before his hand slipped back between your thighs. You gasped at his touch, as his metal finger parted your folds and slid inside you.
“Still so wet for me,” he said, almost in awe. “Still ready.”
Your hands fumbled for his sweatpants, urgency replacing every other thought.
He shoved his pants down just far enough for his cock to spring free – thick, flushed, and already dripping precum that smeared against your thigh.
Jesus, he was gorgeous. Heavy and perfectly shaped, a thick vein running along the underside, pulsing like it was just as desperate as you. You wrapped your hand around him, feeling the heat and weight, and his groan was deep enough to make your toes curl.
You tried to guide him to you, pressing the broad, leaking head to your entrance, but his hand closed over yours, firm and commanding.
“Not yet,” he rasped, eyes dark and locked on you.
He took over, sliding himself through your folds in long, unhurried strokes, the wet sound obscene in the quiet. Every pass rubbed your clit just enough to make you gasp, just enough to make you want to scream.
You bucked your hips, desperate for more.
“Please,” you hissed.
Bucky just smirked, finally pressing the thick head into you… only to pull back again. Then he did it again, and again, slow, shallow, infuriating.
“Look at you,” he murmured, dragging the tip against your swollen entrance before retreating. “So beautiful, so fucking needy you’d take it all without thinking. You want it that bad, Sunshine?”
“Yes…God, yes…”
But instead of giving in, he kept up the torturous rhythm, the head of his cock breaching you just enough to stretch, to burn, before he denied you again until you were shaking, nails digging into his ass, trying to drag him forward.
“Beg prettier,” he growled, pressing in one last shallow thrust that made your breath catch. “Then maybe I’ll give you what you’re so fucking desperate for.”
Your nails dug harder into his ass, your voice breaking as you pleaded, “Bucky… please, I need you. I need all of you. I’ll do anything, just… fuck me.”
Something in his eyes changed, the smirk fading, replaced by something darker, hungrier as his fingers tightened on your hips, the metal one biting just enough to make you gasp.
He slammed into you in one brutal, perfect thrust, burying himself to the hilt. The stretch made your mouth fall open in a soundless cry, your whole body clenching around him as your back arched.
You both moaned in unison. His was low and broken, yours high and desperate as he filled you completely, stretching you until the air caught in your throat. He stilled there, forehead pressed to yours, breathing you in, feeling the tight flutter of your walls around him.
“Fuuuck,” Bucky groaned, head dropping to your shoulder, his voice rough and wrecked. “You feel… unreal… better than I ever let myself imagine.”
The first thrusts were deep and heavy, slow enough to make your nails bite into his skin, forcing little gasps from your throat, but the longer he kept that pace, the rougher his breathing became until the restraint shattered, and he started to drive into you harder, faster, like every second apart had been fuel for this moment, and he was burning it all in you.
His hips snapped forward with a sharp, relentless rhythm that drove you into the mattress, and every sound he made, the low grunts, the hiss of his breath, the occasional broken moan, wound you tighter.
“You wanted it, Sunshine,” he rasped, fucking you like he meant to prove it. “So take it. Take every…”
a sharp thrust stole your air
“... fuckin’ ...”
another made you moan in pleasure as your nails clawed at his back
“... inch.”
You could barely answer him, your voice dissolving into needy, incoherent moans and pleas, and he was eating up every sound, fucking you harder, chasing both your pleasure and his like he’d been starving for this.
Your moans grew higher, sharper, as his thrusts turned downright punishing, the kind that had the headboard thudding in time with his hips as every inch of him was inside you, claiming, wrecking, ruining you in the best way possible.
“Common, Sunshine…,” he groaned, sweat dripping down his temple, his eyes dark and locked on yours. “let me hear you… let me hear you scream.”
And you were screaming now, or maybe moaning, you couldn’t tell, the sounds tumbled from you without control as he pistoned into you, each thrust harder, faster, his cock dragging over that perfect spot until you were a moaning, drooling, whimpering mess beneath him.
Your nails scored his back, leaving hot trails of sting in their wake, and he just growled at the pain, driving into you harder. You couldn’t even form words anymore, just desperate little sounds, your thighs trembling around him.
“Yeah… that’s it,” he panted, thumb finding your clit and circling it in hard, perfect strokes. “You gonna come for me? You gonna soak my cock like I know you want to?”
“B-Bucky…” you gasped, your entire body winding tight, the pressure coiling low in your belly ready to snap.
“Do it,” he hissed. “Come on, Sunshine. Let go, I want to feel it.”
You shattered, your vision went white and your mouth opened on a cry as the orgasm tore through you, pulsing around him, every nerve on fire. You felt him groan into your neck, hips slamming forward as if he could get impossibly deeper, his rhythm breaking into ragged thrusts.
