Summary: The morning after you and Lin spend your first night together. Sunlight, warmth, and the gentle moment of Lin learning what love looks like.
A/N: This story is so beautiful. So intimate. I'm gonna cry. It's very suggestive, but there's no explicit smut. <3
Word count: 3,4k
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Her hands are steady on your waist; her nails press against your skin, leaving half-moons as telltales of her presence.
There is something desperate about the way she pulls your body impossibly closer to hers, like she isn't sure you're really there and is trying to convince herself through your lips, through the warmth of how your skin presses messily against hers.
The bedroom is dark enough that all you see is a mere silhouette of Lin outlined by the silver moonlight spilling through the window. And even that is already enough to make you dizzy and addicted all at once.
She is alluring. Her mouth marks a path from the corner of your lips and down to your neck; her hands brush over your bare back without missing a spot as if she's committing each detail of you to memory; her chest presses intimately against yours, skin to skin; all you can possibly feel is her. And she is alluring.
Her body is pliant under your hands; her skin gives beneath your touch as though it were made only to be held by you. You kiss the edge of her mouth, and she rewards you with a sweet exhalation of your name. Your lips brush over her cheek, over the scars adorning her skin there, and Lin curls herself into you.
You couldn't tell where she ends, or where you begin. Body and soul too well tangled together.
Lin touches you like a starved thing, burying her nose into your skin and breathing you in. It leaves you wondering, for a moment, how long it had been since anyone held her like this; since anyone held her at all.
Too long, you guess. Because something damp falls against the skin of your shoulder, right beside where her lips are dutifully kissing you. The teardrop rolls down the path of your collarbone, between your breasts. And Lin's arms around you hold on a little tighter.
It's okay, you don't comment on it, even if your heart stumbles on its rhythm. Your hand tangles between her hair; you gently pull her up until your mouth finds hers again, and you catch her lower lip between yours.
Your hand traces over the skin of her waist until your fingertips find her spine, and you feel her shiver beneath the touch, beneath the press of your bare skin onto hers.
Your lips move in tandem with Lin's. Hungry and decidedly eager. Her hand is on your jaw when she turns her head to come closer still, bumping her nose against your cheek. Desperate, as if you'll slip from her grasp if she doesn't hold tight enough.
You feel it. You feel the cracks and scars of her heart when her lip trembles as it brushes yours. You feel it when you taste the salt of tears on her mouth.
It's okay. You hold her tighter, too.
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You are the first to wake up on the next morning, with soft sunlight gently kissing over your eyelids.
You blink your eyes open, lazy and still half asleep, with your body feeling the pleasant strain of last night. The first thing you see is the thin white curtain flowing just above your head, as the morning breeze arrives through the open window. The smell of fresh rain still lingers in the air, as the water slowly starts to dry out in the streets. Sunlight spills inside your bedroom, shining across messy bedsheets and naked skin.
A low hum escapes your lips as you brush the sleep from your eyes. Butterflies flutter in your stomach when you think of last night; when you remember whose hands roamed your body, and whose lips kissed your breath away.
You turn, already missing the person who lies just beside you.
Lin is lying with her back to you; the soft waves of her hair spill messily over the pillow, a stripe of sunlight touches the muscles on her arm, and you can see her chest rising and falling deeply. She still sleeps.
Her back is bare, and you notice the marks on her skin. Scars old and new, some bigger, others just a faint lighter line; all testimonies of something that touched her unkindly. And you find yourself wanting to press a kiss over each scar; wanting to soothe each memory of pain.
A wave of warmth floods into the space between your ribs and almost chokes the breath out of your lungs at the sight of her. You didn't think it was ever possible to love someone this much, to feel such affection that your heart hurts simply by looking at them. But Lin had always swept you off your feet, since the first time she met you, with a scowl on her face when Korra had dragged you into trouble.
Last night had been months in the making. Months of you and Lin sharing secret touches without a word spoken about it; months of lingering looks and what-ifs; months of you and Lin tiptoeing the edge of a blurred line yet never crossing it; months of you and Lin growing so inseparable that people became surprised when you had to say there was nothing more between you.
