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Ok, so. My housemates are all toxic idiots. Which I kind of already knew. The thing is, I am done taking it.

Long story short, I am currently on an extremely stupid one-person crusade with the goal of getting them to ask me twice a week how I am doing. I will fail. I know that. The problem is, I have been accepting the silent treatment for three years and a half at this point and I. Just. Can't. Any longer.

The story will end with me moving out, and I know that. But before that, things will get rough.

Not to be the person to beg for attention online, but I am absolutely going to beg for attention online. If you have been following my blog long enough to feel like you've formed any kind of parasocial relationship with me, PLEASE send me some asks or whatever saying nice things about me as a person. The person part is important, because this current situation is very good at making me feel worthless at best and a bad person at worst.

I am going to queue this post for once a week-every two weeks for the next few months, just so that it remains in circulation.

#sorry to have to do this but others are forced to beg for money so whatever #the discussion is kind of going as follows:#Me: Hey I am super unhappy with the way things are and I would need for you guys to pay some more attention to me #They: Well that is unreasonable we all work and have our own lives we can't just spend all your energy on you #Me: Yeah I get it but maybe you could ask me twice a week how I am doing?#Here is a list of subjects that you can ask about like books I'm reading or projects I'm working on #They: Well that sounds absolutely draconian and now I feel like you are forcing me as a person to fit an arbitrary mold #and spend all this time and energy on subjects THAT YOU KNOW I DON'T CARE ABOUT HOW DARE YOU have such unreasonable demands!#Me: ...it's about two times two minutes a week. You can also send a message on WhatsApp if you prefer I get that we are all living our live #They: I can't do interaction that is in any way artificial it's either spontaneous or not at all #Me: So we both have these things called 'phones' where you can send a message at any time also our rooms are right next to each other..?#I haven't heard anything since but seriously FUCK THOSE PEOPLE #so yeah they are not going to change and everyone who would be in a position to help refuses to or just blames me for being so damn needy #yeah that was a big traumadump but I feel really desperate and also angry #personal #this is multiple people btw #a mother and her adult son to be precise the third housemate hasn't answered so far and I don't think she will #The Housemate Situation™

think people should draw more dramatic art of kairi with the damn master xehanort 'some pronounce it kye'' thing especially since like.

"Death... A letter that spells endings." when kairi's game chronologically is the last game in the 'dark seeker saga'. in the world of kingdom hearts her name is literally x-ri basically, and she capstones the series with her presence.

#nomura i am handing you money to make good on the audacious stuff that you ended up implying re: kairi.#seriously though if you think there's nothing going on w/ kairi you flat-out have not been paying attention. <3 #the issue is the writers do not like her so they keep writing stuff that should make kairi conceptually /bonkers/ but then refuse to linger #like. TECHNICALLY SPEAKING. kairi is 1/20th of a legendary sword.#and while the new seven lights thing is whatever i think kairi being that /consistently/ is wild.#invidia hort talk

Always an "honorary" manager, never a real one

#If I had a nickel for every time I've had a made-up or like “social” managerial position I'd have like four fucking nickels #Actual genuine management positions I've held? Zero.#Literally All I want is to be acknowledged at my jobs #All I've ever wanted #Bakery for example. My Own Manager refers to me as The Assistant Manager #But I do not have the title or the pay of one. I am a fucking powerhouse at the bakery #I literally do the jobs of like 3-4 people at a time when I'm there #I see the daily sales and it's not like we don't make enough to support having 1 Manager (Zach) and 1 hypothetical Assistant Manager #Seeing the daily sales btw is something ONLY MANAGERS are supposed to be able to do #I've been here long enough. I have great relations with everyone including customers #I can disassemble and reassemble every piece of equipment in this store. I know the food safety laws. I make us money #I have a key to the fucking store. I'm one of the only people allowed to work alone in the store. I bring the deposits to the bank #so WHAT AM I DOING WRONG. WHAT MAKES ME UNWORTHY #Am I too young? Too gay? Too nice?#It's been like this at every fucking job I've ever had #The only job where I feel like I wouldn't be a great manager right now is my Other Job since there's parts I still don't fully understand #And that's the job I feel like is the fairest in terms of managerial balance. They'd make me a manager if I thought I could do it well #But we're both aware of my flaws there #But like when I was at Other Job's Sister Company. They did the same thing with “honorary” manager #I did Sister Company job (seasonal location) for three years in a row. And I'll do it again this year #I know Sister Company Job inside and out. But they keep refusing to make me an Assistant #I don't get it #ripley rambles #the bakery #other job #worse job #Worse Job did it the worst. They just straight-up lied to me for like a year about making me a shift lead. I can't believe I'm going back #I'm so mad #Sister Company

