In this moment Octavia was thinking, "Damn, she is not the buff woman I made her up to be in my head from her Insta posts. She isโฆ even more lost than I ever was." I imagine how the overall romantic feeling of the situation and the words Loona said were messing with Octaviaโs brain. "Was she saying it because she really meant it, orโฆ does she just not even know what sheโs talking about?"
Then in Sinsmas, Octavia watches from afar, like Loona lets Blitz โ who she previously despised โ ride her like a horse, and understands. She had time, she thought about it, believe me, she thought. She thought about it to make the right decision.
Walking away felt extremely emptying, not only because she walked away from her abusive dad, whose life she fucked over, but her lover too. And if Stolas is better off without her, for sure, she still canโt just live with how much she learned about Loona from those words she said to her.