Maybe now, you'd be able to say there is something.
Ever so gently, you reach out a hand and touch Lin's back. Your fingertips are careful as you trace the outline of her scars. You wonder about the story of each one; you wonder which ones were painful, which ones still hurt.
Lin stirs slightly at your touch, her shoulders going a little tense. You watch as goosebumps slowly raise on her skin; and it makes you smile, all adoring and warm, because her reaction to you has always been something that belongs only to you.
You shift closer to her; the covers draped over your lower body tangle loosely between your legs. Your arm moves over Lin's waist until your hand finds her abdomen, and you close your grip around her, pulling her into you.
All you hear from Lin is a soft sigh. Her hand slowly finds your own, and she's tentative when she intertwines your fingers together—a stark contrast to the hunger she touched you with last night. Still, she keeps you there, keeps your arm around her when she brings your joined hands to her lips so she can press a timid kiss onto your knuckles.
You answer her with a kiss of your own. Your lips find a twisted patch of skin near her shoulder; there's a bigger scar there, looks a little deeper than some of the others. You press your mouth firmly against Lin, closing your eyes and breathing her in. Wisps of her hair tickle your nose when you linger there, and you nuzzle against her neck, pressing your front to her back.
"Good morning," you mumble, voice half muffled against Lin.
She takes a few beats to answer you. There's hesitation in the way she grips your hand tighter. Lin's thumb is moving softly back and forth against your skin, and she brings your joined hands closer to her chest for a moment.
You don't push her; you don't insist. You merely wait, because you know her; you've held her hand in silence enough times to know that past all that armor she wears on the outside lives a bruised heart that's been forgotten and hurt more than enough.
Eventually, Lin releases her hold on your hand, only so she can turn on the bed. She shifts until she's facing you; both her hands come to rest in front of her chest, while those bright green eyes of hers blink slowly at you. Her hair rests on the pillow around her and over her shoulder, the usually kept waves now messy and all over the place. She is bewitching.
Your arm is still draped over her waist, and you can't help yourself when you press your hand against her back and pull her into you again. You peck her lips in a chaste kiss; you missed the softness of those lips, the warmth of them against yours.
When you pull back again, a visible flush paints Lin's cheeks, resting just above her scars and softening her sharp features.
She averts her gaze, yet a small smile curls at the corner of her mouth; "Good morning." Her voice is quiet, as though to preserve the fragile bubble of intimacy still wrapped around this moment, tucked away from the rest of the world.
Your heart swells inside your chest. Your hand on her bare waist shifts up and down lazily, from the start of her thigh to just below her ribs. "I don't feel like getting up just yet, but maybe we could think about grabbing breakfast somewhere nice?" You suggest just as quietly, "There's a cute bakery nearby I've been meaning to visit."
Lin glances up at you; there's something painfully vulnerable in the glint of her eyes. You feel like, for once, she's standing completely bare before you, in more ways than merely physically.
She reaches out until her fingers brush your cheek, and her touch lingers there, the tip of her fingers tangling gently with a lock of your hair. She looks at you as if she's gazing at a dream, or a memory; as if she's longing for something just out of reach.
She smiles, and it's bittersweet and a little shaky. "That would be nice." Nothing about her sounds like the confident Chief Beifong most people know, and normally you adore this side of her that exists only with you; but now, the tightness of her voice sends a sharp twinge of pain to your chest.
Lin clears her throat, and suddenly she's curling her hand back against her chest and away from you. "But I should be leaving already; it's late." She tries to bring her usual composure back to herself, eyebrows pulling together slightly, but it doesn't quite work.
Lin pushes herself up then, surprising you with how quickly she sits on the bed. She grabs a fistful of the covers and pulls it up to her chest, covering her breasts—as if you hadn't kissed each part of her last night, over and over.
