buck, grieving, stricken with jealousy that he didn’t get trapped in the lab with his captain. jealous of hen and chimney and ravi, that they got to spend cap’s final hours in his care. wishing his lung had collapsed, that his oxygen tank had depleted, that his organs had failed. wishing bobby had to stick a finger through his muscle, wishing his body bled out through his nose.
Personal opinion time but I kind of hate „Ferrus ate rocks and Night Haunter ate rats!“-jokes. In part it is just joke-oversaturation but also, someone having to eat gross/barely edible things because they would otherwise die of starvation isn‘t that funny in my opinion
*cr./To the creators of the media used in this post.
This one was a monster to tackle. One more of his 2:30 hr. lives. How this man does these lives is beyond me.
Truthfully, this could have fit into a one parter. But you see, there are just so many moments happening I didn't want you to miss out on, that I decided to split it into 2 parts.
So, lots to talk about, not so much as in heavy big substantial and more as in cute, entertaining and adorable.
And even though it's a long one, it's not one of those heavy lives where you need to be attentive the whole time. It's more about the vibe in this one, and that vibe can be described in one word:
A pleasure.
I lied. 2 words then.
JK started the live 5.8.2023 at 1:41 am KST.
So for number we have:
5+8+13
2+2+3+1+1+4=13
13
or another option:
5+1+4+1=11
8
8/11
1:41 am a little early for him, eh? But this was him coming down (or perhaps not just yet) from the adrenaline rush of being on stage not that long before.
I was a little surprised at first him spending that high with us and not with JM, but then knowing that JM was performing the next evening, had a log day in front of him, not to mention probably not wanting to get him sick (you could feel the strain on JK’s voice during his performance), nor have JM deal with same voice issues he was dealing with before his performance, it made total sense that JK stayed away.
So JK is still hyped up from the performance and he’s doing the live from a new location at Brunnan, his room. He starts out the live by telling us that, and that he wants to do the lives from one location and he set this up especially for this purpose.
And let’s talk about this for a second now. He dressed the shelves up. He placed things on the shelves he wanted us to see. Perhaps taking off those he doesn’t want us to see. He’s pointing at the middle shelf, where Suga’s album is. This is his rookies autographed albums too. He knows we dissect every little thing w see in the lives. And he put that Silk sonic album right at the top, over his shoulder, so no one misses it.
Details that pop at you right away:
He has Burn it playing (he feels so guilty he forgot the lyrics while performing).
He has the Silk sonic album on the shelf behind him.
He has something from JITB on one of the shelves And Yoongi’s album as well.
Later on in the live he opens up Suga’s album, after laughing that he could have written something for him other than Jungkook, lol.
Also noticeable is what’s missing – FACE.
That one album he has been hyping for the past several months. But I guess you don't need a signed album when you have the actual singer at home with you.
JK opens with telling us he performed at Yoongi’s concert and he was so nervous, not being on stage like that for a while.
He was nervous so he messed up the lyrics at the beginning.
It’s amazing how hard he is on himself.
Like us, we don’t even care. We got to see him on stage. He sang with Yoongi and performed Seven. Win win. So, he forgot a few words at the beginning of the song, so what?
But to him, it's not only a fail, it's him letting down Yoongi, and it's eating at him. And he just cannot let it go.
Oh, and by the by he’s wearing the ring on the necklace again. Which he will be asked about further on during the live.
Yeah, so he’s being hard on himself.
He’s asked about his cold, says he’s taken medicine for it. And later he confirms that indeed he is still suffering from that pesky cold that will just not go away. Later on in the live JK is asked again about his cold, answers yes, he still has it but is taking medicine.
Since it was Suga’s concert he starts the playlist with D-day the album.
He’s so disappointed in himself, calling himself an amateur. He says he was overpowered by army’s screams. I just wish he would give himself more slack, but that’s just the way he is.
I guess he needed to come vent. But maybe also needed some of us to tell him it’s ok, which I’m sure there were those that did. More comment of that kind than he actually reads out aloud for us.
He goes off camera, breaks some dishes in the kitchen… I’m joking…or am I?
Comes back with his tumbler and his drink (probably his usual).
Takes him a bit (way more than a bit) to let go of it (his 'messing up'). He’s doing it all with a smile, but still not letting it go.
Next time he won’t make mistakes…
Hey JK, did you forget that you are human???
JK explains it took a while to go live after he got home from the concert as he was fixing up the internet and setting up the room for the live.
He wanted to go live to talk about the things that happened that day.
He had a recording and then did the concert.
*Interesting as of its own. Recording for the album? What kind of a recording? Of course he doesn't tell us.
