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[lilliangst]

here’s a series of illustrations i did for my junior thesis last semester, based on the book “This Is How You Lose the Time War” that I had made into a physical book 👉👈

i also made a character sheet — i understand that the book is kinda meant to be pretty abstract, so red and blue arent really supposed to have fixed forms. but i had to come up with something to draw for my style of illustration 🫠 i hope i did them justice somewhat

i didnt have time to finish the last illustration which was a shame bc i felt like it would have wrapped up the series perfectly, but heres the sketch of what i planned for it to look like

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Part 2/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 1

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life

STAGE 2: AUTONOMY VS. SHAME/DOUBT (2-3 YEARS)

VIRTUE: WILL

STAGE 3: INITIATIVE VS. GUILT (3-6 YEARS)

VIRTUE: PURPOSE

During these stages, we begin interacting with our environment. In Stage 2, we test our body's ability and limits. We start practicing self-care and taking personal responsibility for our actions. In Stage 3, we start executing our thoughts and ideas and learn about boundaries in the process. This is also the stage where we form our first non-familial relationships. Adulf criticism and encouragement during this time affect our behavior immensely, and we require a balance of both.

Relationships: Caregivers, Teachers, Peers

Events: Toilet Training, Clothing Ourselves, Playing and Exploring Ideas and Creativity

Stage 2 Outcomes: A sense of control over ourselves and the ability to act independently. Or, excessive shame in making mistakes, leading to over-dependence and low self-esteem. Bad sense of boundaries for self and others.

Stage 3 Outcomes: A willingness to try new things, face challenges, and be curious, all while respecting boundaries. Or, guilt about desires, leading to a lack of initiative

This project will be displayed at the SVA senior show exhibition, located at the SVA Chelsea Gallery, 601 West 26th Street, 15th floor, New York, NY, 10001 from April 2nd to April 12th !! (open 10am-6pm, closed on Sundays and Mondays). It’s at a really confusing location but if anyone is in the area and would like to go visit, i plan on going there on the 4th 🥹

[lilliangst]

part 3/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 2

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life, based on Erik Erikson’s theory

STAGE 4: INDUSTRY VS. INFERIORITY (7-11 YEARS)

VIRTUE: COMPETENCE/CONFIDENCE

We start going to school regularly and spend a lot of time with peers of the same age. As we compare ourselves with them, we develop pride or shame about our abilities and accomplishments. Under the stress of social and academic demands, we need to learn how to regulate our emotions and self-esteem when met with defeat and rejection.

Relationships: Caregivers, Teachers, Peers

Events: School, Examinations, Competitions, Failures, Successes

Outcomes: Confidence in our abilities. A healthy balance between feeling proud or inferior, helping us achieve our goals and get through setbacks. Or, a deep sense of inferiority that may hold us back from opportunities and growth.

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part 5/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 4

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life, based on Erik Erikson’s theory

STAGE 6: INTIMACY VS. ISOLATION (19-40 YEARS)

VIRTUE: LOVE

During this stage, we start to develop lifelong, well-meaning and mutual relationships with others: platonic and romantic. This requires vulnerability, trust, respect, and commitment.

Relationships: Friends, Partners

Events: Romantic Relationships, Friendships

Outcome: A lack of close relationships, struggle with committment, loneliness, isolation, depression.

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Part 1/10 of my senior thesis project which i’ve been working on for the past year !! part 2

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life.

STAGE 1: TRUST VS. MISTRUST (0-1 YEARS)

VIRTUE: HOPE

At this stage, we are completely dependant on our caregivers for survival. We learn to trust and distrust the world around us depending on if we receive adequate and consistent food, love, warmth, and safety. A balance of knowing when to trust and when to be cautious should be achieved.

Relationships: Caregivers, Adults

Events: Feeding, Caregiving and Abandonment

Outcomes: Develop attachment style to caregivers. Faith that basic needs can be met and that we are safe. Or, anxiety and fear that we are alone and unloved

This project will be displayed at the SVA senior show exhibition, located at the SVA Chelsea Gallery, 601 West 26th Street, 15th floor, New York, NY, 10001 from April 2nd to April 12th !! (open 10am-6pm, closed on Sundays and Mondays). It’s at a really confusing location but if anyone is in the area and would like to go visit, i plan on going there on the 4th 🥹

[lilliangst]

finally, part 10/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 9

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life, based on Erik Erikson’s theory

STAGE 8: INTEGRITY VS. DESPAIR (65-DEATH)

VIRTUE: WISDOM

The last stage of our lives, where we reflect on the way we lived and the choices we made. Depending on how we feel about our life, we may be accepting or fearful about the thought of death. During this stage, we may revisit much of our past except this time, as an individual with total control. (e.g. old hobbies, reconnecting with people, etc.)

Relationships: Humanity, Self

Events: Retirement, Slowing Down, Self-reflection, Facing Mortality

Outcome: Satisfied and fulfilled with ourselves, the ability to accept death without fear, knowing that our life had a purpose

and there you have it, all 10 pieces posted. been working on this series for the past year and its downright the most taxing project i’ve ever done, partly because of some not-so-good things that happened in my life, partly because I was extremely harsh on myself and wanted everything to be perfect, and partly because i lost nearly all my drive to create for the past 2 years (unfortunately its due to being bombarded with ai and seeing the state of the art industry). but somehow, i pushed through it right before the deadline and i’m happy with most of the pieces.

This project will be displayed at the SVA senior show exhibition, located at the SVA Chelsea Gallery, 601 West 26th Street, 15th floor, New York, NY, 10001 from April 2nd to April 12th !! (open 10am-6pm, closed on Sundays and Mondays). It’s at a really confusing location but if anyone is in the area and would like to go visit it would be really cool🥹

[lilliangst]

part 6/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 5

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life, based on Erik Erikson’s theory

STAGE 6: INTIMACY VS. ISOLATION (19-40 YEARS)

VIRTUE: LOVE

During this stage, we start to develop lifelong, well-meaning and mutual relationships with others: platonic and romantic. This requires vulnerability, trust, respect, and commitment.

Relationships: Friends, Partners

Events: Romantic Relationships, Friendships

Outcome: Meaningful long-lasting relationships, intimacy, the ability to be vulnerable, and mutual dependence

[lilliangst]

part 9/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 8

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life, based on Erik Erikson’s theory

STAGE 8: INTEGRITY VS. DESPAIR (65-DEATH)

VIRTUE: WISDOM

The last stage of our lives, where we reflect on the way we lived and the choices we made. Depending on how we feel about our life, we may be accepting or fearful about the thought of death. During this stage, we may revisit much of our past except this time, as an individual with total control. (e.g. old hobbies, reconnecting with people, etc.)

Relationships: Humanity, Self

Events: Retirement, Slowing Down, Self-reflection, Facing Mortality

Outcome: Deep regret, dissatisfaction, bitterness, hopelessness and a fear of death