#live 2.0

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How Did Giuseppe Ottaviani’s Live 2.0 Sets ‘Evolve’ Into An Album? | Interview

Trance maestro, @GOttaviani answers questions about his upcoming album, ‘EVOLVER’ and many other topics in an in-depth interview. #trancefamily

Live music is something that brings us all together and really allows us to experience music in its purest and most raw form. The maestro of trance and label head for GO Music, Giuseppe Ottaviani has been bringing us his spectacular live performances for years now. With his ability to ‘wow’ the crowd each and every time he takes the stage, it’s for certain that an album based off these live…

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DIRECTO: Jugando [ The Binding of Isaac - Afterbirth Plus ] que mierda!! xD

! JUGANDO EN DIRECTO CON CAMARA A este juegaso de niveles y poderes madre mia mama me quiere matar xD !

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love

I have a hard time talking/typing about this in front of people. For the first time in my life I feel loved. Actually loved. I didn’t even know what it was. I didn’t know what I was missing out on. I will never be the same again. 

I have a hard time talking about it with others. I couldn’t figure out why. Then it dawned on me. There are too many people in the world that do not know what unconditional love is and do not believe in it. Therefore, they are haters. I was one of them. If your judgy self is coming out- 1. know I hope you get to feel this someday 2. keep your negative thoughts off my blog. 

I don’t think it happens often, well in relation to the rest of the world. However, I have seen it and am feeling it right now. Sometimes, for whatever crazy reason, the stars or moons or higher power or some crazy cosmic shit gets together and 2 people that are at the right place in their lives at the right time cross each other’s path and shit lines up. (I am uber fucking romantic sometimes). The ____ (insert whatever force you do or do not believe in here) happened to me. Happened to us.  

So, what was my definition of love and what is it now...

Was: frankly I didn’t believe in it. I thought it was a bunch of malarkey. Why my step sister told me about her partner changing something that altered their life plans I asked her how she worked through it- she told me she loved him. I thought she was bat shit crazy stupid. When my step-mother told me she hoped I found the love her and my dad have- I chalked it up to illusions. 

I have never received perceived unconditional love. I have also never given it. Yes, this means admitting I am a fucktard mother to my son. We share the same attachment issues ( thank you psychology world for not picking up on stuff earlier) What I mean by that is we both have attachment triggers with each other- we/I are working on them. It hasn’t dissolved overnight.  

I used to hear people say “I have to check with my husband/wife”. Sadly, I must admit I made fun of them. I thought those people were weak and a little/lot pathetic. It is your life, do what you want. That is what I THOUGHT. 

I still believe, and hopefully always will, that we each own our life and we should not have to ask PERMISSION for daily activities. My thought process change is in the DESIRE to WANT to involve someone else in day to day decisions. 

Was: Zero. Non-existent. Malarkey, bullshit answer for things. 

Today: 

- Please tell me what you think (um who the fuck am I???)

- My day sucked hairy, sweaty, donkey balls. Never-mind that though- tell me about your day. 

 - What, you are sad/stressed/mad/tired- Tell me who/what/why/when- I am totally going to want to go mother bear on them. 

- How can I be a better person for you. 

- I care about you. Who I am today isn’t good enough. I want to be better because I want you to get the best me available. 

- I feel strong with you

- I have dreams with you...#hawaii2017, #sellpackleave2020

- An established, safe, guy friend wants to stay at my house- um yeah ok- as long as you sleep 100 feet away from me (exaggeration related to I always looked at sleeping on the same flat surface as nbd, now I feel a little sick by it) 

-  The world is a new kind of scary. Because I am a pessimist by nature I think some fucked up person/force/being/whatever is going to take you away. Inducing a whole new level of anxiety. 

- Fortunately because you love me I don’t have to worry, as much, because you understand and let me know you are safe. Which lets me know I am safe. 

- I know I am in love crazy fucking omg i have to have you right now or i am going to die in love with you today. I also learned- this is going to fade- AND I/WE can keep it uber flipping awesome by actively trying to be better for ourselves and each other. 

- Most importantly- learning to love unconditionally is hard to send and receive. The best world is around the corner.  

I don’t know what love means to others or what they think it is supposed to mean. Mostly I don’t want to care or don’t care. This is where I am at today.