ohhhh my god. okay. so. my aunt does like, she buys random junk in bulk from retail wholesalers and then resells it on like, facebook marketplace and ebay and stuff. whatever. so my mom works for her. makes a flat $50 a day, regardless of the fact that shes disabled and doing hard labor for at least 8 hours a day, often 10+. and min wage here is $10 an hour but mom argued that $50 a day is still more than what she would make working the same hours at an actual job because of taxes...like girl that would be 50% taxes. you do not pay that fucking much. so thats already Bad.

but today mom shows me a video of a knife theyre gonna sell, and i watch 2 seconds and i realize its an automatic knife, and i tell her hey. thats illegal to possess in this state. let alone sell! and mom is like ohhh [aunt] knows what shes doing itll be fine.... we sell knives on there all the time she just doesnt put pictures and calls them something else on the listing to get around fb/ebays policies :)

LIKE. HELLO. THATS NOT BETTER. YOURE COMMITTING MULTIPLE CRIMES. *AS YOUR JOB.* and she was just like "its not a big deal she knows what shes doing." folks, this is the same aunt that, very illegally, paid me to sort through her clients confidential tax documents and bank records and stuff. because she works for a bank. and took the records home to sort them. i dont think she DOES know what shes doing, actually!

#why do both of my parents need to be so impressively incompetent. i like. cannot find the words for how . i feel about this #like. idc about crimes. go forth. be free. but maybe. just maybe. you should not make your job #“hi today i will post about how i am selling illegally possessed objects on a widely used public forum”#dont do crimes STUPID. yanno.#in other parent news. its now like. month 6 or so of dad refusing to get his insurance reinstated.#hes been on the same step (taking his paystubs to the dhhr office) for like 3 months?#anyway apparently he found out today/last night that when he was a kid he was diagnosed with gastroparesis !#which is like ! cool! you have a diagnosis AND ive been living with that for 16 years and can help you 🥰#but we were sitting there with mom (this was right before the knife thing) and she was like “well you gotta get your insurance now so you #can get on the right meds“ and dad was like yeah ill go....#and mom was saying well go in the morning when they open etc etc and he was like i will #and i pointed out that just two weeks ago i told him that too. and he didnt want to. bc hed lose money due to not being able to work #and mom was like well he doesnt work at 8am. and i was like yeah i know but i told him to go at 8am two weeks ago and that was his response #and then he proceeded to claim that this whole time he didnt know they opened at 8am.#folks. he doesnt start working until like...usually 10 or so. WHAT GOVERNMENT OFFICE DOESNT OPEN UNTIL 10.#PLUS. WE LIVE IN A RURAL HOUR. *BUSY* TAKES LIKE AN HOUR. MOST OF THE TIME YOURE IN AND OUT WITHIN 20 MINITES.#ive been fucking considering PAYING HIM to go get it.#and then he claims he didnt know it opened at 8am. when i have told him that. MULTIPLE TIMES.#WHY DO THEY HAVE TO BE LIKE THISSSS THEYRE THE MOST IMMATURE ADULTS IVE EVER MET AND THATS IMPRESSIVE!!!#IVE KNOWN PEOPLE WHO PAY THEIR RENT IN COKE OR WHO ARE ESSENTIALLY PROFESSIONAL PARTIERS. AND *THEYRE* MORE RESPONSIBLE AND MATURE THAN MY #PARENTS. SO WHAT GIVES.#also theyre 50 like cmon yall. youre not even 20 or 30. i think you should know how to not like. get your job shut down or die of lack #of medication.#did i tell yall one of the times a few months ago i was nagging dad abt getting his insurance #his response was literally. no exxageration.#he was like oughhh i dont wanna see doctors because then theyll find out somethings wrong with me #and ill have to go on a bunch of medication.#and then he actually for real. said.#“being on too many medications killed my grandma”#even mom was like cmon man. thats not even true. they misdiagnosed her and put her on WRONG meds. she wasnt even on that many.

