My heart and mind is at dusk nearly dark, where my fear starts to creep in and I’ve become scared due to the fact there are so many challenges that ahead. Putting my best smiles and my best speeches to motivate myself that I can overcome these challenges ahead. I am nearly mentally drained a few times with broken faith like a friend to me at most times. I am deeply apologies to a few people that tried to cheer me up but failed as the phantom jeep creeps inside the parts of my brain even hunt me in my dreams. Surprisingly as a few people will be upset to know how inspiring @mercury_motg can be to me. I am never a fan but as I try to understand him, I feel pity of the poor soul that only meant to be found and loved. He try to make a spot here and made it big for the people around him and worldwide. I am deeply touched and relatable to this song. It stated the confusion state that we wished we can overcome by time and may I am one of the lucky ones soon enough. Am I gonna be a different person for 2019 we will see, and I can’t deny the fact I have been grown so much from the girl I used to be 8 years ago. May I will always be the best version of myself to the ones who deserves it. Keep searching for the positivity around me and I won’t stop searching for my sweet escape when needed some time off from the demands of the world. #queen #inspirations #hardlife #lightsahead #nevergiveup #nevergivein #pressure #realpain #scarless #grown #adultlife #brokenfaith #rejoice #freddiemercury #brianmay #rogertaylor #johndeacon #ramimalek #benhardy #gwilymlee #joemazzello #bohemianrhapsody @bohemianrhapsodymovie @officialqueenmusic xx https://www.instagram.com/p/BrYH76Thk2d/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=13a74arm0t8hv