2, 9, 32, and 36??? Have a nice day, G!
Thank you, Lili! You too!
2: Talk about your first kiss.
*le sigh* It has yet to happen. But, seeing as I’ve never had a boyfriend, it kinda makes sense.
However there was one time a friend of mine and I were talking about a movie kissing scene. We were fifteen, and I asked him if he’d ever kissed anyone. Instead of answering, he replied, “Have you?” I shook my head no, and before I could think, he’d grabbed my head, and leaned towards me, placing his hand over my mouth. A second later, I was staring at him wide eyed while he laughed at my expression.
Yeah, that’s the closest I’ve ever come to being kissed.
9: Talk about little things on your body you like the most.
Umm… I have really curly hair. It used to really bother me because I didn’t know what to do with it. I would straighten it most days. Over the past year or so I’ve learned how to take care of my hair. It’s gone from something I despise to something I really enjoy about myself. I’ve grown to love my curly hair.
Also, I have my mother’s eyes. I take after my dad’s side of the family in looks, but my eyes are my mother’s. I’ve always liked that I have that similarity with her.
32: Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.
I overthink, and it drives me insane. I can’t let anything go. I can’t make what should be simple decisions.I can’t talk to anyone because I convince myself I’m just being dramatic, or I’m worried I’m a horrible person for feeling certain things. I read too deep into little things people do or say. I can’t talk to anyone without analyzing the conversation repeatedly for months to come.
Last year on Christmas Eve, I was put into a very difficult, frustrating, and stressful conversation, and to this day I am still replaying the entire thing in my head, wondering what would have happened if I said something different. Wondering what the other person meant by a certain phrasing. It’s been nearly a year- I will never see that person again; yet I’m still playing that night on repeat.
36: Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier.
I wish I’d known it’s okay not to be happy all the time.
I wish I’d known I don’t have to feel guilty for my emotions.
I wish I’d known that there are people who love being silly as much as I do.
I wish I’d known that just because I’ve known someone my whole life, it doesn’t mean they’re a good friend.
I wish I’d known to start learning Spanish sooner.
I wish I’d known that being ‘weird’ is never something to be ashamed of.
I wish I’d known that my sister would be okay.
I wish I’d known to read Percy Jackson sooner.
I wish I’d known I would survive 2011.
I wish I’d known that I’m not alone- that not everyone thinks I’m a freak.
I wish I’d known that Ginger Ale and white grape juice makes the best drink ever.
I wish I’d known that it’s okay to be different.