found out today at work that i’m going to be designing a presentation deck to help our sales team pitch services to the retail chain i worked for 5 years ago, which would cost like 2.5x more per MONTH for a single service in the bundle we’re pitching than i used to make in an entire YEAR as an employee at said retail chain. shout out capitalism

#bernie meme ‘i am once again begging [REDACTED] for money’#it blows my mind what companies who refuse to pay their workers more than barely above minimum wage #will blow fat stacks on for executives and white collar office staff #also my annual bonus at my current job is literally almost as much as i used to make in a year at that retail job #this whole thing has me fully spiraling about the passage of time #like…..i was truly living an entirely different life 5 years ago which bares little to no resemblance to my current life #alexa play tame impala new person same old mistakes #anyway the entire time i am forced to look at this sales deck i will be thinking abt the fact #that i’m directly responsible for at least 5 of their documented OSHA violations and fines #job blogging

Uuuu

Old people problems but in a 20 smthn year old

Why?!!

#wacco vents #tw medical #for the tags #anyways #my back has been killing me #the only thing that helps is me taking pain meds #but I dont want to be taking pain meds the rest of my life u feel me?#this has been going on for 2 months #but the fuckin problem is my medical insurance still refuses to assign me the doctor i want and sends me 2 hours away (driving)#to this fuck all doctor who I had before and doesnt listen to my concerns as his patient #so now im fucking struggling to get pain relief of a thing thats been hapoening for 2 months #like i am struggling #and I dont want to go to the er again becausw that means that I am going to be paying that out of pocket #and I dont have that money since everything thag I have rn is going towards my student loans #so yeah #so death and pain T.T

GOOD VIBES FOR DEAN’S BIRTHDAY GOOD VIBES FOR DEAN’S BIRTHDAY GOOD VIBES FOR DEAN’S BIRTHDAY

#that being said i just went Over There #and. can i say i’m so very tired of them labeling tumblr ‘an adult fandom space’ because it’s simply not true #like i AM an adult (yes n*ncy 23 does count as an adult. i pay my own rent with money from my own job while i do grad school. shocker)#young people like spn too. it doesn’t get to be liked exclusively by older white women who pride themselves on shipping *ncest right from #the pilot episode. sorry but it doesn’t work that way #and bullying a minor because ‘they didn’t tag correctly’ is ridiculous #tumblr’s tagging system STILL makes no sense to me and i’ve been here on and off for eight years #AND y’all are the ones who made up these arbitrary rules and refuse to bl tags you don’t like #believe it or not destiel IS a part of spn so tagging a destiel post with spn is not some heinous crime #it’s also the completely reductive idea of ‘kids these days are stupid’ when it’s really something more like #‘kids these days have opportunities and access that i didn’t and thus are more likely to disagree with me which i hate and am jealous of’#ANYWAY younguns who follow me i hope you know that fandom spaces especially spn are for you also #you literally can have started watching in nov bc of a meme and still ‘be a fan’#there’s no such thing as a ‘good’ or ‘real’ fan #just block them. honestly truly just go and block them all. as many as you can find #curate your fandom space to be a positive experience for you and if you get hate on a post just block them #i can’t even tell you how many you know whos i have blocked. low hundreds AT LEAST #uhhhh anyway this got away from me i’m just protective of young people bc i’m going to teach y’all (although. idk if there are #many middle schoolers on here bc that’s my age range. still)#anyway anyway happy birthday good vibes to dean! minors you are welcome on the destiel side of things! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAN!!!!

Low-key want to give away all my money and walk into a forest and never return

#I don't have much money #yet I feel like a piggy bank for useless things #I watch people neglect their bills and buy shit they don't need #and then I have to step in #and then they literally burn their money #like it's nothing #and when I say no then I am the worst person on this planet #A certain someone owers me over a thousand euros #a lot #I stopped counting years ago #and when I say no that I won't give more because I need it myself #everyone pressures me until I say yes #fuck everyone #fuck this place #I am so fucking done #sorry for ranting but I have no one to talk to about this really #and I hate seeing how person A borrows money from me for things A doesn't need #then A uses his money on person B for things person B doesn't need #and person A refuses to pay his bills so the responsibility falls on me and one more person #yes sure buy cigarettes worth 300 euros every month #but screw your fucking rent #fuck off #fuck this shit I hate money #also christmas is cancelled

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