sometimes i feel like i am overthinking everything and maybe i am just cis and im just feeling like this because all my friends are trans but why would i be thinking about being trans so much if i was cis and why do i look at myself in the mirror and never see a woman ?
sometimes i feel like maybe i am a guy and saying i’m nonbinary is a form of denial or easier or a stepping stone but i know it’s just pressure from this extremely binary world and even if i am a guy that’s perfectly fine and i can change my mind
it just feels like i can’t be nonbinary sometimes because i almost never feel feminine at all and like maybe im a guy or trans masc or whatever but i also generally feel comfortable with the body i have now (until i think too hard about it of course) and although there are minor things i could change and things i have fantasies about i am very well aware of how hormones work and i know that it would not be possible to get what i want without getting other things i don’t really want.. so i’m cool fr now.
and also on being masc... am i masc because i truly am or is it a safety mechanism or is it a reaction to the world????
yes and then this cycle repeats.... i don’t have crippling dysphoria or hate myself so maybe im not trans but like???? im not a girl lmao have i met myself. determining i was nonbinary definitely was a lot about the way i’m learning i want to navigate the world and the way i love deeply and different things i think about in the dark.