Still no reply and I'm still super hungry and it's only gonna get more annoying...can't eat until he gets here. Otherwise it'll ruin it.
My temperature regulation is usually bad, but today it feels worse. I was so so cold when I started my workout, then I got into it and was overheating and felt way too hot, but I wasn't sweating much so it was more difficult to cool down, now since I finished I've been really cold again...really annoying.
Anyway I noticed some good stuff. Little improvements. I took my waist measurement before my workout and it's finally back to 29in. It's been at 30-30.5 for a while, I think I even hit 31 at my highest... It's been so long since I was that big I can't stand it. My hips are about 43.5 so down a little bit, an inch or so from last time I measured. But my hips aren't the bit I want to lose from most, my waist is, so I'm definitely glad that's gone down.
Then I put my sports bra on and did it up on the middle hooks rather than the loosest. For ages it's felt slightly too tight even on the loosest hooks, but today the middle hooks fit perfectly. And I didn't feel like my boobs are suffocating in it, just a good fit. I don't really have big boobs, when I get under 130-135 I'm pretty flat chested, so having boobs like this is kinda weird for me. I think I'd be okay with it if they weren't saggy and the rest of me wasn't fat. But it just feels like they clash with my chin or belly depending on angle etc, and I've always had saggy boobs. That's one thing I want surgery for.
Anyway my measurements are 36.5 - 29 - 43.5 today, which is still way bigger than I want, but I feel less fat and more chunky if that makes sense. Some of the jiggle is gone. I also noticed that during my actual workout - my arms weren't jiggling quite as much, and my back folds are disappearing. At 161-163 I found the workouts so unpleasant because every movement had my back folding over itself. Standing with proper posture just creates so many bulges on the back I've been hunching forward a bit, and to hide my belly and boobs. So bad for my spine. I feel a bit more able to stand upright now without feeling all my fat rub against itself on my back.
And...I can fit into my medium jeans. I say medium, they're size UK 10. I've been wearing 12s forever but I'm used to being an 8. Or at least in that range - not many places make jeans for my shape so I often just get super stretchy jeggings that fit my waist and will stretch out over my butt and hips. I like my shape. I just hate my size. But yeah. My size 10s are a little tight still, but the 12s are huge and keep falling off. Can't fucking wait to be able to wear my 8s again. And to get size 6 tops. Cannot. Fucking. Wait.
So I will enjoy that food later...but only that...nothing else except salad and squash today because I think I need hydration and fibre. But everything has to be negative calories like lettuce and that. I'm gonna fucking do this. One way or another.
