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Sad News

I don’t often share things about my personal life, but I really felt that I needed to tell you this. To go forward without mentioning it would feel like lying. I no longer have a cg.

My boyfriend has been my cg for one year, but a few days ago, we decided not to continue with that part of our relationship. He says that being both my caregiver and my romantic partner is hard for him, that it doesn’t feel right in his mind.

I always knew that this was a possibility, if not for this reason, then for another. I checked in with him whenever I could to see if he was ok being my cg, but he says that it’s something that creeped in over time. I’m still allowed to regress around him, and he still wants to be a carer/handler for my pet regressed self, but he won’t be a cg to little me anymore.

Honestly, I’m upset. I’m very upset. I’m so happy that he told me this; I would never in a million years want him to continue doing something for me that would make him uncomfortable, but at the same time I feel like I’m losing a piece of him. I’m grieving the loss of part of our relationship together. I feel so hurt and so lost. I don’t blame him for this, I don’t blame either of us, but no matter where the fault lies, this is still happening. I’m loosing my cg. And while he’ll still care for me in the ways he always has as my partner and friend, I know it will never be the same.

Please don’t message asking to be my cg. I’m not ready, and I may never be. I feel lost. I don’t know if I can ever have a caregiver again.l, all I know is that I need some time without one. I need some time to be with myself and my friends. To regress on my own and with other regressors, to cope, to heal.

Thank you for listening.

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I thought I lost my cat. He’s just a dumb little baby who loves to roll around in the middle of the road and hide under cars, and try to befriend coyotes, so I was really, really worried. We found him, though, and I’m so happy to have him home!

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I’m finally caught up on answering asks on all my many blogs!! This is such a relief!

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I’m a Bunny?

🐰 Soo, some of you probably know that I’m also a pet regressor. I’m a kitty cat, and in my kitten space, I’m called Kitty. But what you probably don’t know is that I’ve been questioning and exploring a bunny regression headspace, too! 🐰

🐰 I’ve always related to cats, like my whole life. In fact, my first time kitten regressing was when I was only 5 years old! And the first thing that struck me when I started to learn more about rabbits was how much they sounded like cats. So I kept exploring! I did research on behavior, diet, body language, and play styles; I watched videos and gifs of bunnies playing and interacting with humans, and though it all I learned that I really do identify with rabbits almost as much as I identify with cats. 🐰

🐰 I’ve been exploring my bunny space little by little, and building an image of what I think bunny-me would look like. I’ve also picked out a name for bunny-me, Bun, although I won’t be using it on tumblr because there are sooo many other people going by Bun or Bunny. So far, I’ve learned that Bun is super energetic, a bit anxious, and is constantly eating veggies and other snacks. Their nose is always twitching, and they chew on EVERYTHING. When they’re feeling safe, they flop on their side, and when they’re angry or pouting, they thump their feet. 🐰

🐰 I still haven’t speant too much time in this headspace, and I don’t have any gear yet, but I’m looking forward it. 🐰

Signed,

A little kitty bun named Kay! 🍼😸🐰

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The feels when you unblock the Steven Universe spoilers tags because there are no more spoilers...

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40. write your name with your non-dominant hand

Kay Pseudonym (my, well, pseudonym) written with my left hand.

Fun fact, I used to be ambidextrous, meaning I could write with both hands. My kindergarten teacher made me pick one because she thought using both would make me worse at handwriting? Wish my parents and I had never gone along with it. It’d be so cool to be able to write with both, and my handwriting’s pretty sucky, anyways. :P

Thanks for asking!

⭐️ Ask me ALL OF THE TINGS!! ⭐️

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I am so upset with this font change!! 😭😭😭

Look at this!!

Those emojis used to line up perfectly!! The closed requests text used to take up exactly one line! Those dividing lines used to be solid!! My whole aesthetic was thrown off!

And they didn’t even fix the glitch around adding links to text!!

I’ll get over it BUT RIGHT NOW I’M UPSET!!

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I’m not a dualcom little anymore.

So, update. This has been a long time comming, but I wanted to say it officially. I no longer feel connected to the cg1 community. Ever since my boyfriend told me that he didn’t want to be my caregiver anymore, I have not felt at all like I’m a part of the cg1 or age pl@y communities. I’m no longer in a cg1 relationship, and my subm!ssive and s3xual little spaces have shriveled up without a D0m.

I still support the cg1 community and dualcom littles, and I still identify as dualcom in other respects, but I will officially be dropping cg1 as one of my communities.

Nothing else is changing, I just wanted to let you guys know why cg1/age pl@y will be removed from my links.

Thanks for listening.