You blink up at her with a deep frown. The hand you had around her waist mere seconds ago is now hovering in the air with nowhere to go. "What? What do you mean?" With a loud groan, you push yourself up to sit beside her, running a hand through your bedridden hair. "Lin, it's a Sunday. There's no such thing as late; come on."
Lin keeps her gaze ahead, on the strips of sunlight bathing the room in golden light. Her knuckles are white with how tightly she's holding onto the covers. "There is to me."
Sometimes, you wish you could figure her out just a little easier. Still, you take her in; her hair seems a little longer than usual when it falls over her shoulders like this; her lips are redder, no doubt from how much you'd kissed them last night. But there's also a tremble to her hands, and you can't ignore the start of tears that are already clinging to her eyelashes, even if she refuses to look at you.
"Okay," you breathe. And you shuffle closer until your knee is resting above hers. Tenderly, you take hold of both of Lin's cheeks, turning her head until you can find her eyes with yours. "Lin, what's wrong?"
She holds the silence still, trying to look down despite your hands on her face, which squishes her cheeks endearingly.
You push aside rogue strands of her hair, allowing your thumb to trace the outline of her eyebrow with a tender touch.
"Hey, don't shut me out." You're kind when you speak to her, as if calming a skittish cat; she's had enough roughness in her life that all you want to offer is the opposite.
Lin tries to gulp back something that's pushing against the back of her throat, until her chin starts to wobble. Carefully, Lin's hands close around both your wrists, and she pulls your touch away from her even if it looks like it physically hurts her to do so.
"I never… I never asked if this was a one-time thing for you…" The words stumble out of Lin's lips in a choked mess, and you figure you're nothing but a blur of dark hair and sunlight in her vision, given the amount of tears in the bottom lid of her eyes, just a blink away from spilling, "I should have asked."
In truth, Lin doesn't know what to do with her own heart. She had tried to ignore how much it called your name. She had tried to dismiss her growing feelings for friendship; because spirits, you could do better. You could find someone younger, easier, lighter; like you.
Yet each time you came back to her, each time you took her hand or stole a hurried kiss behind a closed door, Lin held onto you as if you were air and she were underwater.
And last night happened on a whim, after shared laughs and a bottle of red wine. And for Lin, it had meant everything. When she'd carved her heart straight out of her chest and held it out for you last night, it had meant everything. But she'd forgotten to ask; what did it mean to you?
Lin blinks when you stay silent in front of her; your wrists still held in place by her hands and your mouth hanging open as you only stare at her. And she feels the first tear rolling down her cheek; sunlight glints off of it, and she turns her head away so quickly it hurts.
She can feel the haphazardly stitched cracks on her heart ripping open anew. Lin takes a deep, shaky breath. She lets go of your wrists to roughly dry off her cheeks; her touch is brash and unkind, as if she wants to punish herself for something.
"I understand if this was just a night of pleasure for you, but I can't-" Lin purses her lips; if she thinks hard enough, she can still feel the ghost of your kiss. But she knows, you couldn't possibly choose her for anything more than one night.
"I should leave," it falls as nothing but a breath past her lips.
Your hand finds her cheek again before Lin moves another inch. The pad of your thumb catches a tear that's fallen there, "Lin, step out of that fog inside your mind." Your worry escapes you unabashedly; there's something desperate hanging on the edge of each word, "Please, just look at me."
Lin is so aware of how close you are right now that she almost forgets how to breathe. She doesn't know what to do with kindness, especially not when it comes wrapped around your fingers. The warmth of your body rivals that of the sunlight seeping through the windows; the palm of your hand resting so securely against her cheek threatens to unravel Lin's fragile composure.
Her eyes are slow as they find a path to yours; her gaze shifts carefully over the skin of your stomach, your chest, the curve between your neck and shoulder that Lin had so dutifully kissed last night, until her gaze meets yours. And Lin feels strangely small, vulnerable; it's a foreign feeling. But it's with you; it doesn't scare her.
Lin bites back a gasp when she catches tears brimming in the corner of your eyes, too. There's relief in how your expression softens for her, and you pull her closer until your forehead rests gently against hers.
