Sorry if this question is really specific, but I have no idea who else we can ask about this.
Long story short, we’ve been stressed for a couple months now, but not stressed enough to split over it yet. The odd thing is, it’s consistently felt like we’re about to split this whole time. The metaphor we’ve been using is that somebody’s halfway done baking in the oven of our brain, but the oven keeps turning itself back off before it can actually make anything.
The obvious solution is take what little there is and examine what kind of person it could be, but the thing is, there’s not even enough “person” there to do that! We’ve tried talking to it, but there’s not even much of an “it” to talk to yet. It’s pretty much just vague anxious vibes that could possibly become somebody sometime??
We could also, theoretically, use thoughtform-making techniques to help them develop, but we’re self-conscious + anxious about growing in numbers, to the degree that we’re pretty sure we’ll freak out the second they become an actual person. Still, I somehow feel like we’re doing this non-existent “person” a disservice by not encouraging them— or whatever there is of them— to obtain personhood.
Is there even advice to be given for a situation like this? If there is, I appreciate it very much. If not, I entirely understand. Have a nice day/night either way :)
Hm... Can you communicate with it at all? If so, it may be best to ask it for its opinion on the matter. Granted, getting a response would likely be difficult and not as straightforward as "yes" or "no", but you may be able to get a general sense for what it would prefer. That should help with a lot of your concerns.
Another suggestion would be to give it time and see if things change when you're not as stressed. Sometimes, you can get hints of or the beginnings of a new headmate during times of stress that don't fully develop into their own selves until you're able to relax. It's similar to how the brain doesn't always process or reveal things until it feels it's in a safe enough space to do so. In this case, there's not much to do on your end except try not to worry about it and do your best to reduce the stress in your life. If a significant amount of time passes and nothing occurs, then I'd recommend revisiting your ideas on thoughtform-making techniques (or, since you're anxious about growing in numbers, fusion techniques that will allow one headmate or your collective as a whole to reabsorb the pseudo-split). ... And also maybe look into stronger ways of reducing stress, because living like that for an extended period of time doesn't sound very good for you.
Unfortunately, I don't have a lot of advice, but I hope this helps, anon!