“Fuck… fuck, I’m gonna…” he choked out, pulling you tight against him, and then he was gone, spilling hot and thick inside you with a deep, wrecked moan on of your name as he held himself there, buried to the hilt, shaking from the force of it.
For a long moment, the only sound was your combined breathing, ragged and uneven. His forehead rested against yours, his body still trembling with aftershocks, and when his eyes opened again, there was nothing but raw, unguarded affection in them.
He didn’t pull out right away, instead, he just kissed you, slowly, tenderly, savouring every drag of his lips against yours, until your heartbeat began to ease and your legs loosened from around him.
When he finally slipped free, you winced at the sensitivity and he immediately stilled, cupping your cheek with that careful, searching look like he was scanning you for damage.
“You okay?”
You almost laughed. “Bucky, I just came so hard I think I saw God and angels. I’m fine.”
He didn’t look convinced, in fact, he looked downright concerned as he disappeared into the bathroom and came back with a warm, damp cloth, kneeling between your thighs.
“Let me,” he murmured, and you knew better than to argue. He cleaned you gently, almost too gently, muttering under his breath about “making sure you’re comfortable” like the overprotective menace he was.
Then came the water, then the blanket adjustment, then him physically tucking you into bed like you were about to be read a bedtime story.
“Bucky, I’m not an invalid,” you grumbled, though you couldn’t stop the fond little smile pulling at your lips.
“Shut up,” he said, but there was no heat to it. “You’re my girl, and my job is to take care of you.”
You shook your head, exasperated, but when he slid in beside you and pulled you against his chest, his warmth wrapping around you like a second blanket, you simply wrapped your arms around his broad shoulders and snuggled closer. His hand traced lazy, grounding circles on your back as he nuzzled against your hair.
“You know you drive me crazy, right?” you murmured into his skin.
“Yeah,” he said, pressing a kiss to your hair. “Guess we’re even.”
You gave a little huff. “I’m serious. All this… fussing over me like I’m made of sugar. It’s ridiculous.”
He chuckled low in his chest. “You love it.”
“I do not,” you protested, even as your fingers curled into his bare side and your head tucked closer under his chin.
“Mm-hm.” He sounded unconvinced. “That little face you make when I pour your coffee for you? Or when I carry all the groceries in one trip? Sunshine, you practically glow. Don’t think I don’t notice.”
You tilted your head back just enough to glare at him. “I tolerate it because you’d pout if I didn’t.”
Bucky’s lips twitched into a grin. “Pout? I don’t pout.”
“You pouted when I tried to open my own soda last week.”
“That was different,” he said, tone all mock seriousness. “You could’ve hurt yourself.”
You laughed, unable to help it, and shook your head. “You’re impossible.”
“And you,” he murmured, pressing his mouth to yours in a slow, lazy kiss, “are mine.”
That shut you up, not because you agreed (you’d never give him the satisfaction out loud), but because the warmth in his voice went straight to your chest and melted every last bit of resistance.
You just sighed into the kiss, letting him win this one.
Pairing: Gwayne Hightower x fem!reader
Authors note: June Jukebox Scribbles event.
June 20th - All Shook Up - Elvis Presley / “Who do you thank when you have such luck?”
Warnings: tooth-rotting fluff, suggestive
Word Count: 300
Summary: when the whispers at the court become too loud, Gwayne reminds you exactly why he married you
Dividers by @/cafekitsune
EVENT MASTERLIST
The door squeaked quietly and you hastily turned away, trying to wipe your face with your sleeve.
Too late.
Familiar footsteps crossed the chamber and stopped beside you.
"You've been crying."
Gwayne always knew when something troubled you.
"I'm fine," you murmured without looking at him. "Just a summer cold."
A small, disbelieving smile touched his lips. "Love... you're such a bad liar."
His fingers slipped beneath your chin, turning your face toward him.
"What happened?"
"It was nothing."
"Those old vipers again?"
"...Perhaps they're right."
His brow furrowed.
"If we asked to dissolve the marriage..." Your voice faltered. "You could find someone who can give you children…"
The words broke apart into a sob before you could finish it.
"Look at me."
He took both your hands in his, but you stubbornly kept your gaze on the gardens beyond the window.
"It's been a whole year," you sniffled.
"It's only been a year," he replied with a smile, brushing away a tear with his thumb.
"Can't you see how happy I am?" he said softly. "I still can't believe my fortune that I found you. Who do you thank when you have such luck?" His eyes held the same quiet wonder they had on your wedding day. "I would never trade you. Not for ten sons. Not for a kingdom."
Your lips trembled into a watery smile.
"Gwayne, you deserve..."
Before you could say another word, your husband’s knees hit the floor, hands sliding up your sides, pushing up the fabric of your dress and parting your legs so he could settle between them.
Gwayne looked up at you from the floor.
“It doesn’t mean I’m ready to stop trying,” he murmured and pressed a slow, open mouthed kiss to the inside of your thigh, then another higher up.
