#lonewolflupe rambles

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I offer you a low effort Fives in these trying times

So after over 2 hours of serious drawing attempts, this is the only thing I'm gonna drop here today. I apologise. Today was the only day I was able to draw and I threw it all away. The exhaustion ate all my inspiration and motivation. Alright I'm gonna mentally prepare for the terror work week that will start tomorrow, see you all in about a week (I hope)

Also I can't believe these are the best pauldrons I've ever drawn why does nothing work out when I try really hard why are my efforts not being rewarded why does the dust not wait for a whole rotation before settling down after I've cleaned the whole damn house

Woosh woosh off in the void now

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Hi loves, this is @lonewolflupe . I'm still trying to get my main unbanned (read context), but I'm creating a backup blog just to be sure.

EDIT 2 I GOT UNSHADOWBANNED, LUPE IS BACK IN THE HOUUUUUSE

I'm leaving this blog up just in case anything happens again, but you can reach me through my main again (: Thanks for all your support <3

EDIT 1 So I'm gonna use this blog for queuing reblogs from my main, so all my original posts (and some gifts/content that is precious to me) will be saved here. I've been going through my mass editor for hours, and I have finally reached January. I'm now at about 350 reblogs, RIP Lupe; I had no idea I posted this much since June, oops. I started with one reblog every hour but have upped it to 2 per hour. Hopefully this will not trigger another spam ban ahahahaha *cries in corner*

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Look what the tooka dragged in

Hi lovelies, sorry for disappearing on all of you (again). It wasn’t my intention but I’m afraid depression got the better of me. I hate to bother you with the details so long story short, it’s the worst it’s been in years and I just don’t have any energy left. Even fun things cost too much energy, so not a lot of things feel like fun things anymore, if that makes sense? I haven’t drawn in over two months (can’t even remember the last time I’ve written something), and although I miss it dearly, I just can’t get myself back into it. And it’s not because of a lack of ideas, because I have plenty. I just can’t find the energy/motivation anymore.

I’m sorry for missing out on all the fun around here, please know I miss the clones and all of you dearly. I’m trying to do better so I can hopefully return here some day soon, in all my chaotic glory. I just can’t keep up anymore - with work, with family/friends, with adult responsibilities, etcetera. The list in my head of things I have to get back to gives me anxiety, sometimes I just wish I could simply disappear.

Please don’t take it personal if I don’t respond to any comments/messages/tags here or anywhere. I try to check my Discord but most of the time I just can’t find the energy to reply to messages, I’m sorry ): I’m mainly on Steam these days because playing silly little indie games is the only thing that currently brings me joy.

I hope you’re all doing better than I am, just know I think about you, the clones and this place often, and I’m hoping to be back somewhere soon (I miss the feeling of enjoying things).

Love you folks, please take care <3 

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2025 in art ✨

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Statistics

I posted about 200 drawings (#lonewolflupe draws), of which 175 were digitally drawn (I didn't save my traditional pieces on my computer, so I have a hard time counting them)

I hosted 5 and participated in 8 different events

GAR Goth Night, whooooooooo 🤘🏼💜🖤💜🤘🏼

I got hopelessly devoted to you Delta Squad

Famous last words

It's just a 20 year old game, how obsessed can I get hahaha? ~Lupe, seconds before playing Republic Commando (2005) for the first time (and getting completely obsesses by it)

Here's a small summary of my art progress through the months!

January I continued redrawing memes as part of my 300 followers event Meme Mania. It's been so much fun working on your requests, and I loved redrawing memes (I love memes yippeeee). Near the end of the month, I started preperations for my Valentine's Event.

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February I had an absolute blast hosting my Valentine's Event. Creating the art was *yum* and coming up with the one liners was so much fun! Also getting asks from you guys in my ask box as part of the event warmed my heart <3 After this, I had to rush to get some content ready for Clone x OC Week, but a managed. What a glorious event! I also managed to finish my magnum opus for GAR Goth Night. < You should check out this tag if you haven't; hot dang, this fandom escalation was a delight.