"If you leave right now, I promise you'll be taking my heart with you." Your quiet voice burns with a sudden rawness. Both your hands shift over to Lin's jaw, thumbs tracing the outlines of her features as if you want to commit each detail to memory. Your heart bleeds when you wonder how much Lin has been hurt already, for it to be so easy for her to doubt what you have is real; to the point of thinking that last night had been just a fling for you.
When you pull back, it's only so you can look at her as you speak, so she's able to catch the sincerity of each word. "After last night, I… I don't think I could ever spend another night without you." Both your hands trace a path down her bare arms until you can loosely tangle your fingers together. You shrug sheepishly after the confession, feeling heat creeping up your neck.
"Please don't say things like that if you don't-" Lin hesitates; a groan escapes her as her face momentarily twists into something almost annoyed—it's a bittersweet pair to the tears slowly painting a path down her cheeks.
Lin presses her eyes closed before finishing; "If you don't mean them." And she speaks in a hushed tone, like her admissions can't be uttered above a certain decibel level. It almost appears as though it's easier for her to be vulnerable with you if she doesn't have to look at you.
Her sudden fragility surprises you. In the same heartbeat, you answer. "But I do. Lin, I've had feelings for you for such a long time now," you tighten your grip on her hands, "After all we've been through, you must know that."
Hooded eyes meet your own once more; the familiar green swallowed up by dark, blown pupils; "You could have any man or woman you want, why would you choose me?"
A soft chuckle falls past your lips, and you shake your head slightly. And it's almost endearing, how innocent and young Lin looks right now. "Oh, Lin."
You let go of her hands, and both your arms go around Lin's shoulders instead. You're quick enough to catch her off guard and steal a small welp of surprise from her. You hold her tight when you throw yourself back down on the bed, bringing Lin down with you until you're once again a mess of tangled limbs and sheets.
Lin's hands go around your waist out of instinct, and she has no time to do or say anything before you're peppering her face with kisses. Your lips find her cheeks, the curve of her brows, the dried tear tracks on the side of her mouth, her eyelids, and her nose.
You don't stop loving on her until you get your prize; a small yet genuine laugh out of Lin. She buries her face into your neck, and you can sense your heart flutter in your chest when you feel the shape of Lin's smile against your skin.
You tighten your grip on her, holding her closer; only because you can.
There's something enchanting in how Lin eventually holds herself up on her elbows to look down at you as half of her body lies on top of you. Her legs tangle with yours, her bare chest is pressed warmly against yours, and her hair frames her face dreamily as it falls in waves beside her cheeks.
"Because, Lin," You start, gazing up into her eyes as if she holds the sun in her hands. And maybe for you, she does, because the golden light coming from the window shines like a halo behind her, and there's no one else in this world you adore more. "It's you my heart beats for." You reach for one of Lin's hands, placing it right above your chest, right above your racing heart that beats in the rhythm of her name.
Hardly daring to breathe, you whisper, "I think I'd choose you in all my lifetimes."
It's quiet, the way Lin basks in the love you've finally put on full display. But one last tear falls from the corner of her eye; it traces a path beside the bridge of her nose, following how she gazes down at you; it eventually falls against your cheek, and continues its path on you, until disappearing against the pillow.
At last, Lin slowly leans down. There's a newfound timidness in how her nose brushes yours, right before her lips press into the corner of your mouth. She lingers there; it's a promise and confession wrapped in one.
Your hand shifts on her waist; you lay your palm more firmly against her naked back, pulling her decidedly against you. Lin fits with you like a puzzle piece finding its place, and you feel the reassuring beat of her heart resting so close to yours.
"I'd choose you, too." You feel the shape of Lin's words more than you hear them.
You turn your head, closing your eyes when her lips find yours as though pulled by gravity. Lin smiles against your lips; "It's always been you."
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I've always tried to imagine Lin's uniform or formal gala attire; in my imagination, I believe it's something like this. I imagine she has many more decorations, but perhaps it would be too much to put so many medals on the uniform.
