they weren’t quite friends anymore . . .

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they weren’t quite friends anymore . . .
It’s like I woke up one day and I was okay. I want to say it was a Tuesday? Or maybe even a Monday? Nothing special, really. But that day I woke up and the aching and longing were gone and I realized I no longer hated you. I realized I no longer loved you either.
-J.A.V
And when she smiled, it was as if the world were nothing and she was everything. It was one of the most beautiful things that my mortal eyes could have ever seen. She could have been the muse of all, the daily inspiration of everybody, she could have been the perfect one.
fourteen-year-old me
I want you here, it hurts me everytime I think of you, it's a thought that manipulates everything, my opinions, my feelings, my reactions, my looks... and it hurts, it hurts so badly that I feel as if I were destinated for it, it is just a thought, an infinite thought. You are that thought.
Just a rough day
Wow thinking about you again feels all too familiar. Fuck I loved you so. I miss those days we used to talk. I miss the days I knew you and all the secret places in your head. I miss going to those places with you. I miss when everything was so easy and we were so in love. Thank you for being there for me in that time of my life, but God do I need you now more than ever. I know you’re busy and I know you’re involved with her but when you find some empty time, will you think of me? You were the first person I ever cried over and I will continue to cry over you in my spare time. I will always enjoy spending time with you, no matter what we do. You made me so happy. I never realized how happy you made me until she came into my life and made it pure hell. Losing you tore me apart. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry. I loved you, I love you and I will always love you. There’s a part of me that will always be for you and that part will stay sunshine and happiness and amazing memories. Please I hope you have a part of you for me. God please have a part for me. You mean too much to me for me to be missing from your life altogether. Never forget me. Please don’t forget me.
please keep a part of you for me
I hate your pale, ghostly skin and how it’s so white it glows. I hate your pointy collar bone and the memory of my teeth sinking into the skin surrounding it. I hate the smell of your hair and the strands that fell onto my face. I hate the color of your eyes, the most beautiful thing on this God forsaken planet. I hate my fingernails and how they slid up and down your back and how your skin cells may still be tucked safely between the nail and skin of my fingers. I hate what you did to me but Jesus Christ I could never hate you.
I could never hate you
#lookcassie I know this doesn't describe much but I thought you'll like it.
what is right...?
sometimes we need to forget about what we think is the 'right' way to do things, or the 'right' person to be with, or the 'right' time to be with someone, and just do whatever the fuck it is that will make us happy...