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March For my birthday at the end of February, I hosted a little BDay Party Event. You sent in some of the funniest and sweetest requests, and I enjoyed working on all of them <3 GAR Goth Night escalated further, and of course I continued working on some event art and personal pieces.

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April Rule '25: Delta Squad is still hot, even after 20 years. Yes you guessed right, this is where my brain went downhill - into a beautiful bliss in the shape of four handsome murder machines; Republic Commandos Boss, Fixer, Sev and Scorch. Aka Delta Squad. Or my newest obsession. A hyperfixation (RepComm) within a hyperfixation (Clone Wars) within a hyperfixation (Star Wars). And no, I haven't recovered from it on this eve of a new year. Long story short, I started playing Republic Commando (2005) for the first time and it had me rambling and drawing Deltas! Yes there was also normal stuff but mostly RepComm. Mmmmm, RepComm <3

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May Despite my newest RepComm obsession, I managed to prepare art for the lovely May01st event. It was really fun to come up with themed art in the same style. I got a lot of positive replies, and I'd actually love to create stickers some day (I just need to figure out how, but thanks for the encouragement <3 It was also the month where I realised how much I loved doing thick outlines on my art, so I kinda started using it on most of my art from there on. Also more RepComm art ahahaha, don't act surprised. I also worked on a new ref sheet for Lupe, which was supposed to drop on her anniversary in June, but oh well let's try and make it happen before June 2026, shall we?

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June YESSSSSSSSSSS DELTA SQUAD WEEK GOOOOOOOOO (no I'm totally not obsessed with Delta Squad still, why are you asking). My sweet, handsome murderous bois got their own event and I was so so stoked to participate! I ended up doing one drawing for every day, and writing little ficlets for the extra prompts (here's my masterlist). I'm hoping Delta Squad Week will return in 2026, because I need more Delta content yessssss come at me feed me aaaaaaahadsfljadlfjadsfjakfjfafkj (I'm totally normal about them). Oh yes I also did a Pride PFP event for Pride Month (:

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July July was weird. I did finish and post some art, but my head was in a weird place when I finally had my summer vacation. I didn't get into drawing as much as I would have liked.

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August Same with August, really. I did some art, but couldn't get myself to drawing as much as I would have liked. I did end up doing some traditional drawings (mostly headshots/busts) in my sketchbook. I started sending them out as ask box gifts, but I kinda lost track and never continued them. I'm sorry to everyone I intended to gift; the drawings are still saved on my phone somewhere..

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September Let's just skip September.

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October Whoooops and October as well.

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November Some silly doodles helped me get back into drawing. I know they aren't much, but they did help me finding a better mindset, so I'm happy with them (: Given the circumstances (kriff chronic and mental health issues, ugh).

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December *chanting* Sev! Sev! Sev! Yaaaay Sev Week Event!! I realise now I totally forgot to create a masterlist; will do that next year (heh). I couldn't prep as much as I wanted for this event, but in the end, managed a drawing for every day. It felt great, working on some RepComm art again - and seeing all the content on my dash (thanks to all participants <3). I couldn't get myself to a new Advent Event (or anything else Christmas-y) unfortunately, but you all seemed to like my Merry Crisis card, so I got that going for me, which is nice.

For 2026..

I kinda gave up on shading this last year, because I can't get it right and it doesn't bring me joy haha. So it's mostly flat coloured drawings (but I love giving the boys some faint blush on their faces yesyesyes). I did manage my first backgrounds this year, but definitely want to improve it - same as with anatomy stuff (which still scares me, but oh well). Also I would love to get back into writing, because I kinda neglected that in 2025 (unintentionally).

Anyway, you're not rid of me yet! I had some health related downs this year, but I somehow always manage to get back on top of things. The clones and you guys bring me joy and pleasure and energy - you give me life. I'm still so thankful for all the friendships I've made since I joined Tumblr, and this year here has been a blast. Thanks again, folks <3 Wishing you all the best for 2026 and can't wait to see what it'll bring us (hopefully lots of good and clones and sleep and calmth and stuff)!

