god fucking damn LUCY AND LOCKWOOD'S FIGHT IN EPISODE 7 I CAN'T- the dualities of lockwood's recklessness never cease to break my heart. lockwood is so determined to not let anyone in but he just cant help but love lucy and george. their fight shows that he's reckless because he feels the need to save everyone before even thinking of saving himself, BECAUSE HE SEES HIMSELF AS UNLOVABLE.
"See when my time comes, I don't intend on leaving anyone behind who's gonna lie there every night, wishing that I would just walk through that door one more time." His recklessness serves not only a way to make sure that he keeps the people he loves safe, but also a bit of a way to push them away so that when he dies, they won't stay up at night, blaming themselves and wondering if they could've changed anything.
lucy later telling him to be "just reckless enough" was her way of saying that he needs to come home to them. that she and george need him and won't be the same without him and won't allow him to push them away.
i have so many thoughts on this i don't know how to state them all lololol