#lnd rambles

[vlightndarkv]

Well... Shit...

So accidentally pulled the battery out of my laptop while taking it out of my bag (how it got unlocked I have no idea) and ended up losing ALL the edits I had made so far on the second chapter of May I Steal Your Heart?

And when I say edits I really should say re-writes cause that’s what a lot of it was, parts getting completely re-written.

I’m just... so frustrated right now. There were a couple parts I struggled with for DAYS and now they’re gone. And of course my luck my word processor didn’t helpfully recover them like it did the last time I unexpectedly lost what I was working on.

... I really didn’t need this. I was already struggling with my writing to begin with, wondering if there was any point in me even continuing to do so. Now the thought of having to try and re-write that stuff again is just so... daunting.

And really what would be the point? It’s not like anyone really reads my stuff, and really my writing is mediocre at best so... *sigh* I just don’t know anymore... Writing was always my passion growing up, it was my escape, the one thing I thought I was good at. But then somewhere along the way I lost that, and try as I might I haven’t been able to get back the passion I once had for it. I can’t get excited about... anything that I write anymore. Maybe I should take this recent setback as a sign...

[vlightndarkv]

Problems I’m finding with on-line dating in Pennsylvania;

99% of the guys on there are either outdoor/hunter types or sports junkies.

The 1% that I find that are nerdy, gamer, book nerds are not looking for a full figured girl. >.<

[vlightndarkv]

So this happened halfway down the highway tonight. I'm okay, but this was the last thing I needed. As if I don't have enough on my mind now I have to worry about getting a new tire (because I have the money for that). *sigh* Bad stuff can stop happening any time now.

[vlightndarkv]

Wow. Just... Wow.

Got into work this morning and told my manager that I need a new name tag and headset. She asks where mine is and I say, "Somewhere in DC," and explain how my purse got stolen. Instead of an "Oh no I'm sorry" or "Are you okay?" I get a fucking lecture about why I had it (the headset))with me in the first place.

I kept it in my purse because if I didn't I would lose or forget it. I said as much to her and she goes, "Well that worked well for you didn't it?"

Fucking REALLY? I just fucking told you my purse was STOLEN and you say THAT to me?

I am so beyond pissed right now it isn't even funny. But of course I'm a fucking emotionless retail drone so I have to pretend like I'm perfectly fine.

I put up with a lot of shit with this manager, but I always try to take it with a grain of salt and cut her some slack because I know her job isn't easy, but this? I've lost some respect for her after this.

[vlightndarkv]

So had my official first day at Hot Topic today. All the information was slightly overwhelming, but that's to be expected. Overall was still a good day, looking forward to working there. ^.^

[vlightndarkv]

God what a morning. Go to start my car this morning to go to work, takes a couple tries to get it started. Then once I got it started I turned it back off to reply to a message, and then it wouldn't start at all (of course). Called work to say and was given no option but to find a way to get there. Thankfully my mother was home, we ran up Walmart to get a battery (because I was fairly certain that was the problem) and thankfully had just enough money to get it. Then it took forever to get it in because I kept having to run back and forth between my car abd the house for tools because I didn't know what I needed. In the end I was like an hour and a half late for work and don't know how late my manager will want me to stay. *sigh* Crap day is crap.

[vlightndarkv]

Conversation I just had with my mother

Mom: So how’d it go?

Me: *blank stare* How’d what go?

Mom: *exasperated sigh* Going out to eat. Isn’t that where you just got back from? (my brother and I took our dad out for Father’s Day)

Me: *now baffled stare* Fine? We went, we ate, we came home?

Mom: What did you talk about?

Me: I don’t know, a lot of random shit?

Mom: Me?

Me: *blank stare once again* I don’t- We talked about a lot of stuff I don’t remember.

Mom: Well think.

Me: *continues to stare* I don’t know?

Mom: *sighs, turns and leaves my room while shaking head*

Like, what the hell did she want me to say??? I’m sitting here completely baffled because there was clearly a specific answer she wanted and I have no idea what it was. Why is she even wondering if we talked about her I don’t even.

[vlightndarkv]

Literal comment about something a customer said that I just heard over my headset at work. "Donna, she didn't want drapery material because she's making curtains." I just... I can't even people anymore...