He ends by saying the ending (of the day) wasn’t good and slaps his thigh (not the last time he does that, just one of those things one sometimes does when they are angry at themselves or disappointed in themselves).
He tells us that he has no schedule the coming morning.
But you see, he's too hyped up and angry at himself to rest.
Army try to tell him we didn’t even notice, he’s still not buying it, lol.
Do you think we didn’t get stupid ass comments during the live?
Of course we got them. Ian being one of them (and not only once either). No matter how many times he’s asked to stop with this stupidity, it just keeps going on. Once is funny. Twice amusing. Three times annoying. Anything more is just plain infuriating, even more so after asked to stop with it.
JK’s asked to play his favourite song for army but says he has to play Suga’s songs. Man is trying to repent, lol.
But he really is upset. He talks about while performing Seven, had one of his ear pieces out so all he could hear was the drum and he felt he was singing off key. He doesn’t think it was the sound system, but his mind was out of it.
He goes to look for the performance uploaded to YT by army (naughty) and watches it, and again so harsh on himself.
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He’s not happy with his performance and stops it towards the end of Seven. He is amused though by the fans at the concert singing the “fucking” version…
So, JK is reading comments, not reacting too much. We’re close to 30 minutes in and there was a handful of comments maybe that he read out. Makes you wonder if it’s because he’s still caught up in the whole “I fucked up” thing or that the comments are pure crap. Probably a combination of the two.
He wants to have a concert.
Me too JK. I want him to have a concert.
But he keeps going back to burn it. Should have practices more. Disappointed.
Do we see a theme to this live yet?
At this point you can see he’s getting even more upset.
And then he decides to change the angle of the camera cause his right side is better, lol.
You think he's done with the concert?
No sir.
At this point JK starts asking if he can do it again tomorrow.
He starts by throwing the question into the air several times. Then he asks staff members if he can have a chance to redeem himself, as he has a resting day the next day.
Nope, he's not done.
Because then he tries to get army to talk to the company.
Like what about suga? Shouldn’t he be the one to decide about this? Lol. Oh wait, then he tells army to call Suga. Lmao.
He goes on with a little emotional manipulation on us: “do it! We are friends. No?” Lol.
See what's going on here? Yeah, JK's terrified of Yoongi. Lol.
He continues saying that if it was his concert he’d be ok, but because it’s yoongi’s…it’s kind of rough.
For all those that are all about : if he’s JM’s bf he should have known JM is performing the next day. Well duh – of course he knows. Doesn’t mean he doesn’t want to redeem himself. He knows he probably can’t, that there is another member going on, and that’s why he’s ‘trying’ every way possible to maybe make it happen. He’s saying the words, but let’s be serious here for a second. He isn’t really expecting to get a yes as an answer. Wait a little longer, cause it gets better.
People keep asking him about food. Poor man. Just leave him alone, he's fasting. Well, trying to. Really really hard. And it's a real struggle too. Just wait and see.
Then he’s asked about the necklace.
Here's what JK had to say about the necklace.
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Ok, so here are my thoughts about this one.
Let's start with the way JK says "I don't think so. It shouldn't be" the necklace from Seven while checking it out, is really strange.
And truthfully, it really does look more like the ring JM has on his necklace in Like crazy.
So, strangely ‘someone’ gave it to JK in the past, we don’t know when or what for, and it strangely happens to be very similar if not exactly the same as the ring on JM’s necklace which he wore for Like crazy MV. Story could very well be true. His reasoning for wanting it or liking it sounded a little, how should I put it? Ehm… odd. It’s also the facial expression while thinking what to say that felt a little off to me.
But here's the thing. The chain, it doesn't seem to be the same, but the ring, it looks really similar. We are assuming that the ring on the chain is JM's to begin with because we first saw it in Like crazy. What if the ring was JK's to start with? And JM wearing it in his clip was having a part of JK with him while filming the MV?
We already know that the ring on the chain JK is wearing in Seven is not the same s the one we saw on JM in Like crazy. What if that ring is actually JM's? What if that's why JK was so quick to say that the Seven ring "shouldn't" be the one he has on?
A lot of What ifs, and a lot of possible delusional thinking. And yet, I know I'm going to be on the look out for JK's Seven ring around someone else's neck or on his finger.
To those that thought maybe, or those who are spreading stories about a tour:
From the horse’s mouth.
Someone writes a lovely comment, which he thanks them for.
“Take care of yourself… I am worried but proud."
He says “thank you”, and
It was!
See? That’s how it should be. Not bloody Ian or touch your nose or marry me or other sorts of fuckery.
