#lol personal post

[drarry-with-a-side-of-harry]

lol I just watched Thor again tonight, this time with my parents and it was just as good as the first time round ehehehe and I love having to explain bits to them ehehehehehehehehehe and I forgot how much I love Loki the little shit ehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe

[haptureratch]

Him: free this weekend (he says 🫠)

Me: clown, reporting for duty -SIR- 🤡🫡

Look Jess I get that Mom was emotionally available but never physically around and Dad was always around and emotionally unavailable but like.....can we stop with these men already....

I didn't even kiss him the last time he came over and I've greatly lessened my sexual energy in even my private life. It's a whole lot less present. So why do I keep thinking about him even though he ignores me or gets caught in other things or has other priorities. I'm so tired dude. I just wanna find my house and move in and be stuck there 5+ years crying over my mortgage and student loans and unmet expectations of becoming a physician lmaooooo oh here comes the spiral~

[swampwaterdog]

had a dream someone was about to kill me death battle style and I begged saying I had a wife and a child on the way (bc in the dream, I did) and they spared me... I'm awake now and I still feel that... powerful

[lovenikkigallery]

this event made me realize I have 82% of the wardrobe! I knew I had a lot of clothes but not that much (　ﾟдﾟ);;;; I’m going to start working on making an outfit for every item since I’ve been so uncreative with LN lately

[freethegrizzlybears]

i love the rain

but im trying to go skateboarding 

tuesdays and thursdays i have class from the am to pm 

Sad face. 

[justpar]

Buzzfeed video: Do You Know the Person You Convinced Yourself You’re In Love With in the Span of 3 weeks and However Many Months After They Broke Things Off Better than Their Casual Classmate Aquaintance Friends

Question 1: what is my gender

Question 2: what are my pronouns

Question 3: what is the thing that people do to me that I hate most

Question 4: what is ANYTHING AT ALL ABT ME THAT U DIDNT MAKE UP IN YOUR OWN HEAD

[laughingcrying]

(i won't be offended if u don't read or anything it literally is just annoying personal blah blah blah)

in all honesty to read this you need backstory but i don't feel like giving it but if u want it don't hesitate 2 ask

i haven't left my house in four days and even when i do leave my house it's to see like two different people and i know my mom is just always pitying me and making me feel like a waste case and just living away from my dad is so hard because all the things he and my stepmom have done to make me feel like shit over the past twelve years keep like hitting me over the head bc now there's really nothing i can do about it and they just made me feel worthless and being alone or with my mom (which is similar to being alone bc all she does is sleep and pity me) just make me drown in self pity and like i'm looking for a job but that isn't an overnight thing and i just hate myself

and like today i made myself look really nice and stuff but even that makes me sad bc i feel like all i'm really valued for is looking nice sometimes and that's so dependent on makeup and nice clothes and so many things so really the only thing i'm good at isn't even real it's manufactured

and just in general i feel lost and i feel like my parents don't listen to me and they never have bc we're all so fucking self-absorbed except i don't even have that luxury bc when i don't pay attention to them (well my stepmom and my dad really) they flip and i'm just never allowed to not be okay, i'm always fine and i'm always nice and never allowed to be mean but everyone just takes that for granted and treats me like shit all the time and i have my friends who mean more to me than anyone else in the entire world but they're all in school and one of my best friends is in vermont and i cried all day the last time i saw her and my other best friend is literally the only reason i'm still in one piece right now

this was so long and it had literally no point i'm so sorry you had to read this but thank you omg you're allowed to tell me all your problems now and i'll listen i love you lil b loves you harry styles loves you jfc i'll delete this maybe bc i'm no good at shitty personal posts this is annoying as hell why do i even have friends on this website

i hope you have a really good day/night/wherever you are :* :* ♥♥♥♥♥

[fuckyeahtimlincecum]

ugh i haven't posted my own personal analyses in ages because i've been so busy & i haven't even watched that many starts but i'll force myself to this start

ugh actual life