Pairing: Ormund Hightower x fem!reader
Authors note: June Jukebox Scribbles event
June 23rd - I Believe In A Thing Called Love - The Darkness / “Can't explain all the feelings that you're making me feel"
Warnings: none
Word Count: 414
Summary: Ser Ormund Hightower surprises his wife at their wedding night
Dividers by @cafekitsune
EVENT MASTERLIST
The wedding feast had ended hours ago.
You sat at the edge of the bed in the middle of the vast bedchamber, fingers twisting together in your lap.
Lady Hightower. You tasted the title on your tongue but it felt strange almost as if it belonged to someone else.
Only a month had passed since Ser Ormund Hightower had ridden to your father's hall to ask for your hand, all shining armor and confident smile on his handsome face.
Your father had accepted without hesitation. The war was coming, and there was no time to waste. The wedding was set and now a month later you were here, sitting on a bed and trying on your title like a new dress that didn’t fit.
You barely knew the man but you knew the stories, the ones whispered in corridors and exchanged over cups of wine.
That he was arrogant. That he respected no one, not even the king. That he chased every skirt who crossed his path. That no lady's attention held him for long.
The sound of the door opening pulled you from your thoughts. You heard the steps, steady and confident crossing the room. You gathered your courage and turned around.
He looked… different. He was still broad-shouldered, still devastatingly handsome and wearing that almost arrogant confidence of his that looked like it had been carved into his bones.
Yet there was something else in his gaze.
Your heart hammered as he approached and stopped directly before you.
You parted your lips, preparing to say something, but before you could, your husband sank to one knee.
You stared.
Completely stunned.
Careful, almost hesitant, as though he feared you might pull away, his hand reached for yours and lifted it gently to his lips.
A kiss brushed first your palm then your knuckles.
"My lady," he said softly.
The title sent a strange wave of something warm through your chest.
"I know I have not earned your trust. Perhaps not even your affection." A faint smile touched his lips. "But I swear to you that I will spend every day of my life trying."
His fingers still didn’t let go of your hand.
"Can't explain all the feelings that you're making me feel. I only know that from the moment I saw you, my heart belonged to you."
You kept your eyes on him and for the first time since the wedding began, the stories no longer mattered, only the man kneeling before you did.
Pairing: Gwayne Hightower x fem!reader
Authors note: June Jukebox Scribbles event
June 18th - Come and Get Your Love - Redbone / “What's the matter with you”
Warnings: none
Word Count: 423
Summary: sometimes the quickest way to an honorable knight's heart is to make him just a little jealous
Dividers by @/saradika-graphics
EVENT MASTERLIST
The moment you stepped into the hallway your wrist disappeared into a warm, firm hand.
"Gwayne?"
"This way," he'd steered you into a narrow alcove beyond the reach of the torchlight. Only when you'd stopped did he seem to realize he was still holding you.
His hand fell away as if burned.
"… Forgive me."
You rubbed the spot where his thumb had rested.
"I didn't know you were in the habit of abducting ladies from feasts."
"You should keep your distance from that Dornish lord."
You tilted your head.
"The handsome one?"
A muscle jumped in his jaw.
"He is a scoundrel."
"And?"
"He's only using you to gather information."
You folded your arms.
"I rather enjoyed talking to him."
"I noticed."
“He’s a very good dancer.”
“I saw.”
The words slipped out too quickly and a flicker of regret crossed his face. Too late.
You smiled.
"Ser Gwayne Hightower… have you been watching me?"
He drew in a shaky breath.
"I was... aware of where you were."
"Mm."
You took a slow step closer.
Gwayne's back hit the wall and your sleeve brushed the front of his doublet as you slowly raised your hand.
His next breath stuck somewhere halfway in.
"What's the matter with you?" you asked softly.
"Nothing."
You reached up and smoothed an invisible crease from his collar.
His chest started to rise a little deeper.
"You could have warned me in the great hall," you pressed your palm firmly against his chest. "Why bring me here?"
"I..." His voice faltered. "I thought it best."
His eyes finally lifted to yours, then, despite himself, they dipped to your mouth.
It was only an instant but long enough to make you smile again.
"So..." you murmured, feeling his heart racing beneath your hand. "You didn't bring me here because you wanted to kiss me?"
"...No," he said, almost breathless, “I would never presume…”
"Liar," you murmured, "I think you've been wanting to do it for quite some time."
He opened his mouth to protest.
You didn't give him the chance, rising onto your toes, you pressed your lips to his. A soft moan crushed against your lips as your tongue slipped into his mouth.
When you finally drew back, his cheeks were crimson, his hair had fallen slightly across his brow and all he could do was to blink at you in stunned silence.
"There."
You smoothed the front of his doublet where you'd rumpled it yourself.
"Now can we stop pretending you dragged me in here to discuss Dornish diplomacy."