Love, Lupe

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I haven't watched Maul Shadow Lord yet since I'm just heading home from work, but I already ran into gay fanart here on Tumblr

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Masterlist

Hi my lovelies, my chaos children. I hate doing one of these posts again, but here I am with another one. Also I had totally planned on posting this weeks earlier but life happened, you know?

Again, I apologise for my absence. And again, I know you're all gonna say 'no need to apologise, take care of yourself first, we'll be here when you get back' (and you're all total sweethearts for it).

It's just that I feel bad about missing out on all your awesome content, for not interacting with it, for not replying to all your comments/messages, and for not creating and sharing new content myself. The problem is that I'm just not able to at the moment.

My chronic health issues have come to a point where I just can't enjoy life things anymore. Work's been so much these past weeks, and the moments I'm at home I just need to collapse and try to recharge for the upcoming workday. I currently don't have the energy to draw, to write, to read or to reply, and I hate it but it's just reality at the moment.

It's really gotten to my mental health too, feeding my lingering depression and transforming it into a nasty feeling of failure and lack of purpose etcetera etcetera. You know that feeling when something inside you just wants to scream and cry, but it somehow can't, like it's being drowned? Yeah that feeling kriffing sucks and I feel like I'm trapped in this endless cycle of purposelessness.

OK sorry for getting dark with you, I promise I'll be good and I know my health will get a tad better when work settles down (if it ever does). Please keep creating clone content, you're all doing the Maker's work 🫡 I still have those blorbos on my mind 24/7 so if I can breathe again, I'll be back here. Don't worry about me (:

Sorry again and see you all soon, hopefully ❤️

PS Having 2 to 3 comfort songs on repeat for weeks on end helps me keeping my last spark of sanity

PPS Also spooky season of course. I just want to boil my bones and put them on display on the windowsill to scare off everyone (they need to leave me alone), also I love bones I own more bones than I have in my body but that's something I won't elaborate any further here, just know I got them fair and square well more round from the ground, have you ever seen a square bone ahahaha yeah I need my comfort songs on repeat again ok bye love you all please be good ish

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LOVES I GOT UNSHADOWBANNED!!!

It took 11 days to get my account fixed but I guess St Patrick's Day IS a lucky day ☘️

Unfortunately I have a very busy week coming up and I currenlty lack all energy to do stuff so I'm afraid I won't be able to catch up with all of you and all the glorious content I missed until the weekend, but I AM able to tag get tagged comment DM and do proper reblogs again!!!

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To all my vode, friends, mutuals, and followers 

Today exactly one year ago, after over 2 months of lurking, I finally found the courage to drop my very first Tumblr post. Yeah alright, *clap clap*, Earth orbited around the sun one time, what’s the big deal? Well, the big deal is, and I know I’ve become sentimental about this before, but I’m so grateful for making that decision, and for everyone accompanying me on my journey since.

I remember during my Instagram years (please don’t make me go back there), I was talking to someone and we were discussing moving platforms. They ended up saying: whatever you do, don’t join Tumblr. And boy, am I glad I rebelled (that’s a tad dramatic but I do love getting a bit theatrical from time to time) and jumped into the Tumblr void anyway.

I cannot thank all of you for your encouragement, for your support, for your enthusiasm, for your friendships. I’ve said this before, but I’ve never felt as at home as you make me feel here, and I thank you all for it. I do hope to be around here for many, many more years, but this first year has been a blast.

At the start of 2024, I couldn’t have imagined I would start writing fanfiction, and even more surprisingly, I would start drawing humans? And even enjoying doing so?!? Oh my, what a galaxy we live in! And now, with around 260 art pieces and 39 written works shared, and rapidly reaching 500 followers, I’m so excited to see what the Tumblr-future will bring. I cannot wait to progress with my art, to continue these amazing friendships, to discover other wonderful creators and creations.

I wish I could have prepared something more exciting for this, but I had some pretty hectic weeks and am still preparing something Lupe-related for next week, but I wanted to write down my silly ramblings to show you all my appreciation for this community. I know life isn’t perfect and fandoms aren’t either (I’m just going to forget about recent anon), but I’m glad to be non-perfect in this community.

Thank you for being here with me, and for making Star Wars even better for me <3 

Love, Lupe