JK starts to explain that he has a gaming room. But since he doesn’t game anymore (there we have it one more time), he brought the Wi fi from the pc room into the living room. Brought it (I’m assuming the router) and connected it again. Wi fi didn’t really work well in the bedroom. He connected a Wi fi extender outside the bedroom and it didn’t work well. He put it into the bedroom and it’s working. So now he’s able to do lives in his room. “It’s so nice…” and wait for it, cause here it comes again…
And here I am asking myself why? Why not do the live in the pc room where you say you had proper working Wi fi? Was there something there you didn’t want us to see or was there something in the bedroom you wanted us to see?
Or, and here it comes again, is this all to tell us and show us how he has made a total disconnect from gaming.
Listen, you could have called me delusional the first time I said JK was adamant to tell us he has stopped gaming (with Tae and the Woogas), back when he first said he's selling his computer cause he ain't playing games anymore. Maybe even the second and third time he told us that and I was "yeah, this is clearly him sending us a message, hammering it in again and again". But now, seriously. If there is anyone that isn't seeing it they are wearing blinders. JK has been hammering this in for the last 4 lives at least:
"I AM NOT PLAYING GAMES";
"I AM NOT GAMING ANYMORE";
"I AM NEVER GAMING AGAIN";
"I DISMANTLED MY GAMING ROOM, DISCONNECTED THE ROUTER AND MADE SURE THERE IS NO MORE WI FI THERE";
"I HAD PROPER WI FI IN THE GAMING ROOM BUT DECIDED TO DISCONNECT IT ALL AND MOVE IT TO MY ROOM AND DO THE LIVES THERE, CAUSE I AIN'T GAMING NO MORE, LIKE EVER AGAIN AND IT'S ABOUT TIME YOU GET THAT THROUGH YOUR HEADS."
Oh, and did I mention that he repeated it twice here. That he doesn't play games anymore? Within a span of a minute or so?
So yeah, think what you will, JK ain't playing games no more. Like ever. And you know who he was connected to be playing games with in the past few months? No need for guessing. Tae and the Woogas. So guess who he ain't playing games with no more.
43 minutes in JK is still at himself for forgetting the lyrics.
And again wants to go back tomorrow, lol. Doesn’t need to sing Seven, just Burn it.
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At this point we are almost ¾ of an hour into the live. Man is not giving up.
Ok, so now he’s talking about infiltrating the concert and just going on stage, lol.
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And then this:
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LMAO.
He’s hungry, wouldn’t have guessed it…
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And he takes us on a walk through the house to the kitchen…
Ok, so now we know for sure the location of his bedroom.
Plays with the light in the lounge. I do get how when you have multiple light switches you can forget which is which, I do it all the damn time. And his reactions to the light.
So finally we reach the kitchen after a bit of a walkabout and then asks army to help him decide if to eat or not, or more so “is there any army who will stop me?” lol. He wants to eat. But he hopes army stop him.
he decides against eating something after remembering he already ate ‘today’, the 4th (well technically it’s the 5th already so he didn’t actually eat yet, lol). It ain’t easy this intermittent fasting, even more so his way of 1 meal a day. I think he said he’s doing 20-4 or 22-2 which are both super hard, especially for someone as active as he is.
And then remembers he has to wash his towels and put them in the dryer. But gets distracted and starts to vacuum. And where exactly he was vacuuming I have no idea, he went and disappeared into the butler’s pantry/laundry.
And then he’s talking to himself about having less towels than he thought he had, still off camera.
Towels in dryer (?) and now we are back, not eating and on our way back to his room.
We’re back in the room and he’s still dreaming about that makguksu.
He finally kind of lets go of it around 1 hour into the live, saying he really needs to let it go. Although he does still talk about it.
Happiest moment in life? “when I see army”.
The reason he likes concerts, of course he likes singing and dancing and performing, but army is the reason he likes it the most.
And this is when Yoongi makes an appearance.
My guess, she said laughingly – either staff or a one Park Jimin (who was supposed to be asleep) called Yoongi to tell him “go take care of this. End it once and for all”. Lol.
Yoongi in the comments.
JK asks again if he can come tomorrow and Yoongi says no, JK laughingly disappointed.
Answers yoongi of course he’s excited meeting army after so long. But then he’s upset about messing up, so how does he think he feels.
Sorry. Sorry brother!
He was scared by army screams, and it’s been such a long time he was overwhelmed and blanked out. He compliments yoongi, yoongi goes.
"Yoongi said I can’t go tomorrow. He said no. why can’t I?"
Ok, so I guess this is where I'll be cutting off part 1 of this 2 part post.
Should we call part 1 D-day regrets?
And if part 1 is D-day regrets, would part 2 be D-day blues? Or perhaps Makguksu blues?